FINDING work is so stressful!

i can't describe how stressed out i am now.. and over wat?? deutsche bank.. kow.. they are so explicitly demanding that it's scary.. the freaking application is due on friday... i don't have time to write my cover letter tmr... i have half an hour left from now until my show starts.. HOW??
this is what it says on their site:

Other qualities we look for in our candidates include superior quantitative and analytical aptitude, creative problem-solving abilities, excellent communication skills, and demonstrated leadership potential.

gawd!! i don't have any of that!!

Interview Preparation
Before your interview, be sure to thoroughly research Deutsche Bank as well as the industry in general. This includes reading the trade press, annual reports, and company brochures as well as researching finance-related websites. Find out who the key players are in the industry. Talk to as many friends, professors, alumni, and acquaintances involved in the industry as possible. Attend the Deutsche Bank recruitment talks on campus. Know why you want a career in Global Banking at Deutsche Bank.

Make it your mission to stand out!

wth!! after reading that i'm not so sure if i wanna apply there anymore.. it makes me damn scared la! i mean i should suppose the other companies implicitly want us to know about the industry and stuff (which makes me feel super duper ill-prepared), but this blatant demand really gives us no excuse not to know...

I AM STRESSED!!

i should suppose giving up the application is pure escapism... but aargh... the deadline is so near... and i don't exactly wanna waste my effort writing the cover letter... writing DOES take me effort y'know... sighz...

ok... i'd better at least open ms word b4 complaining so much...

what if i don't get a gd job?

(hey lala! pls dun sue me for plagiarism!)

sighz.. just went for the deutsche bank talk today.. quite short.. but nonetheless impactful.. well... as msN puts it, they all got alotta drive..

and yeah.. upon reflection i think the image they portray is a very no-nonsense one.. if i were to use a color to describe it, it'd be grey.. or bluish grey (i think i mite have been affected by the color of their brochure.. haha)

in contrast, accenture seems like a fun-ner environment.. even though both boast of great career prospects with hard work involved..

ah well.. but the application for DB is due on friday!! nuts.. i have like only 4 days to consider, and i sure hope they don't require a cover letter.. or else i'm so not gonna have time for it..
and really.. there are so many interviews for everything and i'm positive that i'll screw them up.. how??

my first step to correct this is of course the interview workshop.. but after nearly 10 years worth of doing presentations in school, i still get the jitters.. so what's one workshop gonna change..

and i'm so beginning to think that hsbc was really a company i shouldn't have missed.. think i'll go to their website and see what i can do..

in the meantime, hopefully the barclays one will work out.. i get the idea that DB and barclays are similar.. i suppose it's the european feel..

and this is another big question.. should i start my first job as an auditor or not?? this is so gonna change my whole career path... pressing need to make the right choice.. aahh.. everything's just coming too fast.. as the DB guy puts it, "the cotton wool between [my] ears" cannot take it...

troublesome!!

looking for jobs is such a hassle!! there's the resume writing and forms to fill.. certs to zap and photos to take.. and now there's the cover letter to write.. and it doesn't help that there are so many resume writing courses out there, making me fill that my resume is substandard, and so will my cover letter..

ahhhh.. im super envying all the bonded people now.. bet they don't have to write anything at all.. sit back, relax and enjoy... while all the companies come crawling to them, the companies marketing themselves to them... ah..

tax

ahh.. just had tax quiz today... even though i'd only spent about 3hrs in total studying for it, i was quite determined to do well... and when i finished doing the paper, i thought i should be able to get like... at least 8/10.. in fact.. i was so hoping that i would get 9 or 10 la.. but it turned out that i ended up with 7.. which was quite irritating actually.. cos for one of the qns, i'm positive that the tutor din mention anything about it b4.. sighz...

and u know.. his mcqs are REALLY tricky! in a way i think he's quite smart la.. cos there are 4 choices for MCQ rite... his choices are like this:
a) xxx,
b) yyy,
c) both a n b are correct
d) both a n b are wrong.

wth.. which makes it very hard to guess.. as my friend said, you can't just be sure about your answer, you gotta be doubly sure..

