Sometimes

Office

2009-10-28T16:43:00.002+08:00

hey guess what? I'm surprised I can access this from the office! I'm officially bored.
:)

september

2009-09-05T14:16:00.002+08:00

im back! felt this compelling need to write this post after i read my last one.. so i bought the samsung omnia! not fantastic.. kinda 'sot' after i dropped it on the floor.. and im in this dilemma of whether to send it for repair or not.. (can't be bothered to back up my contacts, but at the same time afraid of losing them.. ah the power of laziness!!)

time has zooooomed passed in the recent years.. kinda scary actually.. i'm past a quarter century old now and speeding towards the big 3! was just telling BL yesterday that I'm afraid my life will just fly past without my knowing.. and without having accomplished anything! ah I'm beginning to realise the importance of creating value in my life.. (say only.. i hope i do it..)

am supposed to be watching coco before chanel with the kot girls in a while.. 2 hrs later to be exact.. at vivocity! ah. i guess this is how people write their blogs. they mention real stuff and real places and talk about stuff that they do.. (not that I don't talk about real stuff, but generally I choose not to mention names or reveal too much private information lest my identity gets exposed.. haha.. kinda paiseh if someone I don't know too well reads the stuff I write la.)

for purposes of jogging my memory..

now facing this phase at work where i don't feel much for whatever I do any more.. (not that I ever felt for it either) but i'm beginning to feel rather sian and considering my options.. well.. chances of moving up has greatly diminished.. i would say i have already given up on it.. there is no longer any more motivation at work.. was considering moving to another entity. :) same position with new stuff to learn.. i guess i won't be losing out on anything.. i hope.

but 2 dinners ago, JC mentioned that there is this opening in his wife's firm! free parking space ;) sounded like a gd opportunity and i have a good mind of trying it out .. but at the same time i'm still extremely curious about this year's increment and bonus, and might have to stay until YE in order to find that out.. ah.. curiosity..

so yup.. a couple of things for me to consider now..
and i recently made a pledge to do all I can for Kot and kosenrufu so that i can graduate by next year.. and just when i did that, i started getting distracted by some silly matters which shifted my focus.. such a waste of time.. i can't believe i have this little self-control...

this morning while doing my prayers i suddenly recognised that the distraction could actually be sanshoshima.. obstacles in disguise.. (transformers!) so i've decided to renew my determination (when i have barely started) and get myself back on the starting track..

ahhhh.

and so i shall end here and start typing the minutes we had for planning on 31/8! see you (me) again :)

stress..

2009-04-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

woohoo! i havent written here in more than a year.. in fact.. i've already forgotten that I have a blog.. was doing a search for something in google when one of my previous entries popped up.. surprise!

read thru the last entry that was on the page.. didn't sound like me! i think i do write random stuff that even i myself dont recognise.. weird eh.

we're gonna perform on apr 19, 2009 for the recruitment concert.. gonna repeat japanese graffiti but we cant recall the steps! and theres no video to refer to! (which is why im searching for it now..)

ah well.. back to searching.. perhaps i'll come back to blogging after i get my omnia!!! or htc dream :)

tiRed!

2008-02-08T02:14:00.000+08:00

wow! Just realised that the last time i wrote in here was 2007! it's scary how time flies! i thought i only posted here not too long ago but it's already CNY!
which just means that I have been leading a tough work life! as far as i can recall, i've been working late every day of 2008 (weekends excluded of course..), with the exception of the day when the system was down..

wow..

it's been an entire month of peak and i do hope that things will get better after this current month end!

my daily activities are: wake up, work, go home, sleep.
sounds kinda sad ya?!
luckily i've got nice colleagues around.. otherwise life would be bad!

had the prosperity pizza thingy for lunch on CNY eve.. bosses' treat.. we were initially planning to just eat in so that we can finish our work asap and go off for reunion dinner.. so we ordered pizza and ended up not having to pay for it.. yay..

left the office at around 6pm.. quite a feat actually.. considering that the average end-work time is 10pm.. oh.. and i guess that should be added to my list of leave-early-in-2008-days! hopefully this list will be super long v sooN! so long that i can discard it and make a stay-late-in-2008-days list.. hehe..

quite sleepy now actually.. it's 2.22am i shld be getting to sleep since my eyelids are heavy and i was having a headache 2 hrs ago.. but im determined to finish this post and mark my soon-to-end late-working days!

oh yah recently i went to play badminton with my colleagues (wah! my first outdoor/physical activity with colleagues! i still remember refusing to go for that treetop walk thingy.. and i actually agreed to go for badminton! muahaha)

badminton wasn't super fun since i was quite bad at it.. but had some good laughs.. this bunch of ppl are quite fun to be with ... went to A's house after we had supper and played Wii! it was fun! She's got this projector room thingy and it was cool la.. live-sized figures.. it was so fun that i played from 12 to 3am! and i actually think it's a healthy game.. cos i actually did move so much that i think it really constitutes 'exercise'! ahah..

it's gonna be CNY day 2 tmr.. today to be exact.. since it's 2.30am alreadY!
gonna have lotsa relatives coming to my home.. mom says i need to help out.. i hope she doesnt wake me up at some unearthly hour! (i.e. before 10am! i'm not even gonna get 8 hrs of sleep if i wake up at 10!) hope it'll be fun.. but there's always some sorta chaotic confusion during meal time cos there are just so many ppl waiting to eat.. hard to coordinate the seats and the serving of dishes.. ah...

looking forward to sunday! gonna have reunion lunch with the 'family'.. it wasn't too long ago that we were shopping at ntuc for steamboat! and now it's steamboat again! it wasn't CNY rite? I think we did have steamboat on some other occasion other than CNY?! can't be 1 yr ago rite?! anw we're going to SJT's new home.. or not-so-new home, but it'll be my first time there..

shld be fun!

