the life of a senior...

ahh... just did my laser surgery part 2 today.. the whole limpin' cycle repeats itself.. but I sure hope this time round there's no part 3 la.. i've been wearing flats for more than a month.. and i've been so neglecting all my long pants.. and heels..
i'm actually quite fine with that.. what prompted me to blog today was work..

i actually only went for a medical follow-up session today.. only to find out that i require another laser surgery.. well.. totally unexpected.. and that earned me 3 days of MC..

but.. i'm clearing 2 jobs this week.. 1 booked.. 1 not..
and suddenly everything just came pouring down today.. so much work to do.. i was beginning to think that i'm not coping v well as a senior..

very luckily, my booked job got taken over by Ms S.. Mr Mgr was v nice too, to let her take over rather than just let me find my own means to complete the work..

on the other hand, the not-booked job was highly demanding, with daily deliverables listed out.. in fact, in the afternoon I got a call from Ms Mgr during lunch to ask me if I saw the email she sent out.. (which I obviously didn't since I've already left the office for lunch)

and she actually told me to do certain things in the morning which i kinda forgot to do.. and she was asking why those things were not done.. *feeling-of-failure #2*
and then she went on to ask about A, B and C which I tried to shrug off by saying I thought I'd do it tonight..

But seriously, I had only just left the office, and went for lunch.. not like I'm going to take the 3 days of MC and shake leg la.. and damn it la.. it's like 10pm now and I'm still trying to plug in some dunno what figures into the stupid summary memo.. AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE ON MC!

my foot truly hurts and as my bro in NS says, they always think u're trying to 'ca04 gheng1'..

and now.. booked-job i've thrown it to Ms S, while not-booked job I've thrown consol and Group stuff to Senior2. It's like.. I can't even finish a job myself la.. then everything pass to everyone else.. And Ms Mgr is somewhat pissed with me.. Now I think I'll really end up leaving on a bad note.. And maybe I should try to leave sooner! before my reputation gets too bad..

I'm really quite sian diao by this not-booked job la.. and it doesn't help that there are f-ing 8 subsis in the stupid Group... everything must do 8 times.. blardy waste time... Just cut and pasting SRM wordings already took me almost 1 hour, and that was totally brainless lor!

and there's like SO MUCH to do.. update SAD, update AWPs, update SRM, update FS. and all these are supposed to be done without booking? luckily Ms S took over my other job, so that I can spend ALL MY MC on this unbooked job.. Dunno, maybe I'm just feeling super bitter because my foot hurts.. I can't walk properly and it puts so much strain on my leg that I feel like crying.. and I can't just go to bed because I have to do-the-update.

I was just thinking.. you can't just tell me today that you want the stuff by tomorrow! At least give me some warning.. let me plan my time a bit? And though everything may seem really simple, it's f-ing tedious having to do it for 8 companies.. and suddenly there are so many more requirements which I didn't know had to be done??

Maybe this IS the life of a senior.. Maybe this is the kinda life that everyone has been leading.. And I thought I was used to having to do OT and follow-up already.. But this one's really irking me like siao.

Can I just dump the figure-plugging onto my A1? The poor girl suay suay come in for the first time and has to clear all this crap.. And it doesn't help that I'm sitting at home and I can't explain things to her properly.. Hate this..

Remember I was saying I wanna try out senior-life for a bit first? I think I've tried it.. And I don't like it.. And the other day I stayed in office til 1am to cross-ref the damn FS-es? now useless cos everything revised. Dunno what I stayed back for..

Ah.. I think I don't like my job very much..

And I pray my foot will heal soon..

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