new look

ok my poor tag board is gone.. had to change to this new template cos the old one wasn't working well.. i'll put in the tag board when i've the time.. sigh.

godiva

think i've told the whole world about this already but i thought i'll just put it down anyway.. got a box of godiva's from my bro on monday.. supposed to be for vday.. quite nice of him actually.. he got a box for a girl and decided to get me one too.. umm.. and he got attached with that box of chocs la.. (along with the bear that i sponsored!)

i guess i'm now one step closer to my 'expected' future: being a well-loved (unmarried) aunt to my brothers' children.. ah well..

and today i just got a phone call from bestest fren telling me that she was proposed to yesterday!

wonderful piece of news. . i was pretty overwhelmed myself.. hehe.. she says i can be her bridesmaid.. but i guess this won't be happening in the near future la.. she says prob will get married next year.. next year's like more than 10 months away.. who knows how i'll age in ten months (if i continue to stay in audit)..

well let me explain the overwhelm-ness..

bookfish said she kinda expected it.. well.. i totally forgot that yesterday was vday.. (vday can only be friendship day for me.. ha.. ) and lala was away in sentosa.. i was just on msn with her in the day and everything just seemed pretty normal..

and ting! before you know it, your frens are getting married.

just 3 weeks ago i had another friend getting married (but i couldn't attend the ceremony! darned work..) this was less surprising cos she's older than me.. so marriage i guess is a natural thing to come by at that age.. (but she's only like 2-3 yrs older than me leh..)

as i was telling some ppl, i still feel like i did in JC.. or say uni... in the sense that my 'mentality'/state of grown-up-ness still feels the same.. or shld i say, level of maturity. haha.
I'm now no more than a JC/uni student that earns her own keep. I would say the only real difference is that I don't take pocket money from my parents any more. Going to work feels the same as going to school. It's the same routine feeling.. No special love for work or study, but it's always fun to meet frens in school/work.

And so I'm still feeling like a 'little' girl albeit wearing grown-up clothes and doing grown-up stuff; and now my friends are getting married! i think that's really like the next stage of life la.. and a real indication of umm.. growing up.. haha.. i think i'm being a bit incoherent here..

just had another thought.. I was at sup's dad's wake the other day.. and there were plenty of sup's frens at the table. and some were married and all.. but still as joker as ever.. hmm.. so ppl dun really have to 'grow up' after getting married la huh..

i guess going for my sunday practices and working in this place really keeps me in contact with all these young ppl.. unlike say if i go work in some company and there are plenty of aunties and err.. uncles.. maybe i'll start thinking like them.

but i guess for the bulk of my time i'm only bothered about myself, dun really bother to see how my bros are coping with their work, except for the occasional question of 'how're ya doing'; hardly try to keep in touch with my cousins/ friends, totally expecting that they're leading fine lives on their own.. being bound in my own little world, only concerned about my own well-being.. i guess that's how i managed to maintain the same mindset from 4 years ago til now..

but i don't suppose it's wrong to be living for yourself ba?

just this afternoon when i called flea to tell her about lala, I realised i haven't kept in touch with her since the last time we met.. which was.. at some place where my limited ram has failed to recall. i remember seeing her at borders though. And the next place I have in mind is the sun moon place.. but i know i din see flea there.. i was there with lala and bookfish.. hmm.. so where was it that i saw flea?

ok never mind.. my bad memory is not the point here. Well, as i was saying, when I called her, i just suddenly realised that keeping in touch is as easy as picking up the phone and press 'Call'. A simple gesture that hardly ever crosses my mind. I'm not really a phone person.. but calling is actually such a simple action that doesn't require much brain work.. esp when it's calling a good old friend.. it's not like having to call my members (whom i'm afraid will reject my calls, or if they do pick up, i dunno how i can sound nice and sincere and concerned instead of just rattling off the activity list)

ha.. i guess that's a lot of thought for today.. in fact I think i'm getting a bit of a headache from thinking too much.. (and eating too much too..)

had duck rice for lunch today.. and after that we went to this dessert place for .. dessert. duh.
i had this red bean, wild yam, sago thing which is so ultimately filling that i'm STILL bloated now. doesn't help that i'm wearing this blouse that has this ribbon tied around my waist.. it's a wonder the ribbon hasn't snapped..

and i think part of the headache stems from too much sleep.. slept at around 1130 yesterday night.. woke up at 730.. that's like 8 hours! but i woke up feeling sleepy.. and groggy.. i think the effects of working 3 late weeks are starting to set in.. ah well.. i'd better get all the rest I can now before cny.. all the heaty cny goodies aren't gonna do me any good.. (but there's no way i'm gonna abstain! cny's just once a year.. :P)

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i'm like quite free now actually.. not much work to do.. basically just waiting for the client to furnish me with the necessary documents so that i can do some x-refing.. but i guess they won't come today.. which means i'll prob have to do them next week.. sighz..

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on another note (vday note actually), I think i'm quite a 'yuan2' person.. meaning believing in fate la.. like i think i tend to notice guys (decent-looking ones, mind you) if i don't know them, but keep bumping into them coincidentally.

think:
- jc.. the guy at the bus stop..
- uni.. the guy at lecture/ tutorial/ canteen, etc. haha

and now there's this one that i've been bumping into these few weeks when i come back to the office to work.. at the stationery area, at the managers' area, in the utility room, at the door, at the ground floor lift lobby..

ok la.. bumping into someone here is like so not coincidental since the whole place is like darned small la. well.. it's just something that i noticed la..
ah.. and it feels nice to be able to write about it here.. since it's just too minor to be telling anyone about this..
haha..

and i shall get back to work..