i suppose 7 is ok la.. but really.. when there are only 10 questions, it's harder to do well...

gonna practise piano now... my cousin just came and gave us a box of goodwood park mooncakes.. sigh.. how in the world can i reduce my cholesterol level???

i'll wait til after mid-autumn...

health checkup

jus came back from this health checkup thingy.. and i received both good and bad news.. well... first they took height and weight.. and gas wat? they said i was 158.5... the last time i measured it was 157.5... which means i grew 1cm!! ok maybe i'm still a growing child.. haha.. i shall work harder..

then came the blood test.. kow dunno why.. think i was too tensed or what.. the part of the arm where they drew the blood from is still swollen.. yuk.. anw.. that's not the point.. the main point being, i was actually kinda worried that my fat levels would be too high.. but the body fat analysis was ok... turned out that i have too much cholesterol!! can u imagine a 20-year old girl with HIGH CHOLESTEROL??!! irritating.. apparently i've got quite a good high level of good cholesterol (HDL).. but the prob was... i haf a high level of bad cholesterol (LDL) too! WTH...

so i looked at the sources of cholesterol... it says:

Saturated fat -- fatty meat, chicken and duck skin, full cream dairy products, lard, coconut cream, palm oil, hard margarine

well i can safely say that i DON'T eat such stuff.. i hate fatty meat.. as do animal skins.. the only thing i can think of from this category is cheesecake..

but i think my problem comes from this:

Trans fat -- deep fried fast food, pastries, commercially produced cookies and snack foods (e.g. potato chips)

kow! i think my fast food intake is quite low.. as do the deep fried bits.. think i hardly eat deep fried stuff... but i can't say the same about the cookies and chips.. sighz.. does this mean that i have to give up the sole pleasures in life?

i was wondering if the problem mite have arisen from my recent mooncake fiesta.. worst thing being, since we had to wait for the report to process, we went for lunch first.. and i ate... satay bee hoon... (not very great tasting though..) and on the way back i bought pineapple tarts too.. then came the bad news... now i dunno what to do with my tarts.. eat them or not...

but well.. i should suppose the main problem also lies in the lack of physical activity.. other than shopping, i think my main source of movement comes from going to the kitchen to get more junk and walking back to my room.. aargh.. i guess taking public transport is a good thing after all... there's quite a bit of distance involved in walking to the mrt station, and quite a bit of aerobic activity in running after the bus...

oh.. talk abt aerobic activity.. i saw something on tv today... it says that fat can only be burned during aerobic activity.. hmm.. so what sorta exercise constitutes non-aerobic/anaerobic/(whatever) activity?

and from this certain magazine i read that too much sleep can result in puffy eyes too.. i think it's time i invest in a tub of eye cream..

sighz

well it's the 21st today.. and the hsbc talk is on the 28th... i should suppose it just means that i'm not invited! kinda sad.. cos it does say something... msN was quite nice in saying that if i don't get it, it's prob cos i filled my expected level at "top 50%", which was of course, the lowest level they had there.. well.. the next one was "top 20%".. didn't think i was anywhere in there.. but well.. i decided to heck for the networking nights submission and put in 2nd upper for my expected honors.. haha..

but it's still quite sad that i dun get to go the hsbc thingy! ahhh...

ok forget it.. let me talk about happier things...

like my new mooncakes..

just when i was lamenting about no more mooncakes to eat, (cos my brother and I finished the prev box) and the next time i thought there would be mooncakes in my house would be when my father comes back (which is this fri), some kindhearted soul sent us this box from raffles hotel..

i think it's prob my first time eating raffles hotel mooncakes.. the box says mini snow skin mooncakes with champagne truffle and ganache.. dunno if i mentioned this before, but i DETEST snow skin... (with the exception of certain brands la).. well, when i opened this box, there was that snow skin smell.. the usual disgusting flour-y smell.. but i decided to take a bite anyway.. this is after all, raffles hotel..

