sharks i'm so bothered by it!

ok... i dunno why but i keep getting reminded of what i found out today.. someone in class said i was being v extra by volunteering to be recorder.. sigh... i realise that i get very bothered by ppl's remarks.. and how other ppl look at me.. which is bad! we should all live our lives for ourselves.. i'm suddenly reminded of this story... about a woman named Ruan Lingyu... dunno if her story is a true one.. but this woman (err.. actually i can't remember what happened..) hmm.. whatever happened to her.. she was accused of doing stuff that she didn't do.. and even though she kept telling herself that these are all untruths and she shouldn't be bothered by them, she eventually couldn't tolerate all the 'white eyes' (bai3 yan3) and 'cold and hot words' (leng3 chao2 re4 feng3) [haha... i think this direct translation is kinda funny..]... anyway yah.. she couldn't take it anymore and committed suicide.. and she left a note with 4 words... Ren2 yan2 ke3 wei4.. (literal translation: words are feared)