Braces

2007-12-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

Some time ago, not too long ago, I was informed that I have 'missing teeth'. Basically I still had 3 baby teeth in my mouth which had no adult teeth to replace them. The dentist suggested I remove them and put on braces to close up the gaps, as these teeth would not last me a lifetime (i.e. they'll drop off some time in a couple of years, after which I'll be left with 3 gaping holes in my mouth unless I do implants which cost $5k each)

But I kinda refused to do braces and put my baby teeth to the time test. After all, I don't think my teeth are terribly crooked and should not need corrective surgery (that comes at a price of $5k).

But alas, within a year, one of my baby teeth chipped. It chipped the day I came back from Shanghai. I can still remember myself waiting for my mom at the Terminal 1 pick up point, and there I was munching on a butter cookie.

There was a 'crunch' and moments later I just felt like one of my teeth was somewhat jagged.
Went home and looked into the mirror.. Indeed... it chipped! From crunching on a cookie?!

Totally 'amazed' but how vulnerable the baby tooth was. So much for putting them to the time test. Oh, I must mention that my friend said her mum still had baby teeth, which was why I thought it was just the dentist's ploy to earn my $$. Ha.

Freaked out by the fact that the rest of my teeth might meet the same fate, I thought, might as well get rid of the root of the problem (no pun intended), and get rid of my teeth. No teeth, no chip.

And so I decided to part with $5k plus 2 years of not-looking-like-i-have-buckteeth, and went to the dentist this morning..

Plucked out 4 teeth: my 3 baby teeth plus 1 adult tooth (to make it balanced).

Now I'm still feeling the numbness in my mouth from the anaesthesia. It was quite funny actually. I was told to rinse my mouth and I spat the water out onto the floor instead of the basin, cos I couldn't control it!

For a moment, could empathise with those people who suffer from paralysis.. It's terrible not being able to control yourself.. (It's still quite funny though, on a temp basis)

And so next Sat I'll down for another dental appointment to put on my braces. Now I can only pray that when the anaesthesia wears off today, I won't be gripping in pain... it's FOUR teeth forced outta my mouth, mind you.

My 1st week being a true blue "22" (haha)

2007-12-15T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's like 3pm now and I'm actually supposed to be doing up the activity list for my meeting later at 7pm.. But being my usual lazy self.. here I am surfing the net, and well.. writing this post.

My first week at "22" was a slack one.

Like TRULY slack.

I've been going home around 6 - 6.30 everyday, the latest being 7.30 for which I wasted damn alot of time making some stupid mistakes.

But in actual fact, my team works pretty late. Apparently, my team is one of those that stay in the office for more unearthly hours than others. But hopefully things will get better (since I'm supposed to be there to share the workload).

Ok to start off,

My team currentlyhas 6 ppl. 1 mgr plus 5 of us. 3 from Group A and 2 from Group E. I'm in Group E, with this other guy who's been here for like .. 4 mths. And apparently he's been working 10/11pm or even 12am almost everyday since he joined. But well, that's cos he's the only person in group E, and I do suppose that his workload will be halved with me joining. Not so soon, though. Cos I do believe for the 1st month I'm still very much a liability. Poor guy's gotta teach me stuff and complete his daily work at the same time, while I saunter home at 6.30pm everyday. Ha.

But it was really boring la. My computer wasn't set up until Friday. Which means that during the rest of the week, when I had nothing to do, I really was doing NOTHING. So even on days when I got off early, I had this empty feeling inside me and it just didn't feel right.

And while my teammate was going through the daily processes with me, it seemed like pretty boring stuff. I dunno la. But I was just wondering if I've landed myself into the wrong thing. But in any case, I think it's too early to come to conclusions, and I'm giving myself til the end of the month to 'fit in'.

Very different from ex-firm, where the whole lot of us enter in one big batch and all pick up everything from scratch. Here it's just me and me alone. I gotta say that the people are nice la. My team ppl are nice. But when they're doing work, they're really doing work. And there doesn't seem to be this chatting/snacking culture which I'm so used to in x-firm. But that's good in a way la, maybe I can really start to jian fei for real now.

Work wise, cos we're Groups A and E, there's v little interaction between groups as the processes to be performed are somewhat different. And so most of the time it will only be me and my team mate, who reminds me of one of my little cousins.

