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9.10 am: good morning! i'm now in the training room.. last day of training today =( (that means no more of seeing the sun when i get off work!)ah well.. anw.. yesterday night we had our pif in this same room. ok.. im getting incoherent now and i dunno where to start.ok basically just 2 days ago I was thinking it's almost impossible to stay in this department for any longer, and i was thinking of trying it out at other departments. and so i thought of the 'IT' dept, which I kinda wanted to go to while I was in Bangkok. (din know such a dept existed until Bangkok)well part of the reason why i wanted to shift there was the illusion that they had better working hours, and the idea that I didn't have to do TOC any more (hard copy TOC I mean), was very welcoming. At the same time, there was this push factor from here.. the scariness of having to follow up on a few jobs at once.. the thought of staying til senior proved scarier than I thought it would.And with somewhat of an impulse, I emailed my counsellor to ask about secondments. Secondments are a good thing! I was quite glad that there was such a thing going on in this co. At least I won't have to quit before I get to try it out in another dept. But obviously it's not like u can get seconded whenever you want la.Shortly after this, I was awakened to the fact that I'll be 'demoted' if I transfer. Cos the experience that I have in abs will prob not prove any usefulness there. Made me think further.And so we had our pif, and went for dinner after that. 6 of us :)And after that I came back with ber, hj and hwe to clear review pts. Nice feeling actually. As I was telling hj, I dun quite mind working late in the office as long as my friends are around. It just suddenly made me feel that hmm... maybe I'm not ready to leave yet..Anyway, I haven't arrived at a conclusion yet. Just thought I'll put down my thoughts before I lose them.. (i've got pretty short term memory)oh.. and to add on, 6ppl jus quit recently.. quite demoralising esp since one of them is this really nice sup that makes working in abs fun. ah well.. 天无不散之宴席
9.50am: Heh I just suddenly remembered what I forgot to say.. which is.. i think it's the ppl that really make me wanna stay. like i dunno if i can find a family outside of this place :)and the thought of some weird ppl in that it dept makes me hesitate.. haha.. anw even if i do get a chance for secondment, it won't be until off peak next yr.. so i guess it's still too early to say anything for now...