ah.. didn't regret my actions.. the yucky smell disappeared after taking a bite, and my mouth was filled with the sweet lotus paste.. the coolest part is the "egg yolk", where it is obviously replaced by truffle.. tastes like sweet white chocolate..

basically this whole mooncake is just soft and sweet.. which i guess is the plus point of the snowskin.. they're all soft...

well.. here's the problem... this is a box of MINI mooncakes...

the box came yesterday.. there're 5 left now.. i think my mom still hasn't eaten any..

how's this gonna sustain for the rest of the week???!!!

ah well.. i'll try to figure it out somehow..

yay!!

woo hoo! i just finished doing 3 strategy maps... THREE's the big word... kow i used to take hours just to come up with one single pathetic strategy map but tada! today i did 3! well i obviously can't say that they're of top quality (ah.. what kinda quality can u expect from me??), but managing to fill up the darned boxes is a tough enough feat for me.. the kinda satisfaction that i get from sending the 3 files out to the rest of my fyp mates was...HAHA..

well i dun suppose they'll be checking their mail soon what with the silly quizzes coming up.. which means (i think) the burden of fyp will be off my shoulders for the rest of this week! hurray! one bad thing though.. i've no idea what's wrong with myself but this time round i did my work in ascending order of importance! meaning... i did the least important stuff first.. kinda silly.. cos this means that I HAVEN'T STUDIED FOR MY QUIZ!! but well.. i'm kinda hoping that this last minute kinda pressure will make me utilise my time better.. pia for the quiz at the end.. (i sure hope so.. cos the last time round i tried this, i ended up watching tv on the day b4.. and of course.. screwed up the quiz pretty badly.. 3 out of 10..)

ooh i just realised that it's not even 12 yet! haha.. well by rights i should start studying for the quiz now since i've so little time left.. but ah.. don't care.. i've already achieved an unfathomable feat today.. it's time to rest and recuperate... and yeah.. write my blog which i've neglected for the past few days..

the silly tutor still hasn't graded the notes i've taken yet.. loafing on the job!! maybe he hasn't got internet access at home.. sigh

and the mooncakes from the ubs ppl are here today! it's err.. white lotus with double yolk.. (eggs are expensive nowadays... haha) they're kinda half gone now... my little brother and I devoured approximately one whole each... (my mom and other bro ate like a few slices) i was pretty amazed.. cos there's only half a box left! and i've no idea who else is gonna give us mooncakes in the near future... meaning that my current supply is ending!! *gasp*

well i sure hope those ppl who are gonna give us mooncakes give us some kinda notice first.. cos i saw these wonderful tung lok mooncakes the other day and i really wanted to buy them... but well.. we usually end up with a lot of free mooncakes that we can't finish.. so buying new ones is kinda like out of the question.. but this time round mid-autumn's like just around the corner but there's only one box! what's happening? does this mean that i can finally pick what i want? heck.. if my new supply doesn't arrive by the end of this week i'm just going to buy a new box on my own..

and in the meantime, here's a 'lantern riddle' (deng1 mi2) or rather, a qian4 bian3 qns that i saw..

小红、小黑和小白，三个人一起坐车旅游，那么，谁会晕车呢？













































答案:小白兔{吐}......

airport part 2

sent ms T off yesterday.. kinda glad i went.. cos after all one year is a long time and many things may happen.. it was kinda weird when we were all standing at the departure gate sending her off.. weird in the sense that i felt i dunno... something... sadness? whatever..

when she came to say bye-bye to us individually, i gave her a hug and i thought.. hey.. i think i mite miss her after all.. haha.. it's quite funny how sometimes certain things have to happen before u realise certain other things.. there's this chinese phrase that goes 失去了才懂得珍惜.. of course it isn't to such an extent in this case.. but well.. u get the drift..

after she left the yaya sisterhood (or rather... sistahood) went for supper.. we had a guest member that night.. ms C.. quite interesting though.. spoke quite a bit to her.. in fact, i think so far i've spoken more to her in 2 days than this other ms C in the group in like... v long..

well.. and she seems like an interesting person.. maybe we'll see a bit more of her when there are more yaya outings..

