Sometimes

New determinations

2010-02-06T14:57:00.002+08:00

I wasn't in too good a mood when I left work yesterday.
Many happenings this week that caused me to be thinking alot more.
(I've already been thinking so much that white hairs abound my head of now-rebonded hair)

Seems like there's some scheming and politicking going on and work.. But that didn't bother me too much.. Just take things easy. As long as I choose not to be part of this game, then there'll be no winner or loser.

Work aside, the thing that irked me the most was that we've lost eye contact.
Told IB about it.. and she said.. Move on!
It kinda struck me.. made me wonder if this is the sign that I was looking for. Something to tell me to give up.. I dunno, but at the same time, there's this thing about not giving up so easily..

I got that empty feeling that happened every time I finished watching the last episode of some blockbuster drama serial. It's like.. what next?

Trying to keep my head clear, I rushed off to my next meeting. Yestnite was the 1st Ikeda kayokai meeting in SG.

I'm quite glad that I attended it. They had 3 YWDs sharing their testimonials. Girls in their teens, twenties and thirties. (I'm going to briefly summarize their stories here, as a reminder to myself)

Firstly, there was S, a teenage girl who managed to introduce a whole lot of new friends to chanting. It was through her passion of really wanting to share this Buddhism with others that gave her very many chances to meet many people who were willing to take up faith almost immediately. (I used to see her around and didn't have a good impression of her cos she always had this smoky eye look even during the day.. haha) But ya, 人不可貌相!

I was reminded to never doubt the Gohonzon, no matter what happens. It suddenly made me feel slightly ashamed of myself for being troubled over trivial matters such as my job (like wat.. lousy increment)

Secondly, there was F, who just completed her education in Japan. Struggled through various difficulties in order to finance her studies in Japan. All of these, to fulfil her dream. It's like wow.. these girls are all struggling to fulfil these great dreams of wanting to change people's lives, praying very hard to excel in their lives, while I'm bothered with some very silly matters like a stupid crush.

Third was M, a lady who lost all her money in a failed business venture. Taught her that life won't always be as smooth-sailing as you want, but mostly importantly, your family will get you thru it.

Most impt takeaway was for me to continue praying hard that the best outcome will surface. And it will.

To renew my determination each day, and to score daily victories. Victory in whatever I do, overcoming all weaknesses. I realised that though I've been maintaining my daily 1 hour of prayer, my resolve has been slowly diminishing. And for nearly the whole of this week, it's been mindless chanting, mainly focusing on how sleepy I was, and when will the sand from the hourglass stop flowing..

I am now determined to ensure that every day is filled with happiness. Happiness that is gained from 'bigger' things. Such as the fulfillment of learning and sharing with others.

I must gain absolute happiness in my life!

More weddings..

2010-01-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

Haha! I'm blogging really often now.
Just read through my previous post and realised that I've been writing really short sentences.
Very fragmented. But well, it represents whatever that's flowing thru my head at that point of time. Short bursts of 'ideas'.

Just came back not too long ago from P's wedding in JB. Was a long day today!
We gathered at the bus interchange at around 11.30, and only reached the restaurant at around 1.30pm. Banquet started at around 2-2.30pm. (The folks around me were all starving and gobbled down the door gift of a cookie and chocolates.. haha)

Quite interesting to be out with a bunch of colleagues on a weekend, actually. Also kinda helped that all of us were around the same age. There was non-stop chatter on the bus, and at the restaurant. Not bad! Now I quite understand why some of my friends have these all-week-colleagues-outings (i.e. going out together after work plus during the weekends!!)

When P and W were exchanging 'vows' (not quite vows, but more like, lifelong promises of dedication), I was asking 'I' and Y if this was probably the only time a couple would say such things to each other. ('I' said yes! haha) Well, I used to think that these words were oh-so-cliched but really, these pledges of love mean the world to a couple. (And as Y rightfully pointed out, these realizations come with AGE.)

[out of topic: I'm now eating this char siew bo lo bao which i bought yesternoon. Was supposed to be for this morning's breakfast but I didn't have enough time to eat it.. I'm bringing this up now cos.. this bun was supposed to be damn good.. but after leaving it for nearly 24hrs, err.. still edible.. but it has lost all the warm and fluffy texture that I was looking for when I bought it yesterday.. such a disappointment!]

