lucidol

Just got myself a new hair product today.. it's this glossy water thingy from lucidol, which comes from the gatsby co. haha.. they got namie amuro to endorse the product.. which was partly why the product looked so attractive.. They had a tester as well.. and the salesgirl let me try the spray.. somehow I couldn't see the difference in my hair.. but guess what? I bought it anyway.. stupid.. I've no idea why I did that..

My stupid printer is giving me problems again.. All my white paper's turning grey.. what a waste of carbon.. This stupid printer is now causing me more inconvenience than ever.. sighz...

oh yah.. now I remember what I was supposed to write about today... my presentation!!
aargh.. blood boils when I talk about this..
Well, yesterday night I think I rehearsed my presentation speech for at least 5 times. So much so that this morning, I was able to present my slides without even looking at my script.. I was kinda impressed with myself.. ha.. well this is the first time I prepared a script and didn't use it (previous times I had no script.. just shoot offhand..) and initially i was pressuring myself to get an A for this presentation.. after the multiple rehearsals yesterday, I thought I would be ok.. or at least somewhere on track..

Then came today.. I think the main problem was because I knew exactly what to say.. and so everything just came shooting out.. and the tutor maintained that I had no eye contact with the audience even though I was back facing him.. (how could he see?)
and well.. I obviously didn't do ok for this.. got a C... KOW. it's a C lor.. After all that effort I get a C.. It's just made me conclude that I'm never gonna prepare for a presentation ever again..

And this well.. is my first obstacle this yr to my honors.. A big C to prevent me from getting my A.. sighz.. but well... I've decided that I'll try to make up for it in class participation.. (where my score currently stands at zero.. haven't spoken a single word in class..) But i'll try. I realise that effort needs to be put in! How can I expect my honors when I shut up in class.. Ok.. so from today onwards I'll try to participate in class. I hope I keep my word. I think I shall write the word 'honors' on top of my file so that I'll be reminded of my goal everytime I step into class.. and hopefully that will induce the words outta my mouth.

sighz.. It's a horrible existence to do everything for the sake of my grades.. So cheap.. Meaningless existence.. but on the other hand, I'm not ready to do whatever that's considered a valuable existence.. i.e. helping others, etc. Nope. I'm not this noble yet.. Still leading a selfish life at the moment.. I just saw 2 pairs of sandals.. I think I'll get them over the weekend or something.. AH.. retail therapy.. Kinda bad that my parents gotta pay for my actions..

ok.. i realise I'm starting to be incoherent.. who cares.. I think I'll prob feel alot better if I manage to get my sandals this week..

There's prac again tmr.. in the evening.. Which means I gotta pia my work in the day.. sighz.. And I haven't had time to practise my piano.. Gonna waste the lesson this fri again..

and the Dove shampoo sux.. it's oily but it doesn't moisturize the hair enough.. I think I'll have to revert back to using normal shampoo and conditioner.. sighz. When can I find the perfect shampoo...