heh.. jus remembered

my third consecutive entry.. ahh.. my memory is really failing me.. i keep forgetting stuff.. esp when i'm thinking about something.. i'll jus get lost in that train of thots and forget er... the rest of the train..
well... wat i initially wanted to say was... i'm starting my piano lessons again tmr!!
finally..
but guess what? i'm kinda apprehensive.. a little scared.. cos.. i dunno.. but i get stressed from it even though it's supposed to be a leisure activity.. sometimes i think i'm like paying money to stress myself..
but welll.. i always freak out when i dun have time to practise.. i dun like going for lessons unprepared, nor show my tutor that i can't play.. but at the same time, i can't practise for too long cos i'll either get v bored, or v frustrated by the fact that i've been at it for so long but i still can't get it right..
aargh.. sometimes i think i shld jus quit and save myself the trouble.. wth..