Ya and so what I was trying to say is, even though ppl are nice, there is v little interaction and it can get somewhat boring, and somewhat.. cold. But then again, it may be becos I'm new to the place. I dunno. Time will tell :)

My current mgr's pretty nice, and I'm quite glad for that. I've been going home early cos they're trying not to scare me off on my first week. As what he says, let me grow fat first.. (apparently my team mate has lost 4kg since he joined!) *hmmm*

Ok and so cos the entire team has been working hard, the firm's making new additions to my team. And so in 2008 there will be a new manager to manage Group E. It's gonna be a female mgr. (Sigh!) My cousin and I have come to this conclusion that female mgrs are well.. not so nice. And I think soon it will be really 2 separate groups liao. Sigh again! I think I quite like the Group A ppl.

And on Friday I went for this dinner thing at the Expo. Happened that the firm had this mini party thing as well.. (which I only found out on the day itself). Mgr said it was a good chance to go get to know my other colleagues, but well.. so last min, and I already had my dinner appt, so I din go, and probably seemed anti-social (again, as always).

Anw, hopefully won't have to work too late in the weeks to come.

I think there's potential for this place to be, a nice place. :)

Looking forward to good updates next week!

December - the holiday season :)

2007-12-09T02:35:00.000+08:00

Hi Blog!
haven't been writing here in a while.. Not that nothing has been happening.. but rather, too busy to write.. Or at least, I've no more laptop.. lost all my bookmarks etc when I surrendered the/'my' Dell notebook last Friday.

The poor laptop that i have at home was the one i bought in uni. First year! so it's really a piece of electrical junk now..

Just came back from ST Chalet and tau-huay.. and ms tay was like.. did u read xx's blog?
And so i hurriedly came online after a quick 30 min shower (ok, not so quick after all) to take a look.. and it wasn't a wasted trip after all! There was a new post! Hehe.. with newer updates!

Merry christmas indeed! I hope this christmas season does bring love!

And so some updates about my life so far.. (I kinda realise it's quite a good idea to jot these things down.. so a couple of years down the road when you read these stuff again, it's a good way to reminisce.. and also a good way to.. well.. remember stuff.. esp since i've so contracted senile dementia.. sigh!)

Well ever since my last day on Friday, 30th Nov, I've been leading a pretty slack life..

1/2 Dec was Kotekitai kenshu..
It was 2 years ago since we slept at SCC! This year's welfare was a lot better.. there were even sleeping bags provided! But my poor air-bag pillow couldn't inflate and I slept with my head on the hard ground.. was quite okay initially, but in the middle of the night I had such a terrible neck ache on one side.. and then the other..

3 Dec Dad flew back..
After that it was just go-out everyday.. And cos it was my bday week I think my family was extra nice to me.. haha.. But I tink I kinda abused it la.. I woke up late everyday and no one said anything.. Ha!

Told them I was going to get an LV wallet.. along the lines of a Koala wallet in Damier canvas (white) or a white eugenie wallet in epi leather. And my dad actually said.. ok let's go to the shop later! But alas we didn't have time to go to the shop (on the 6th), and my dad flew off the next day.. there goes my sponsorship!

Oh and there wasn't time because we went to Sentosa to view "the marina collection", some condo at sentosa cove. And it's ... pretty ex... the pictures looked nice.. but we didn't get to go to the showroom.. and the place will only be ready in 2011.. so whatever.. no impact for now whether we get it or not..

Anw I'm more concerned about my wallet la..

Oh ya.. talk about wallet... C*t*bank called me up and told me I had a free facial with DR*.. I went.. and ended up parting with $575 (before GST!) for something which isn't even a facial package.. basically I'm just making a prepayment for $575 worth of products.. but I get 3 free facials worth $345 altogether..

Seemed like a good deal when I was there.. and the facialist promised me results.. I think I was kinda desperate at that time.. Suffering a terrible breakout from Shanghai and the idea of clear skin was hard to resist (even though I still have another 6-session package with another salon)

Ahh..

And so I decided I shall put off all other purchases until January, or at least when my bank account inflates back to normal.. Been paying off credit card bills amounting > $1k per card and I'm still trying to figure out where my $$ went to..

And then it was today.. went for the chalet.. brought some clothes etc not knowing whether to stay over or not.. My 1st stayover in say.. 2 years? I think.

well, turned out that no one was going to stay over.. only hj and i brought clothes.. so watever.. we din stay either and ended up dumping alot of food... only to march off to rochor beancurd at geylang to eat beancurd plus portuguese egg tart.

And I'm quite glad that I've a couple of non-family EY frens! Ha.. actually when I was distributing the Hanuta on my last day, there weren't enough! At first I was just throwing them into everyone-I-know's in-trays.. then I kinda realised that I actually know more people than I thought I did.. so it was quite paiseh la.. luckily there werent many ppl in the office.. I actually went one more round taking back hanutas from ppl tht I thot won't miss me.. haha..

I was just browsing the lv website.. and the patent stuff look really nice! but really not easy to maintain la.. and considering that I'm gonna be holding this lv wallet for really long.. i think the epi leather would be a good investment.. ok im seriously considering the white one now.. but then again.. white might get dirty easily.. ahh.. and i dunno the price yet la.. kill me if it's > 1k..

There's gonna be induction on Monday.. dunno what will happen after that.. seems like my new team is kinda... well.. shorthanded.. I hope i go in with a smooth landing..

Wuxi

2007-11-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

Bought the 'famous' Wuxi pai gu today..

It was a long ride to work from the hotel at Ramada Encore.