as for now.. i shall decide on what vouchers to redeem with my dad's credit card pts...
*sinister laughter*

anw

i think sometimes i try to rationalise things a bit too much...

airport

at the beginning of the meeting on saturday i was still contemplating whether i should go send ms T off.. that was around 5.30pm i think.. at the end of it.. which was around 12 plus am, i decided to go.. i'm still not sure what made me decide to go..

well.. i'd just like to post a qns.. is time a factor in friendship? e.g. i had a very close friend in primary school.. we went to the same sec sch but we were in different classes.. and that gave us very little chance to meet up or communicate.. and we're still friends, but obviously not as close as we were.. not even close now la.. just like.. average..

does a lack of contact make the relationship fade away? but there are instances of good friends that haven't met in years and they're still on wonderful terms.. hmm..

then i was watching half of this movie the other day.. the sweetest thing.. it's about these 3 girls who're damn good friends (they're housemates).. it's got cameron diaz in it.. in any case, these 3 girls are so close that they talk about everything and do crazy things together.. then i thought about myself.. i have fun with my friends chatting, shopping etc. but i couldn't picture myself doing the nutty stuff in the movie.. so is it because it's a culture thing, or is it just that the relationship isn't as such?

and for me, i have different close friends at different stages of my life.. in a way such that the some of the close friends of the previous stages have now slid off to the level of being average friends.. that's normal right?

but if that is, then what was it that made my best friend my best friend 5 years ago but not anymore? or was it just a matter of circumstances? u make friends with people around you because most humans are parasitic creatures in terms of relationships.. can't live independently/isolated.. and therefore the ppl that u see most of the time at that certain stage most certainly becomes ur gd friend/s at that period. but when the environment changes, or when u move on to another situation, u need a different sort of friend for company. is that it?

i mean.. sometimes i wonder why i bother to keep in touch with my sec skool friends when i can perfectly survive without them now.. i've got my uni frens and etc. i used to wanna keep in contact because i thought it would be a waste for a frenship built up to go away just like that.. but sometimes people do change.. and i should suppose the relationship mite change too.. but of course change's not measurable.. sometimes i wonder if the relationship has changed or maybe i have changed. basically my point is, do we still keep in touch with them if we don't need them anymore? or is it a matter of the more the merrier? sometimes it's just that you haven't seen them for so long that they don't play a part in your life anymore. so what is it that makes us wanna meet them when they return? or do we really wanna meet them?

ok wat i'm trying to say is, sometimes, what's left of a friendship is just the label. or how do u tell whether there's more to it?

sharks i'm so bothered by it!

ok... i dunno why but i keep getting reminded of what i found out today.. someone in class said i was being v extra by volunteering to be recorder.. sigh... i realise that i get very bothered by ppl's remarks.. and how other ppl look at me.. which is bad! we should all live our lives for ourselves.. i'm suddenly reminded of this story... about a woman named Ruan Lingyu... dunno if her story is a true one.. but this woman (err.. actually i can't remember what happened..) hmm.. whatever happened to her.. she was accused of doing stuff that she didn't do.. and even though she kept telling herself that these are all untruths and she shouldn't be bothered by them, she eventually couldn't tolerate all the 'white eyes' (bai3 yan3) and 'cold and hot words' (leng3 chao2 re4 feng3) [haha... i think this direct translation is kinda funny..]... anyway yah.. she couldn't take it anymore and committed suicide.. and she left a note with 4 words... Ren2 yan2 ke3 wei4.. (literal translation: words are feared)

chilli tapioca chips

my newest craving for now is chilli tapioca chips.. just bought 4 packets from the supermarket today.. it's a malay kinda snack i think.. jus in case u dunno what it is, it's jus the normal tapioca chips covered in sweet chilli sauce and sometimes packed with ikan bilis and nuts..

