hmmm

well, i'm so supposed to be sleeping early today.. but it's still too early; and i dun wanna get myself hooked on tv, so here i am.. wasting away my time..
well.. tried swensen's new banana crumble today.. not bad.. but i think the crumble could do with a little bit of improvement.. how? i dunno.. all i can say is that it needs a lil bit more something..

had a few mini discussion topics today.. so i'll pen down some of the thoughts i remember..
well firstly, i was just saying that i think it'll actually be hard to even start a relationship if u start bringing in marriage factors.. not trying to say that the relationship shouldn't be based on the hope that marriage will result, but sometimes, being too practical really can kill off certain things..
but as wat msP says, when u're really into it, u won't be able to be so rational.. haha..

next, msN was just saying that she'll get married when she finds the perfect guy.. yeah.. i guess we all will.. as in.. get married.. when we find one.. and yeah.. important point brought up being that everyone being different, the perfect one for you mite not be the perfect one for me.. GREAT! i hate competition.. and i guess that's how it's possible for so many women to keep thinking that they are the happiest woman in the world.. nice..

hmm.. and that's about all that i remember of what happened today.. really short-term memory that i've got here..

and now, let's take a moment of silence to mourn for the death of my goldman sachs chance... i haven't called them.. they haven't called me.. ok.. so byebye for real.. for real.. for real..
it's really gone now..

*silence*

but hey guess what? on the brighter side, i think it's better like that.. i prob won't make it past the interviews anyway.. so dun haf to waste my time and put unnecessary stress on myself.. and i've also stopped thinking about IB jobs.. think they dun really suit me.. i'm not that kind la.. i think all this while i've been wanting so hard to get a job in an IB only to prove that i'm not err... average..

and i've also recently come to the conclusion that u dun need to have a lot of money to be very happy.. i mean.. i used to think that i'll at least need some sorta financial depth in order to do the things i wanna do.. but after some thought, i think dun really need ba..

i was just looking at my cousin.. she was born into a quite well-to-do family.. she lived in a terrace house and stuff.. but after she got married she's now living in a flat.. but she's happy and everything..

hmm.. another thot jus came to my mind.. how would u accept someone with financial disparity? the ideal situation is always that love will make all obstacles go away.. but (oh i jus realise im being practical again) when the girl earns more than the guy, i think it's definite that problems will arise..

like msP's fren, the guy always thinks the girl kan bu qi ta.. and the girl ends up with alot of pressure.. wanna help but can't help.. hmm..

whatever.. i shan't dwell on this.. not good for my brain..

i shall continue to hope that my prince charming is rich and handsome.. haha.. and shuai of course... oh.. and for a definition of shuai, see below! =)