exam depression

kowz i think i'm gonna suffer from depression soon! can't remember whether i mentioned this before, but the other day i when i thought of studying, my stomach just felt unwell.. then just now i was going to start studying SM and i just couldn't concentrate.. reading the words just made me felt like i wanna tear up the book..

well i guess this is partly cos i really DUN LIke this subject.. REALLY.. and reading it just makes me feel UGH.. and i was just so frustrated that i slammed the book on the table and threw my highlighter over it.. my mom thot i was throwing tantrums and gave me a lecture!! this is called huo bu dan xing!! i was feeling terrible enough having to try to read something i don't like, and there i've got my ears blasted with sounds i don't like too.. eek..

and i've absolutely no idea whats going on in SM.. it's like crap.. failed my case analysis the other time.. how to do well in the exams? and it doesnt seem like the textbook has enough stuff to teach me how to write a case.. and it doesn't help that i have a whopping 13 chapters to read.. so much for enjoying my last sem.. i'm just so afraid that i'll miss something out and end up not knowing something that would have been a pc of cake if i read my book.. which is why i cannot just abandon the textbook like that.. (i was really contemplating that)

and i do realise i don't know alot of simple concepts.. wat corporate-level strategy, diversification and what have u.. and dunno what.. differentiation at different levels.. wth!

tmr got the final 2 presentations.. hope i dun screw up to end up being hated by my grpmates.. sighz..

i'm hoping working life will be better...