went out with ms J today.. for lunch.. haven't gone out with her for quite some time.. what i'm really happy about is that we're still v san ba together! haha.. and i also found out that my volunteering to be recorder wasn't exactly very low profile.. sighz i just dunno how the others manage to do it.. but who cares? i'm finally not getting zero for participation.. and haha.. it's the hols liao..gives me some time to hide my face.. haha.. quite silly.. but now i'm eagerly waiting for the tutor to grade the my notes... sure hope i do well.. and as ms D says.. this sem get 2 strokes.. next sem get another 2 strokes then enough liao. yup. so next sem i better learn to open my mouth. no.. not just that... the voice has gotta come out too.. ha.. and i've no idea why.. i'm just feeling so sian/tired now that i can't even write in proper english.. somehow singlish fits this mood very well..

today's tax lecture was terrible.. i hardly absorbed a word that he said.. (and hey! i just realised that i'm writing in reverse chronological order.. weird..) and this is bad.. cos tax is supposed to be easy.. and i'm not getting it today.. think the holiday mood must have set in.. but the funniest thing today was of course the fact that none of the E students came in to interrupt.. the lecturer was complaining about not having any butt to kick.. i was pretty surprised myself.. cos his kick-butt announcement was made last week when E attendance was low... (we were having a quiz... they obviously didn't dare to come into a quiet writing frenzy..) and yah.. so I thought no one would have heard his announcement and history would repeat itself.. but surprisingly no one came today! bad news spread fast eh.. i guess no one wanted to risk getting his ass kicked.. ah well.. good riddance..

and in an hour's time i'll be setting off for marina bay.. going to check out 2 parks.. the marina city park and the marina promenade.. never been to either.. the NPB pics looked pretty nice.. but you know.. they're pics.. i sure hope we'll finish rackeying the places in time.. wanna get home soon to watch the 7pm show! and also the 8 and 9pm ones.. haha.. which means i'm gonna stink all the way til 10.. as always..

somehow i don't exactly feel v attached to the SD.. and i realise that i don't have much time left in there.. i'm graduating soon... but in any case.. it doesn't matter for now... no attachment mah... it's just quite sad that i've been there for so long but i don't know very many ppl.. but then i'm usually too busy to attend their activities.. neither is there a break for me to go to the oasis.. but well... don't care!

and tmr there'll be this farewell dinner thingy for ms T.. she'll be going away for a year.. and ah.. makes me reconsider our friendship again.. ever since we split classes in sec skool we've never been as close as we were before.. and this time round.. though i'm still going for the dinner, i'm not as enthusiastic as i would have been.. somehow the 'absence' has made the friendship fade somewhat.. IMO la of course.. sometimes i think i end up imposing my own ideas onto other ppl.. or making them out to be ppl that they are not..

and i'm also not super on about going to send her off.. is it bcos we don't have a strong enough relationship? or just that i'm not super on about sending anyone off at the airport.. i mean... i didn't send my dad off either.. and i could never understand my relatives that come to see us off.. maybe i'm just heartless la huh? i dunno.. but i was just thinking.. it's not as if the person's not coming back.. and there's this thing called email, and there's also icq and msn.. and the thing is (ok this is bad la..) i'm using these electronic means to communicate with even the frens who are living on this sunny island..

on a lighter note.. apparently the nominees for school belle (the tv prog) are out.. i haven't seen them yet... but heard that they're not exactly v good-looking.. and i wonder why ms Xfactor didn't get in.. someone pls nominate her!! i would if i could get hold of her photo..

shall go watch tv now..

i hope i'll have stuff to write about the park tonight!

awww..

just got a nice surprise.. no work for 304 this week! some review thingy going on.. cool.. but i've just found something to counter that.. extra work for 306.. bestest.. they just gotta give us work..

anw.. went shopping with ms N yesterday.. it was a purely shop-for-shoes trip.. great deviation from the boring work-towards-honors skool life.. we went marche for lunch.. and though i haven't been there in ages, nothing much has changed.. neither have i.. i ended up eating the same old fare as i always do.. we had... rosti with mushroom ragout.. and crepe with caramel bananas.. Well, I was considerably full after the rosti, what with the high level of carbohydrates and fat intake.. but i couldn't miss the crepe after coming here..