Update on X: still exchanging looks, with nothing else happening.. dunno what the h***'s going on.. Was a little frustrated during the week actually.. Now having daily conversations with 'I' about my very annoying situation.

The weekdays are coming again!

Bored

2010-01-22T11:35:00.000+08:00

Okay.. I think I'm going to turn this into a regular habit. Of blogging during work.
This is another period of waiting.. Systems are not up and I cannot proceed.

So what should I write about? Blogging for the sake of keeping my fingers busy. Haha.

OK.. So recently on Tuesday I went to visit the doctor cos of gastric pains. Had a bit of pain on Monday which I ignored.

It recurred on Tuesday.
After lunch. Weird rite.

So doc said it was gastric reflux. I'm not too sure of his diagnosis, cos I didn't experience heartburn.
But I do have all the other symptoms.. Awful feeling in the stomach after lunch, regular sore throats from a probably too acidic environment.

So he gave me 5 days worth of medication, supposedly to be taken before food.
But as this has already become a rather common ailment for me, I decided not to take the medicine at all.
Reduce dependency!

But as it seems, he was right.. I've been getting this gastric pains almost after every meal after I went to see the doc.

And then I end up eating the medicine AFTER food.
Maybe I should just listen to what he says and start eating the pills BEFORE food, and save myself the discomfort.

*ill feeling in the stomach right now*

On a side note, I left half a cup of soybean milk on desk yesterday, overnight.
This morning when I tried to empty the drink into a sink, I COULDN'T.
The milk had coagulated into curd!

I was super surprised.. How could the sugar syrup cause coagulation?
Went to google beancurd but didn't manage to find anything relating to sugar-caused curdling.
Maybe there's some other agent in the milk, or perhaps fermentation (overnight?) that caused it..

Oh and supposedly normal curd is coagulated using calcium sulphate.

2010

2010-01-16T18:16:00.003+08:00

hellO!

I think I'm blogging a lot more often than I thought I did.. last post was barely a quarter ago! And here's my contribution for the new year :)

well.. felt this compelling need to write when I thought abt this..
so.. what?

just a couple of days ago I picked up my phone and sms-ed my friend Happy Birthday. Her 27th.
Ah. This meant that I was twenty-seven too! It didn't help that I only just had my 26th birthday a month ago.. I was 27. I AM 27.

Aargh! 27. Without a doubt, this was a number that rounds directly off to 30.
I realise my previous post was about age too. Ya. So I get this recurring 'getting old' feeling. Not good.

And so what's the big deal about getting older?

I guess the main issue here is what I've done with my life so far..
Doesn't quite help that
1. No accomplishments in my career
2. Still single
3. Still don't know what I really want in life

(as I'm typing this I'm crunching on these wasabi crackers. 2cm by 2cm square biscuits with wasabi powder. Quite nice! My bro bought this from Osaka last December. only a mth ago ok.)

Was a long day for me today..
this morning I visited the dentist at 9am.
Good piece of news.. My upper teeth are closing well, almost done. He says they should be done by my next visit, Feb 20th, after CNY. Lower teeth.. still WIP. Good news is.. I can remove the braces off my upper teeth then! YAY! no more food stuck there.. No more ugly popping brackets. And no more snapping rubber bands! YAY! I think this marks 2 years of wearing braces.. Dunno about my lower teeth man.. The initial plan was 1.5 years. I think my lower teeth will take 2.5. Minimum.

Then I visited the chiropractor at 1130am. My .. 4th visit?
Damn expensive. this one..
Had initially gone there cos of this sharp pain at my lower back.. Was kinda worried after it jabbed me a few times.. So went to this chiropractor at my mom's recommendation. Turns out that my spine was indeed crooked.. But more so at the neck.. which supposedly explains all the headaches neck aches and shoulder aches I've been suffering from for the past ten or more years.. (wah freak.. damn old liao la!)