This is my messy desk at the Wuxi plant office.

It's kinda colder today. Prob will need to wear the long johns soon..

the life of a senior...

2007-09-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

ahh... just did my laser surgery part 2 today.. the whole limpin' cycle repeats itself.. but I sure hope this time round there's no part 3 la.. i've been wearing flats for more than a month.. and i've been so neglecting all my long pants.. and heels..
i'm actually quite fine with that.. what prompted me to blog today was work..

i actually only went for a medical follow-up session today.. only to find out that i require another laser surgery.. well.. totally unexpected.. and that earned me 3 days of MC..

but.. i'm clearing 2 jobs this week.. 1 booked.. 1 not..
and suddenly everything just came pouring down today.. so much work to do.. i was beginning to think that i'm not coping v well as a senior..

very luckily, my booked job got taken over by Ms S.. Mr Mgr was v nice too, to let her take over rather than just let me find my own means to complete the work..

on the other hand, the not-booked job was highly demanding, with daily deliverables listed out.. in fact, in the afternoon I got a call from Ms Mgr during lunch to ask me if I saw the email she sent out.. (which I obviously didn't since I've already left the office for lunch)

and she actually told me to do certain things in the morning which i kinda forgot to do.. and she was asking why those things were not done.. *feeling-of-failure #2*
and then she went on to ask about A, B and C which I tried to shrug off by saying I thought I'd do it tonight..

But seriously, I had only just left the office, and went for lunch.. not like I'm going to take the 3 days of MC and shake leg la.. and damn it la.. it's like 10pm now and I'm still trying to plug in some dunno what figures into the stupid summary memo.. AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE ON MC!

my foot truly hurts and as my bro in NS says, they always think u're trying to 'ca04 gheng1'..

and now.. booked-job i've thrown it to Ms S, while not-booked job I've thrown consol and Group stuff to Senior2. It's like.. I can't even finish a job myself la.. then everything pass to everyone else.. And Ms Mgr is somewhat pissed with me.. Now I think I'll really end up leaving on a bad note.. And maybe I should try to leave sooner! before my reputation gets too bad..

I'm really quite sian diao by this not-booked job la.. and it doesn't help that there are f-ing 8 subsis in the stupid Group... everything must do 8 times.. blardy waste time... Just cut and pasting SRM wordings already took me almost 1 hour, and that was totally brainless lor!

and there's like SO MUCH to do.. update SAD, update AWPs, update SRM, update FS. and all these are supposed to be done without booking? luckily Ms S took over my other job, so that I can spend ALL MY MC on this unbooked job.. Dunno, maybe I'm just feeling super bitter because my foot hurts.. I can't walk properly and it puts so much strain on my leg that I feel like crying.. and I can't just go to bed because I have to do-the-update.

I was just thinking.. you can't just tell me today that you want the stuff by tomorrow! At least give me some warning.. let me plan my time a bit? And though everything may seem really simple, it's f-ing tedious having to do it for 8 companies.. and suddenly there are so many more requirements which I didn't know had to be done??

Maybe this IS the life of a senior.. Maybe this is the kinda life that everyone has been leading.. And I thought I was used to having to do OT and follow-up already.. But this one's really irking me like siao.

Can I just dump the figure-plugging onto my A1? The poor girl suay suay come in for the first time and has to clear all this crap.. And it doesn't help that I'm sitting at home and I can't explain things to her properly.. Hate this..

Remember I was saying I wanna try out senior-life for a bit first? I think I've tried it.. And I don't like it.. And the other day I stayed in office til 1am to cross-ref the damn FS-es? now useless cos everything revised. Dunno what I stayed back for..

Ah.. I think I don't like my job very much..

And I pray my foot will heal soon..

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Signs

2007-08-16T10:07:00.000+08:00

heh just visited hj's blog and found her 'lovey-dovey' pics from the site that urn-y recommended..

so i decided to copy her n put mine up here as well! hehe..

ok i thought this one was really funny.. cos tattoos are supposed to be cool.. imagining tattooing sian on ur back.. how sian can that get? :)
but decided to add in the skull to make it not-so-sian.. now i think i shld have left it out..

scabs

2007-08-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

Before I begin my topic about scabs, I must do some complaining..

This morning I boarded the bus to work as usual, at approximately 8.45am from my place. As usually I left my house at 8.30am and proceeded to wait like an idiot at the bus stop.. forever..

Quite luckily, I managed to get a seat after the bus stopped at the MRT station..
But maybe it wasn't so lucky..
I got one of the back-facing seats in front.. and from then on it was a terrible journey.

Actually I couldn't see the road conditions (since the bus was crowded and I was facing the back), but it ended up that I reached office at around 9.30am. Kow! That was a whole 20 mins more than what it would usually take.

And by that time I was on the verge of puking on the bus already. Ok la.. not so bad.. but the puke was already around my chest.. ugh..

The frequent accelerate-brake motions just disturbed my insides.. And as I'm typing this I'm feeling a little woozy in my head.. SUX.

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OK back to scabs..
Newaez, this is just a little feeling that I got this morning when I saw a beginning-of-a-scab forming on one of the lasered craters on my foot.

Ha. Never have I been so happy for a scab to form on my skin.