IMO, marche's got the best dessert crepe i've ever had.. i might be possibly shortsighted, or ill-exposed.. for i've only tried crepes from 2 other offerings: Out of the Pan and Crepes n Creme.. I gotta say OOTP offers better savoury crepes considering that they've got a better variety of ingredients to choose from, and an even nicer ambience to go with it.. (ok i'm diverting!! this is NOT supposed to be a comparison of the restaurants.. just the dessert crepe!!) ok.. back on track.. first.. let me tell u why marche's crepes are good..

1. the crepe is thin enough to taste crispy and light, and not doughy
2. the custard is gooood
3. the sauce they use for the caramel bananas is gd too!
4. actually at this pt of time, i think i made a mistake in my claim.. i shld say.. the banana crepe is good.. not ALL marche crepes.. haha..

i always have my crepes without ice-cream.. or at least, the ice cream will be on the side if i do order it.. cos unless u eat fast enough, by the time u finish a quarter of this heavenly smelling dessert, the ice cream would have fairly melted and soaked up the crepe... and obviously.. the crepe is no longer crispy, but soggy..

and b4 i continue.. i realise that there quite a lot of ppl out there that pronounce 'crepe' in a variety of ways.. but well.. if u speak british english, (or at least, here in sunny island we try to adopt the UK system,) crepe is pronounced 'krape', and NOT 'creep' or 'crap' or any other weird pronunciation that i can't think of at the moment.. and i shouldn't think that the american pronunciation will differ much from this... someone please enlighten me if i'm wrong..

ANYWAY, the main thing being that most dessert crepes offer ice cream with their crepes.. which just makes everything soggy.. and which is probably why i think all the other crepes don't pass my standard.. but in any case, crepes and creme uses a funny sorta flour for their crepe.. i can't comment on the quality, because i have no knowledge about flour.. but i can sure say they're crepes are not sweet.. and they are mostly tooo thick.. u feel like u're eating a pancake instead..

now moving on to my shoes.. we went like... many different shoe shops.. (oh my gdness!! i jus discovered that i this blog offers quite a huge variety of font colors! ok.. call me suaku)
my aim was actually to get a pair of flats, or maybe with a lil bit of heel so that i can wear them with my skirts without looking too casual (which my beach-looking slippers are doing).. but prior to that, we went to get ms N's shoes which is a pair of high heels... quite nice... dainty looking too... shan't spend too much time on her shoes...

anw.. after looking at heels, heels and more heels, by the time i went to look at my flats, they just looked.. err.. flat.. and of course.. terrible.. because heels give this dainty look to your feet.. (i think it's the thing about having your foot pointed... just try! while sitting on your chair, just point your feet and don't u just think they look instantly nicer? haha.. maybe it's a ballet thing..)

and of course... being totally disappointed in the flats, i ended up getting a pair of heels! and i hope they look casual enough now.. cos i wanna wear them to skool.. dun wanna end up being overdressed u know.. in any case, the heels are sorta like the platform kind.. (too bad if u dunno what i mean.. but basically there isn't a heel sticking out by itself.. think stilettos..) yeah and i think the platform heel thingy makes it look more casual la..

before i end off... gotta say this! we went zara with a cup of bubble tea in our hands.. and subsequently got chased out by the security guard.. rather rudely too.. ms N was kinda bushuang with him for being rude.. but now i think it could've been the salesgirl's doing.. cos he was there when we went in... he din say anything.. it was like after a round of shopping that he chased us out.. must be one of the salesgirls!

and.. not trying to be racist or anything, but it seems to me that zara and mango employ quite a bit of malay staff.. wat's it with spanish fashion and malay girls? in any case, my point here being that zara staff especially, do not possess manners... or is it just that zara stinges on it's staff training program? or that it's HR department is so heavily worked that it doesn't have time to screen its employees? i can tell u giordano's employees are 10 times friendlier..

please, i don't need to followed around or anything, but i would appreciate sales staff that look happier to answer my questions, or those that try to keep their store somewhat neater and not as if it's been raided... seriously the zara staff look at people as if they themselves were the boss, or that we're all just desperate to wear zara stuff and will do anything to get our hands on them..

