can't take sad scenes..

today at the crematorium everyone was just crying and crying like nobody's business.. esp dua-mm's sister.. she cried damn loudly while everyone was jus like quietly sobbing.. i really hate these crying scenes.. they just make me feel like crying even though i don't want to.. and regina, though for the past few days and she's been looking fine and only sobbing a bit from time to time, burst into tears (and pretty loudly) when dua-mm's coffin was gg to be burnt.. damn sad.. and then i saw dua-pek cry too.. cannot take it.. i totally din wanna cry but the tears just found their way outta my eyes.. ah well.. better not talk about this or i'm gonna wet my keyboard too..

anw.. gotta keep a constant log for my face..
so yesterday nite i used bha on whole face, bp on spots, moisturiser all over..
today was just plain za..
no significant changes.. well, at least now the face ain't that red n peeling.. but nonetheless v zitty.. dunno if the differin is working.. ah well.. wth..

tonite's prob gonna try the same thing as last nite.. if bha works fine, then i can give differin a miss liao... so mafan to hafta get a prescription for this thing.. and my parts of my forehead is damn itchy.. keep scratching.. dunno y..

and there were a few raised bumps on my left arm near the wrist yesterday.. today still got.. dunno where it came from either.. maybe the funeral place a bit dirty.. now it's still there but i think it's considerably flatter.. hope it'l go away soon..