Prob with this treatment is that I've to attend it 3 times a week for 3 mths.. Super damn time consuming.. Cos there're alotta ppl at the clinic, each visit takes me at least an hour. The actual adjustment takes abt 10-15 mins. The rest of it is waiting time.

My Saturdays are now screwed cos of this.. First... I had to reschedule my dental appt (initially set for 12pm) cos the doc only comes between 11am and 1pm. Then I had to resched my facial appt (next sat). Same problem. I've been scheduling all of my stuff at around 11am-12pm and now it all clashes. Ah well.

Oh and having had permed hair for the past half a year, I've decided to straighten it back!!
Prob is I dunno whether I should do it before or after CNY.
Initially thot I should hold out til CNY cos I've had straight-hair CNYs for my entire life. But on the other hand, my mom was saying new hair for the new year! And it doesn't help that my hair is growing longer by the day.. It's now top straight bottom curly. Not v nice. Plus its kinda out of shape now. Aargh. I dunno how ppl manage to keep their perm for 1 whole year.

What I'm saying is not that the perm won't last.. my hair's still as curly as ever.. ok.. maybe not THAT curly. but good enough. Main prob is the LENGTH. It's damn long now, and the shape is gone. Almost poodle-like. Large mass of frizzy hair at the bottom and lousy flat hair on top.

I'll blog again when I decide on when to rebond. Went to a shop just now to buy more hair products.. Managed to get the Tsubaki shampoo at $16!!! Parallel import. Other places selling at $28!! I think damn good buy la. Bought pantene hair treatment at $6! Normal price $9. Woohoo! Then bought this anti-frizz serum for $15. Normal price $15 I think. This was a bad buy.. but no choice.. I needed something.. And I din quite dare to try the Sunsilk damaged hair repair leave-in which only cost $3.60. (I think also half of normal price)

And so now I have like 4 bottles of shampoo in my bathroom. My Loreal citrus shine shampoo doesnt seem to have the 'luck' of being used.. been sitting in my bathroom since.. September? Or earlier. Redken Fresh Curls seems to have lost its power.. I've maybe 1/8 bottle left.. Oh. and correction. Loreal nutrigloss light shampoo. Not citrus shine. Dunno how I came up with that name. Is citrus shine the name of some dishwashing liquid??

OH YAH. I saw Carmee Lim at my carpark just now.. Dunno come here for wat. Looks like somebody's party at the poolside. She was wearing a sleeveless top plus sunglasses. V sporty looking. V young looking for her age. Dunno how she does it. She's like I dunno how old. More than 60 definitely. I think she was 60 during my time. i.e. 10 years ago. Not sure.

And now I shall get back to work. Came online to do my translation work for tmr's morning gongyo.

SO SEE U!

ok. no see u yet.
just remembered that I wanna record some event down :)

I kinda have a crush on this guy.. Erm. X.
Well after like 2 mths of exchanging looks.. nothing has happened.. So yah. prob nothing will happen.
Anw.. yesterday when I was leaving, we left at the same time.. He was leaving with his fren.. So they were walking down the corridor.. I was behind.. Say 2-3 m away.. Towards the glass door, they exited, and he held the door. For awhile. Cos I was far away mah. Took me a while to walk there.. So he held it for like say.. 5-10 secs la. Not v long. But long enough for me to feel good! haha. Cos his fren was already out the door. He could jolly well have just walked out too la. But he held it open! Albeit back-facing.. cos he was talking to his fren.. But still v nice! And then I recounted another door holding incident. Perhaps 1 mth back? Same circumstance.. We left around the same time.. As usual I was behind. Cos I walk slow. But definitely a considerable distance away. OK from inside, I can already see ppl entering the lift. I was inside. He was outside. Then he entered the lift with everyone else, I was still inside, near the glass door. I kinda tried to rush out abit.. And ya. He held the lift door open.

Well. The reason why I'm bringing up these 2 incidents is cos .. though I know holding the door is just something anyone with manners would do, these 2 occasions were very-long holding of doors. Not the normal 1-2 seconds, everyone entering at the same time kind. It's the, I'm obviously some distance away and can don't bother about me kinda distance..

Doesn't mean anything, other than the fact that he's nice. :)

Hope got updates!