and why did i mention the malay staff? that's cos the zara outlet at wheelock place which has got chinese staff definitely gave me better service.. may i repeat, i'm not trying to be racist.. the malay auntie at the muslim stall in skool, my ex-neighbours and etc.. they're all nice people.. it's just.. Zara..

maybe i shld just cut n paste this and send it to zara HR.. i wonder if they'll even read it..

thank goodness...

my wireless connection was screwing up again.. didn't know why.. so I just made a drastic move and pressed the reset button on the router even though I've absolutely no idea what that will do..
immediately after that i regretted my actions.. i couldn't even connect to it after that..
ah well.. with a little bit of effort and gumption, i managed to get it up and running.. which is why i'm able to even write this post now... so much time spent that i don't even remember what my original topic was about.. in any case, i'm attributing all that screw-up to the newly downloaded winxp sp2.. what the hell is wrong with MS? they keep introducing new improvements but there's a new screwup with every improvement they develop.. maybe we could return to the days of the good old (ok maybe not so good) win 3.1 where my comp works after i kick the cpu..

as my dad says, more functionality gives it more opportunity to screw up.. i can't agree more..
and while i take my time to recall my original topic, i shall post this first...

my life's a pathetic cycle

well, I'm now back to whining bout my honors again.. another shock today.. but b4 i get myself started on that, let me start with my day's events..

the most significant event today, haha, is my purchase of a body shop concealer.. (overdue reaction to recommendation by ms lala).. and it works!! i mean duh.. of course it's suppose to conceal.. but i dunno whether my skin's gonna react to it or not la.. in terms of breaking out.. but well.. i suppose i've got pretty lousy skin in the first place which was why the concealer din go on too smoothly.. but well... from a distance of 30cm from my face it looks pretty flawless.. and for some weird reason, my eyebags and dark circles have significantly worsened recently.. must be stress.. they're so obvious (and equally disgusting) now that i've actually another use for my concealer.. and to think i always thought it was silly trying to color ur dark eye rings.. (yeah.. which means it's realllllly serious now) ah well.. in any case.. im glad that the concealer was cheap.. haha..

tax quiz was hmm.. actually before i bought my concealer.. let me post u a qns.. for a company with accounts ending 30th June, what's the period for financial year 2003? is it 1) 30/6/02 - 30/6/03 or 2) 30/6/03 - 30/6/04?

WELL, i think i'm totally screwed up because I thought it was the latter.. and I was pretty sure of it too.. but it turns out that I'M WRONG! Being in the final year of my studies, I thought I ought to get something simple like that right.. BUT!!

that cost me one mark.. which takes up exactly 0.5% of my final grade for tax. and my concept was right! it's jus that.. well.. i dunno my accounting years.. sighz
and while the lecturer was slowly revealing the rest of the answers, I was totally freaked out.. That was the first question.. and I got it wrong.. (err.. I was actually kinda sure of myself at the beginning).. and then... i got the next 2 questions wrong... that was totally unacceptable.. first 3 qns and i got them ALL WRONG! Am I gonna fail or what?? Well.. luckily for me, everything was smooth going after the 3 qns.. Phew.. Plain relief.. though my final grade wasn't anything glamourous, I was sure glad that I didn't do anything worse than that.. (i.e. fail)

and so... after buying the concealer I went home.. and of course I had my piano lesson today.. and so I tried playing the new scores that I got.. KOW! another setback.. I got 2 pieces.. and both were horribly difficult... one was this ummm... (I can't remember the title) but I basically just couldn't play the bass beat and the melody at the same time.. Totally screwed up when I played with both hands.. THen I gave up and moved on to the next score.. If We hold on together.. Well.. this is of course a familiar tune.. but the problem with this is that the chords keep changing! and so does the chord pattern! After a while I just gave up.. I had to rush off to the stupid DBS career talk which I think was a total disaster..

firstly, when I got there I was shocked.. the whole LT was filled up and there were no more seats.. WTH! the organising committee should have taken note of the number of registrants and accordingly allocated a venue that could house that number of ppl.

secondly, DBS although they were definitely prepared for their presentation, I think they got the wrong target audience!! How so? Well they got their senior mgmt to talk about the company.. I'm fine with that.. Then they got an AVP to talk about his work.. (What?? We're undergrads u know.. there's no way we're gonna make it to AVP in the next 5 yrs.. or so I think) They should've just gotten a few of their mgmt trainees and associates to speak to us or something.. Cos I'm sure that's more relevant..

