revelation

while we're all fretting over what kinda job we'll end up in, i was at the same time very worried about whether i've set my sights on the wrong thing.. investment banking, though prestigious, obviously involves alot of hard work and after awhile, i thought it mite not exactly be what i'm looking for in life... (and well of course this was fueled by my rejection by DB)

Mr Tsunesaburo Makiguchi taught that there are 3 kinds of value: beauty, benefit and good. In teh working world, beauty means to find a job you like; the value of benefit is to get a job that earns you a salary that can support your daily life; and the value of good means to find a job that helps others and contributes to society.

I guess at the moment, the value of benefit lies at the top of my priorities.. In fact, that's my definition of what a good job is.. anything that pays well is good..
But i've also come to realise that it's pretty important to find a job that I like.. after all, it's gonna be at least 9-5pm everyday that i will haf to be facing it..

I'm not in a noble enough state to want to do good with my job yet.. in fact, i'm so heartless that i don't care.. if i manage to satisfy the first 2, it'll be perfect enough liao.. well of course if it's something I like and contributes to society as well.. all the better...

and so amidst all my worries, it suddenly dawned on me that it is definitely important to derive joy from my work.. which is why i suddenly also realise why people actually list job satisfaction as one of the criteria in looking for a job.. hmm... which brings me back to one of my considered paths in life... working in a video rental shop... hahaha...

recently i'm back on my tv craze.. too free la.. no homework to do.. so i've been watching tv all day... and it's always times like this that i feel extra lost..when the last show ends and there're no more programs on tv, i get this lost feeling.. im suddenly thrown back into the real world where there are real problems to face, no homework to do, but exams approaching; fyp to do but since it's not due yet i'm like just super procrastinating; choreography for dances, but i'm just trying to shirk it onto someone else; 2 girls i need to encourage, but i'm just too bothered with myself to care about them; and plenty more..

and so i've decided to make myself more focused.. i'll just continue praying, while i try to do my best for the exams this sem... that's all i will do.. dun bother about jobs and stuff...

OHMYGAWD!! i just realised that the accenture resume is due on the 31st and i havent written my cover letter! and it's the 25th already!! time really flies.. guess i realli gotta do it tmr...