Oh ya.. Read some horoscope fengshui thingy. 2010 is an excellent year for pigs. Other than having financial luck, supposedly for singles, romance will blossom.

Muahaha!

Office

2009-10-28T16:43:00.002+08:00

hey guess what? I'm surprised I can access this from the office! I'm officially bored.
:)

september

2009-09-05T14:16:00.002+08:00

im back! felt this compelling need to write this post after i read my last one.. so i bought the samsung omnia! not fantastic.. kinda 'sot' after i dropped it on the floor.. and im in this dilemma of whether to send it for repair or not.. (can't be bothered to back up my contacts, but at the same time afraid of losing them.. ah the power of laziness!!)

time has zooooomed passed in the recent years.. kinda scary actually.. i'm past a quarter century old now and speeding towards the big 3! was just telling BL yesterday that I'm afraid my life will just fly past without my knowing.. and without having accomplished anything! ah I'm beginning to realise the importance of creating value in my life.. (say only.. i hope i do it..)

am supposed to be watching coco before chanel with the kot girls in a while.. 2 hrs later to be exact.. at vivocity! ah. i guess this is how people write their blogs. they mention real stuff and real places and talk about stuff that they do.. (not that I don't talk about real stuff, but generally I choose not to mention names or reveal too much private information lest my identity gets exposed.. haha.. kinda paiseh if someone I don't know too well reads the stuff I write la.)

for purposes of jogging my memory..

now facing this phase at work where i don't feel much for whatever I do any more.. (not that I ever felt for it either) but i'm beginning to feel rather sian and considering my options.. well.. chances of moving up has greatly diminished.. i would say i have already given up on it.. there is no longer any more motivation at work.. was considering moving to another entity. :) same position with new stuff to learn.. i guess i won't be losing out on anything.. i hope.

but 2 dinners ago, JC mentioned that there is this opening in his wife's firm! free parking space ;) sounded like a gd opportunity and i have a good mind of trying it out .. but at the same time i'm still extremely curious about this year's increment and bonus, and might have to stay until YE in order to find that out.. ah.. curiosity..

so yup.. a couple of things for me to consider now..
and i recently made a pledge to do all I can for Kot and kosenrufu so that i can graduate by next year.. and just when i did that, i started getting distracted by some silly matters which shifted my focus.. such a waste of time.. i can't believe i have this little self-control...

this morning while doing my prayers i suddenly recognised that the distraction could actually be sanshoshima.. obstacles in disguise.. (transformers!) so i've decided to renew my determination (when i have barely started) and get myself back on the starting track..

ahhhh.

and so i shall end here and start typing the minutes we had for planning on 31/8! see you (me) again :)

stress..

2009-04-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

woohoo! i havent written here in more than a year.. in fact.. i've already forgotten that I have a blog.. was doing a search for something in google when one of my previous entries popped up.. surprise!

read thru the last entry that was on the page.. didn't sound like me! i think i do write random stuff that even i myself dont recognise.. weird eh.

we're gonna perform on apr 19, 2009 for the recruitment concert.. gonna repeat japanese graffiti but we cant recall the steps! and theres no video to refer to! (which is why im searching for it now..)

ah well.. back to searching.. perhaps i'll come back to blogging after i get my omnia!!! or htc dream :)

tiRed!

2008-02-08T02:14:00.000+08:00

wow! Just realised that the last time i wrote in here was 2007! it's scary how time flies! i thought i only posted here not too long ago but it's already CNY!
which just means that I have been leading a tough work life! as far as i can recall, i've been working late every day of 2008 (weekends excluded of course..), with the exception of the day when the system was down..

wow..

it's been an entire month of peak and i do hope that things will get better after this current month end!

my daily activities are: wake up, work, go home, sleep.
sounds kinda sad ya?!
luckily i've got nice colleagues around.. otherwise life would be bad!

had the prosperity pizza thingy for lunch on CNY eve.. bosses' treat.. we were initially planning to just eat in so that we can finish our work asap and go off for reunion dinner.. so we ordered pizza and ended up not having to pay for it.. yay..