Last week I had a minor laser surgery done, which left 2 teeny craters on the balls of my feet.
Surprisingly, the one which I thought was the more serious one (which was the one I identified), started to scab within 2 days of the surgery. The other one, which I thought was dead skin, turned out to be a tough one to heal. I suppose maybe the surface area was bigger, this one was sorta rectangular shaped and measured about 1 cm in length, while the other crater was a mini circle of about 6mm diameter.

While the circle was 'scabbing', the rectangle continued to bleed everyday as it was inevitable that I step on it, exert pressure and cause blood to flow out.. (a bit only la)
And everyday while I change my dressing the flesh still seems rather raw with no signs of healing.

My idea of healing was to let the thing dry up asap, but applying the doc's cream everyday and putting a bandage over the craters didn't seem like a good idea for the wound to dry up. So on Tuesday night I bandaged it without the cream (still must put bandage otherwise stain my bed), but to my horrors, the next morning I found the bandage stuck to the wound. I guess the wound tried to heal with my bandage. Had to pull it out.. like velcro..

Yesterday night I got slightly smarter. I decided to put aloe vera gel instead! Heck the antibiotic cream. Put for like 6 days liao and the stupid wound was not healing.

Voila! This morning, for the first time I saw the darkening of the wound. OK.. not darken-ing per se, but the wound was a darker red now and looked like it will probably scab over by the weekend! Yay!

No more limping!

So disgusting, having to wear flats, looking short and unpro..
But what was worse was having to walk on my heels, walk on the side of my foot, and exerting pressure in all the wrong places that caused bruises on my sole..

Ah.. can't wait for the weekend ;)

i've had enough of..

2007-08-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

.. dirty toilets!

This is the nth time that I've stepped into a cubicle and found droplets of liquid on the toilet seat. So what did I do?
Step out. And stepped into another cubicle.
What do I see?
Droplets.
Fine, i thought. Teared out some toilet paper and gave the seat a wipe.
I feel like the toilet cleaner..
Nowadays there isn't a time when I don't have to wipe the seat.
They're almost always wet.
And I dread to think what the droplets were made of.
Previously I had unsuspectingly sat on wet seats and could do nothing but pray that it was the clean water from the powerful flush.
But more often that not I do suppose it is liquid waste that has stained my skin..

WTH!

It's not like this is a public toilet where ppl of all sorts have entered it.
It's not like this place is full of those aunties who step on the seats, or little children that cannot aim properly.
This is the office toilet that I'm talking about. Practically everyone here is a graduate.
Tell people these grads can't even pee properly and I'll bet they'll laff their heads off.

Come on la!
If you actually do dirty the seat, clean it off!

I've wasted like so much toilet paper just from plain wiping of the seats.

Do it yourself la.

n95!

2007-07-31T11:28:00.000+08:00

ooh i've recently taken a serious liking to...

nokia n95!

see www.nseries.com

it's v gd! it's got a 5mp camera, radio, realplayer, and1gb memory!

but it costs like 1k w/o a line..

someone help me with this :)

070707

2007-07-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

Ah.. I'm on leave now.. but doing some work.. and suddenly I felt like I should do some blogging :) Kinda just realised that I forgot to blog about this soo important event! : 070707.

The performance held at the Singapore Indoor Stadium was in commemoration of our SSA's 40th Anniversary. The baton girls had 2 items to perform: The Sound of Music with the junior choir and SNCO; and a medley of songs with the combined band (Kotekitai + Brass Band).

Sound of music item was the purple costume, main band item: the red-yellow dress.

The day we've practised so hard for had finally arrived. I was kinda worried. Cos I haven't had much practice myself, and I'm such a slow learner plus the SOM steps were so difficult. But in the end, I did well for SOM! I only had to pick up the baton from the floor once, and that was a partner throw (which I attributed the miss to external factors). All the other throws and tosses that I did on my own (plus the other partner throws) were successful! I was soo happy after that.. Didn't even have to remind myself to SMILE. It just came naturally! After every successful throw it was like.. *yay* *smile*

Immediately after this item we dashed back to the holding room to change into our red-yellow dresses for the next item. (There was only one other item in between our 2 items) Rushed out to the gate and waited for our turn. I was just telling some of them, ok now can relax liao, cos the steps we did for the band item were relatively simpler. But I guess this bit of complacency brought me down. During the first vertical throw, I dropped my baton. Somehow I saw it coming down and I reached out for it. I thought it was landing into my hands. But it ended up on the floor. I was like.. "??!!"

I quickly picked it up and proceeded with the rest of the steps. Then came the second throw. There was the butterfly twirl before the throw. Told myself, "must not drop it this time". But somehow I think I was too darned kan cheong for this that I dropped it again! During the butterfly twirl some more! Didn't even get to throw it and the baton just slipped outta my hands. Goodness knows what was with me at that moment. After that I was just so disappointed liao la. Before the show I told myself I'd try to throw higher this time. But in the end i didn't even get to throw!

Managed to get thru the 3rd throw smoothly.. but the dark shadow cast by the first 2 misses was just irremovable.. *sigh*

Every time I think about this I'll feel soo bad.. It's like, everyone performed so well, the band was inspiring, and I had to drop. Ah well.