Oh well. in the end I thought it was pretty much a waste of time.. and concentration.. and eye power.. But i managed to find out something interesting.. haha.. that there's free parking at the covered carpark after a certain hour.. 5pm i think.. That was definitely increased consumer utility because I didn't have to pay for what I thought would cost me $2..

After that I went for dinner with Ms P.. Tried the otah pizza.. definitely not worth trying if there're only 2 of u.. unless u're an extreme fan of otah.. Why.. cos there's otah on the pizza.. and otah in the crust.. The otah hotdog that was in the crust was something soft and not exactly very chewy.. very much like the cheap otahs where there's v little meat but alot of paste.. Too much of that made me sick.. And it went with capsicum and pineapple.. Kow! Big mistake. Pineapple DOES NOT go with otah! I ended up eating all my pineapple first before I proceeded on with the rest of my pizza.. (which was also why it ended up as endless otah) The capsicum was a good deviation from the otah.. but well.. I'm not exactly a fan of capsicum.. and I can't exactly say that capsicum tastes any better with otah.. You get the idea..

And so my conclusion is.. Please do eat the otah pizza only if you're with 5 other people. One slice per person is SUFFICIENT. I'm super regretting not ordering the usual Super Hawaiian Supreme.. Now I know why they call it Super.

And back to my whining.. I found out that Ms Xfactor's actually on the dean's list! Kow.. So.. She's not just pretty.. She's smart too.. Very smart in fact... I'm super dee duper jealous!! Ah well.. Some people just have everything in life.. I should have gotten used to that in sec skool.. (ah well.. it's just that I haven't been reminded of such outstanding people for quite some time..)

And because of this, I was reminded of my pathetic chances of getting my honors.. ah.. that's my life.. it's either worrying about honors or complaining about my zits.. Come on! Can some recording company take pity on me and give me a recording contract?? I think that'll be sufficient to make me happy, plus take my mind off HONORS and ZITS..

Oh.. just a sudden glimmer of hope.. I just remembered that the honors will be accounted for among all students of the faculty.. meaning that.. I can still hope that the Biz ppl aren't doing very well.. (Or at least.. I've absolutely no news about them... Pls la... leave me some room for imagination to keep myself alive..) Stupid thought.. but nonetheless a possibility.. (OK pls dun let me find out anything about high-flying biz students!!)

And I just found out that to get a job with a mag, you need to write them something! Ok.. that sounds obviously reasonable.. but ignorant as I am, I found that somewhat demanding in the sense that I can't write anything out of nowhere! And I'm actually interested in writing for a fashion magazine.. So err.. I don't have any material for now.. So what can I write them? A day in my life?

And there's another quiz on Monday! Don't have time for it! I've gotta spend my day tmr doing my fyp... And my whole sunday's burnt for prac.. sighz.

I need good luck..

burnt!

kowz guess what? My face has turned black! Or rather, the forehead, nose and cheeks.. Which is kinda weird.. cos usually sun exposure will just turn my skin a darker shade.. But this time round, the red parts have all turned into black skin.. which is half peeling off.. (I sure hope this means my original skin color gets restored..)

But in the meantime, while I wait for the skin to peel off (and while I try to peel it off too), I'll have to ren3... I look terrible.. Literally yin4 tang2 fa1 hei1...

And I've kinda been enjoying writing my blog.. which made me think that I might wanna go work for some magazine.. This is funny la.. cos that has NEVER crossed my mind.. Miss Sometimes is antonymous with anything to do with writing, english, or literature.. But at this moment, the idea of working for a publication sure sounds 10 times more fun than being an A*****r...