left the office at around 6pm.. quite a feat actually.. considering that the average end-work time is 10pm.. oh.. and i guess that should be added to my list of leave-early-in-2008-days! hopefully this list will be super long v sooN! so long that i can discard it and make a stay-late-in-2008-days list.. hehe..

quite sleepy now actually.. it's 2.22am i shld be getting to sleep since my eyelids are heavy and i was having a headache 2 hrs ago.. but im determined to finish this post and mark my soon-to-end late-working days!

oh yah recently i went to play badminton with my colleagues (wah! my first outdoor/physical activity with colleagues! i still remember refusing to go for that treetop walk thingy.. and i actually agreed to go for badminton! muahaha)

badminton wasn't super fun since i was quite bad at it.. but had some good laughs.. this bunch of ppl are quite fun to be with ... went to A's house after we had supper and played Wii! it was fun! She's got this projector room thingy and it was cool la.. live-sized figures.. it was so fun that i played from 12 to 3am! and i actually think it's a healthy game.. cos i actually did move so much that i think it really constitutes 'exercise'! ahah..

it's gonna be CNY day 2 tmr.. today to be exact.. since it's 2.30am alreadY!
gonna have lotsa relatives coming to my home.. mom says i need to help out.. i hope she doesnt wake me up at some unearthly hour! (i.e. before 10am! i'm not even gonna get 8 hrs of sleep if i wake up at 10!) hope it'll be fun.. but there's always some sorta chaotic confusion during meal time cos there are just so many ppl waiting to eat.. hard to coordinate the seats and the serving of dishes.. ah...

looking forward to sunday! gonna have reunion lunch with the 'family'.. it wasn't too long ago that we were shopping at ntuc for steamboat! and now it's steamboat again! it wasn't CNY rite? I think we did have steamboat on some other occasion other than CNY?! can't be 1 yr ago rite?! anw we're going to SJT's new home.. or not-so-new home, but it'll be my first time there..

shld be fun!

Braces

2007-12-29T10:05:00.000+08:00

Some time ago, not too long ago, I was informed that I have 'missing teeth'. Basically I still had 3 baby teeth in my mouth which had no adult teeth to replace them. The dentist suggested I remove them and put on braces to close up the gaps, as these teeth would not last me a lifetime (i.e. they'll drop off some time in a couple of years, after which I'll be left with 3 gaping holes in my mouth unless I do implants which cost $5k each)

But I kinda refused to do braces and put my baby teeth to the time test. After all, I don't think my teeth are terribly crooked and should not need corrective surgery (that comes at a price of $5k).

But alas, within a year, one of my baby teeth chipped. It chipped the day I came back from Shanghai. I can still remember myself waiting for my mom at the Terminal 1 pick up point, and there I was munching on a butter cookie.

There was a 'crunch' and moments later I just felt like one of my teeth was somewhat jagged.
Went home and looked into the mirror.. Indeed... it chipped! From crunching on a cookie?!

Totally 'amazed' but how vulnerable the baby tooth was. So much for putting them to the time test. Oh, I must mention that my friend said her mum still had baby teeth, which was why I thought it was just the dentist's ploy to earn my $$. Ha.

Freaked out by the fact that the rest of my teeth might meet the same fate, I thought, might as well get rid of the root of the problem (no pun intended), and get rid of my teeth. No teeth, no chip.

And so I decided to part with $5k plus 2 years of not-looking-like-i-have-buckteeth, and went to the dentist this morning..

Plucked out 4 teeth: my 3 baby teeth plus 1 adult tooth (to make it balanced).

Now I'm still feeling the numbness in my mouth from the anaesthesia. It was quite funny actually. I was told to rinse my mouth and I spat the water out onto the floor instead of the basin, cos I couldn't control it!

For a moment, could empathise with those people who suffer from paralysis.. It's terrible not being able to control yourself.. (It's still quite funny though, on a temp basis)

And so next Sat I'll down for another dental appointment to put on my braces. Now I can only pray that when the anaesthesia wears off today, I won't be gripping in pain... it's FOUR teeth forced outta my mouth, mind you.