Now I'm just waiting for the video to come out. Can't wait to watch sound of music! Think it should be wonderful :)

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And now back to reality.. I'm sitting in my room now as I'm typing this.. Trying to 'rush' out some business risks thingy. Kinda irritated initally. I'm like on leave la. Still must do work. Sian. But knowing that I'm not the only one (our dear family girls are all in the same boat) gives me some sorta comfort. Haha. I think i'm evil la. Misery loves company.

Ms Mgr just called me to ask me about the unsigned SRM. It's like AQR la! And that was the first point raised. Die liao la. And she asked me if i could recall anything about filing the signed copy. I said I think so. I have a vague memory about collecting the signed SRM la. But not clear enough to give any definite answer. At that moment I just felt so useless. It's just a small little thing and I couldn't remember. I think I desperately need to do something about my short-term memory.. How to be snr like that?! I'm like always so blur and unsure. And I attribute all of these to my innate bad memory. What an excuse.

But honestly I'm not the sort to be able to memorise things! I do better at subjects like Math where I can refer to formulas and apply. Suck at things like Geography where I have to memorise plate tectonic movements and whatever crap conditions for the growth of rice plantations. Luckily didn't take Bio.

Felt kinda bad that I wasn't able to provide any constructive comments for Ms Mgr. But well, I'll be over it soon. (You see, my memory is so bad that within the next half an hour I would have forgotten about this.)

And I guess I should get back to writing my business risks now. Was looking at the impressive plan written by Ms S. I was telling her: "wah lau. High benchmark la." I was just planning to smoke through this thing (I hope no one relevant is reading this now) and just churn something out but after looking at hers I suppose I can't do that any more. Ha. Gonna try more smoking now and hopefully it can pass off.. Ahhh...

Practices

2007-06-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

ah.. we had prac yesterday evening.. i think i kinda shouted a bit in the middle.. partly cos the band was v loud, i had to raise my volume a little, but i was also kinda exasperated for awhile.. dunno why.. outburst of emotions.. muahaha..

at the end during the combined, SY said "baton girls v gd!"
which was gd! that was what we've been working for.. but i din feel wonderful inside.. cos i screwed up big time.. all the time i keep correcting the girls' mistakes and tell them we have to get in at the right timing etc. but when it comes to the actual doing it, i don't remember anything that i've taught and i stand there like an idiot trying to recall my steps.

i need to practise! it's terrible having to stand in front to watch and correct, all the time. i mean, it's nice to watch.. but when u haf to do it urself too, it's hard.. cos at the end of it, the only way to be in sync with the rest is for u to practise on your own at home.. i told myself i'd go home and practise my steps but i didn't. went home with my mom and bro and we ate roti prata.. (kow!)
it was like damn late already so i decided to jus go bathe.. by the time i went to bed it was like 12.30 already.. damn tired.. so din manage to practise at all..

there's prac again today, but i'll miss the first half of it.. gonna try to make it there by 7.30 but we'll be running thru sound of music instead of the band item.. this sat's sound of music as well.. sharks la. how am i gonna 'make it' by sunday? hopefully this sunday someone else will take the grp so i can finally go take my place and get some practice.

JIA YOU!

my messy workplace

2007-06-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

heh im beginning to enjoy taking photos/videos with my phone cos they look alot better on computer! and i luv the bluetooth function on the laptop.. can trf files anytime without the stupid messy cable (that requires a damn program to work)..

here's a pic of my messy table:

ok not v comprehensive la.. since it only shows a teeny little portion.. but notice the wires sticking out everywhere :)

slack + stress!

2007-06-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

This week's actually a slack week.. I'm on this office job and the work's already done by our overseas counterpart.. so there's only a review to be done and an outstanding (ugh) list to create. I will target to leave office before 6.30 everyday.. And I take like 1.5hr lunches.

But at the same time it's stressful cos though I'm booked on the slack job this week, I have to complete a tedious task for another job.. And thankfully this slack job's really slack la.. I'm like spending all my time doing my tedious job instead.. Quite paiseh actually.. for my other team mates to be working on the slack job while I do my other job.. Worst thing is, the deadline is this Friday (TODAY!) and I still haven't received the replies that I need. I hate it when things are not within my control..

Stress Part 2 comes from the 7/7/07 performance..
Supposed to be choreographing the combined item with the band, which will be playing 3 songs!
Need to choreo for 2 songs.. With some help from HZ, managed to complete the flag dance.. but the tough part is the other song! which is 25 8s long and split into a jazzy/swing version and a normal version.. Haven't quite managed to come up with anything yet.. I've been playing the song over and over again at home (and i quite like this song) but my brain's not working! And esp cos the performance is at SIS, I gotta think of big steps that can be seen from afar.. Was watching some performance videos and really.. those more 'delicate' steps cannot be seen at all.. do like never do..

And supposed to do the choreo with 2 other girls.. but one of them's busy with work and won't be able to attend some practices, while the other's busy with school (and cca etc).. so no choice.. this week i gotta be the worker ant.. carry the load that's ten times my weight.. and it's stressful bcos we just had practice yesterday, and we're having practice again on sunday! 9-3pm. Finished teaching the flag steps on thurs liao.. which means Sunday gotta do the baton steps! Which is blank at the moment! Die la.. I'm planning to bi guan xiu lian tmr.. hopefully can churn out something to at least keep them occupied on sunday!

