sad case

after one week of nightly bha usage, my skin kena burnt...
after yesterday nite's of laying off bha, plus applying oxygen cream on my face.. much better liao
today also applied more oxygen cream on the cheeks.. yay.. healing..
but wah lau.. i need to do something!! cannot keep on going thru the stupid cycle of

acne --> clear --> dry --> skin repair --> and BACK to acne..

wat the h***

and finally convinced myself to see a derm.. but everyone's so busy..then gotta wait 2 weeks.. so in the meantime i wonder if i shld continue to self-treat, or go get differin from GP, or may be get retin-A.. then dunno need to get PC cleanser or not.. wah say.. damn confusing..

ok aside from this...

i think i'm developing work withdrawal symptoms..
today was gonna do my sm ppt.. had a terrible time.. wrote a few slides worth of crap then had to go tour agency liao.. luckily.. cos anw i was dying..

and now i'm actually supposed to continue with the slides.. but after like half an hour of wasting time, and going to the differin site to renew my confidence, i'm still not prepared to do it yet.. partly cos i dunno how to do! i can't come up with answers to teh question..
and jus now when i was watching tv, when i suddenly recall that i haf work to do later i just felt sick.. like really sick.. like stomach felt unwell.. (ok la.. i admit i ate a bit too much.. but really the work jus made me feel worse)

and i really just DONT FEEL LIKE doing the slides la! im staring at powerpoint and then dunno what to write.. and dunno how... and this stupid thing is less than 5% lor.. wah lau!

and i shld reiterate this.. i should go study cosmetology! i'll prob do a lot better and even do research willingly.. haha..

aargh i just duno how im gonna continue doing my sm la.. it's 11.20pm now.. i came into my room at around 10.20.. how how how.. i dun wanna sleep late! i already got v bad hei yan quan.. but i gotta fin this by today! tmr got more work to do... i hate powerpoint!