STRESS!

(wah.. u know wat.. i'm like more stressed out for this than I've ever been at work la! SIS is no joke la..)

Picture!

2007-05-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

I was just reading someone else's blog and realised how lack-of-pix my blog is. pix really kinda add life to the blog ya?

and now that i've got bluetooth on my comp, i can upload my pix easily! yay.. so here's one.. ok.. i'm a newbie in this la.. dunno how to put my pics nicely..

anw.. this is bakerzin's cookies and cream cheesecake (or watever's left of it) that yl and i shared for tea break..

lunch i had thai express' green curry chicken.. a little too much coconut milk though.. yl's tom yam noodles was supposedly too sour... i guess they are v err.. generous with their ingredients.. oh.. but i ate up the entire bowl of rice anw.. dun waste the curry mah.. i'm quite a sauce/gravy kinda person.. like usually i'll prob only eat 1/4 bowl plain rice at home.. but if i've got stuff like.. duck gravy.. ooh.. i'll down one plate of rice without hesitation :)

HR

2007-05-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

I have recently been assigned with an administrative task for which I have to obtain the personal particulars of the firm's new joiners. The collation of the forms was done by HR, while my job was to peruse through the forms to make sure that they are filled in properly. WEll, without an exception, there are ppl who din fill in their forms properly and we need to send their forms back to them.

Moi mgr told me HR will route it back to them. So I sent HR and email telling them i'll give them the forms soon.. Only to receive a call telling me "the departments will usually do it". Meaning I gotta do it. Wah. There are like 20 - 30 badly completed forms and I gotta mail it back to them individually? I'm not Admin u know.. neither am I HR. I thought the staff liaising business was HR's problem. They are called HR for a reason leh.

I asked mgr for help but haven't received a response yet. Dunno whether cos this is too trivial a matter to receive a response for. I've been bugging mgr quite a bit with silly questions la. But sometimes I really dun dare to shan zuo zhu zhang.

And so... now I'm taking the nil response as no help will be rendered.. So I've no way out.. sian la.. it's so admin and I can't charge time for it lor.

On a side note, did a bit of shopping during lunch today.. Body shop having up to 50% sale for body scrubs, butters, shower gels etc. THink I might wanna buy! :)

Women In Arts

2007-05-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

It was a spectacular weekend on the 19th and 20th of May. We performed for both days of the Women in Arts concert and had so much fun!
Saturday was with the band. They played the japanese Graffiti while we did twirling and flag. The changing of costumes in between was v exciting! the other participants that were waiting backstage were so kan cheong for us too as we quickly stripped one costume and put on another. I think it was this kan cheong ness that made us want to perform better. I think the end results were amazing :)
Esp for the flag. We were SO together! Never seen before kinda togetherness. I think the prayers of everyone were clearly answered :)

Haven't seen the video for Sunday's "Wipe Out" yet. But I heard the response was good :)
Can't wait for the videos to be out! So looking forward to watching the Lotus Sutra dance by Pris and gang. There's this girl in that group who's such a dancer! She's got the perfect dancer built, poise and all. And she's pretty!

Had dinner with the 'family' on Sunday night at this restaurant called Rakuzen at the Millenia Walk. Nice place, i'd say. The ambience is good, the food is nice, and the service is top grade! The waitresses were oh-so polite it makes me feel paiseh.. haha...

activity update

2007-05-14T10:17:00.000+08:00

some upcoming important activities:

19th May Women in Arts concert (English)
20th May Women in Arts concert (Mandarin)

Venue: SSA HQ (Tampines St 81)

7th July Youth Concert
Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium

I'm performing in all the above shows! i suppose the May one would be too far for most ppl to come, so... I'm inviting peepz for the July one! keep the day free ya?

Aiming for Taiwan after the July performance.. :)

quotable quotes..

2007-03-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

just a little something to add before I do my publishing.. saw this Biore Perfect Face Milk at Cold Storage the other day. It's this sunblock from Biore.. nice bottle! When watson's today to see if they sell.. They do! I wanna buy! Quite surprising actually.. cos they actually imported quite a bit of Biore's japanese products.. For those of you who dunno, Biore is quite a big brand in Japan.. and there's much more to it than just those tubes of facial washes.. haha.. Can't decide if I should finish my current bottle of sunblock first or just go ahead and buy this now..

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ok .. here are the quotes.. my job has ended.. and it's time to get listed!

Quotable quotes!

A: Is the OM the one who approves the cheques?
B: No, it’s one of the authorized signatories.

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A: Can you pass me the walkthrough?
B: Do you want this year’s or last year’s?
A: Any one will do if they’re the same.
B hands over last year’s walkthrough, and A reads thru it.
B: Last year’s is not very complete.
A: ???!!!! (shouldn’t you have just passed me this yr’s then?!)

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A does Company A, which is an interco of Company B. We’re auditing only A and B. Everyone knows this.

A: Can I confirm interco balances with you?
B: Which one?

DUH!

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A2: Any idea how many samples we need for cut-off?
Snr: Usually 5, but not sure. No specific guidelines.
(Snr turns to A1)
Snr: What u think?
A1: What does GAM say?

DUH YET AGAIN! If we knew what GAM said would we ask you?

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A2: What’s the TE?
Snr: TE is 115. (Turns to A1) It’s 115 right?
A1 remains silent for a few moments, does some check on the computer.
A1: TE is 115.

Okay I’m sure no one thinks there’s anything odd here. But well, I would think that a normal reply would be: “Yes, it’s 115.” Or just a plain “Ya”. That reply was as though the senior had not mentioned anything at all.

And in any case, why did he have to hesitate? We’ve been on this job for 3 days. And by the 3rd day you still dunno what your TE is? How to do work? It’s not like we’re doing a few companies at once. Hmm. Maybe I’m just being overly critical…

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Snr: When did the director resign?
A2: January.
A1: (pause, then echoes) January.

Wah lau. Parrot la!

Yippee!

2007-03-30T13:41:00.000+08:00

Yippee! It's friday! Sitting in the office now.. and it doesn't seem quite right to be blogging now actually, cos well.. I'm supposedly at work. But hey! It's lunch time k.. That's the problem with flexible lunches.. Cos some people will be working while you're taking your break; and then it looks like you're slacking. Ah well.

I'm in holiday mood now! Next week will be a super short week for me.. 3 days of work only! Gonna fly off to China on Thursday for tomb sweeping. Should be back by Sat midnight, meaning Sunday la. Not the normal sorta holiday, but it'll be a nice break from work! Well, not that work's v bad recently, but I just do feel that this short getaway will do me good..

We'll prob be getting about one day in HK too.. Hopefully there'll be some time to shop.. and eat! Definitely gonna get myself at least one cup of the mango drink.. Anyone knows if the franchise in Singapore is still open? Kinda got the idea that it's closed.. cos it's overpriced! and at a weird location too.. who goes to int'l bldg??

Newaez, I'm just so super slack now that I'm contemplating taking time off for the rest of the day! Doesn't seem like I've any work to do at the moment.. Not much la.. But I feel like going shopping! Still haven't bought my black shoes and black cardigan..

Gonna meet JC friends today.. t'was Bookfish's bday yesterday.. so I guess today is sorta a celebration for her ba! And flea's too! hehe..
Ah.. can't wait for work to end! Today's gonna be v exciting after work! 5.30 quick come! I hope I'll have something nice to blog about at the end of today :)

ugh

2007-03-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

21/3/074.45pmBl**dy hell! I just came back from the toilet and guess what I saw there? There was this drop of yellow liquid on the seat. Ok. No further elaboration needed. I was like, WAH LAU! How to use? No choice I had to wipe it away myself. Darned. Don't understand why these people can't clean up after themselves. And it doesn't help that this toilet is shared amongst males and females. Somehow I feel more grossed out by the fact that I think the previous user was a guy. Ugh.
23/3/072.30pmI just realised I forgot to post the previous entry when I brought my laptop back that day. Ah well.. anyway we're back from lunch and I'm super stoned! Super no mood to work, not to mention that this is a rather slack job.. I'm about 80% done with my stuff but I refuse to complete the remaining 20%. And as I'm writing this I see the A1 dozing off.. haha.. Typing helps to keep me awake I guess.. At least there's some continuous movement, and it requires my eyes to stare at the words as they appear (to ensure that they turn out as.. well.. words.. and not rubbish..)
3.10pmOk.. I've managed to vouch 3 receipts so far.. after 40 mins.. haha.. I think I really CMI liaoz.. Feeling v lethargic. These few days I've been having trouble waking up cos of the drowsy flu medication (I think). Usually I'll wake up the moment the alarm sounds, but these few days I'll HAVE to press snooze cos I feel like I have absolutely no energy to wake up.. And the best thing is, I'll sleep all the way till the snooze alarm sounds, and wake up with the same helpless feeling again.. Ah. It's quite bad really. And it puts me in an irritable mood especially since I'll wake up with a dry painful throat. Think it's the medication la. But doesn't make sense.. Cos I've this throat mediciine for inflammation. So why should I still wake up with a sore throat? It's inexplicable..

DUH

2007-03-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

Wah! I don't get this. Today after we came back from lunch, the senior and I were like too full and so we stood up to read some documents. Dunno why, the A1 did the same too. Hmm. Maybe he's too full too. (But we all ate about the same stuff. One bowl of noodles. The senior had an extra bowl of soup and I had an extra drink. Which means we should be fuller! And I thought guys should have bigger stomachs! No?) And it was a weird scene with 3 ppl standing up reading. The senior picked up her newspaper to read and likewise the A1 was reading his copy of the newspaper. Somehow I just had the idea that he was a copycat.
And as I was supposed to be doing PnL, the senior was telling me about some matters that I should take note of. I nodded in acknowledgment, only to realise that the A1 was nodding away as well.. Huh? Not talking to you leh. (And yes, the senior was looking at me, facing me. No cause for misunderstanding!)
WEird leh!
And I'm now compiling this list of 'quotable quotes': basically DUH stuff that he says. I think this will sell well if published! Great entertainment for you, but total exasperation for me :(I've 4 quotes now, but I hope I won't be compiling too many for the 1.5 weeks to come.. (Or I may be exasperated to death!)