My 1st week being a true blue "22" (haha)

2007-12-15T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's like 3pm now and I'm actually supposed to be doing up the activity list for my meeting later at 7pm.. But being my usual lazy self.. here I am surfing the net, and well.. writing this post.

My first week at "22" was a slack one.

Like TRULY slack.

I've been going home around 6 - 6.30 everyday, the latest being 7.30 for which I wasted damn alot of time making some stupid mistakes.

But in actual fact, my team works pretty late. Apparently, my team is one of those that stay in the office for more unearthly hours than others. But hopefully things will get better (since I'm supposed to be there to share the workload).

Ok to start off,

My team currentlyhas 6 ppl. 1 mgr plus 5 of us. 3 from Group A and 2 from Group E. I'm in Group E, with this other guy who's been here for like .. 4 mths. And apparently he's been working 10/11pm or even 12am almost everyday since he joined. But well, that's cos he's the only person in group E, and I do suppose that his workload will be halved with me joining. Not so soon, though. Cos I do believe for the 1st month I'm still very much a liability. Poor guy's gotta teach me stuff and complete his daily work at the same time, while I saunter home at 6.30pm everyday. Ha.

But it was really boring la. My computer wasn't set up until Friday. Which means that during the rest of the week, when I had nothing to do, I really was doing NOTHING. So even on days when I got off early, I had this empty feeling inside me and it just didn't feel right.

And while my teammate was going through the daily processes with me, it seemed like pretty boring stuff. I dunno la. But I was just wondering if I've landed myself into the wrong thing. But in any case, I think it's too early to come to conclusions, and I'm giving myself til the end of the month to 'fit in'.

Very different from ex-firm, where the whole lot of us enter in one big batch and all pick up everything from scratch. Here it's just me and me alone. I gotta say that the people are nice la. My team ppl are nice. But when they're doing work, they're really doing work. And there doesn't seem to be this chatting/snacking culture which I'm so used to in x-firm. But that's good in a way la, maybe I can really start to jian fei for real now.

Work wise, cos we're Groups A and E, there's v little interaction between groups as the processes to be performed are somewhat different. And so most of the time it will only be me and my team mate, who reminds me of one of my little cousins.

Ya and so what I was trying to say is, even though ppl are nice, there is v little interaction and it can get somewhat boring, and somewhat.. cold. But then again, it may be becos I'm new to the place. I dunno. Time will tell :)

My current mgr's pretty nice, and I'm quite glad for that. I've been going home early cos they're trying not to scare me off on my first week. As what he says, let me grow fat first.. (apparently my team mate has lost 4kg since he joined!) *hmmm*

Ok and so cos the entire team has been working hard, the firm's making new additions to my team. And so in 2008 there will be a new manager to manage Group E. It's gonna be a female mgr. (Sigh!) My cousin and I have come to this conclusion that female mgrs are well.. not so nice. And I think soon it will be really 2 separate groups liao. Sigh again! I think I quite like the Group A ppl.

And on Friday I went for this dinner thing at the Expo. Happened that the firm had this mini party thing as well.. (which I only found out on the day itself). Mgr said it was a good chance to go get to know my other colleagues, but well.. so last min, and I already had my dinner appt, so I din go, and probably seemed anti-social (again, as always).

Anw, hopefully won't have to work too late in the weeks to come.

I think there's potential for this place to be, a nice place. :)

Looking forward to good updates next week!

December - the holiday season :)

2007-12-09T02:35:00.000+08:00

Hi Blog!
haven't been writing here in a while.. Not that nothing has been happening.. but rather, too busy to write.. Or at least, I've no more laptop.. lost all my bookmarks etc when I surrendered the/'my' Dell notebook last Friday.

The poor laptop that i have at home was the one i bought in uni. First year! so it's really a piece of electrical junk now..

Just came back from ST Chalet and tau-huay.. and ms tay was like.. did u read xx's blog?
And so i hurriedly came online after a quick 30 min shower (ok, not so quick after all) to take a look.. and it wasn't a wasted trip after all! There was a new post! Hehe.. with newer updates!

Merry christmas indeed! I hope this christmas season does bring love!

And so some updates about my life so far.. (I kinda realise it's quite a good idea to jot these things down.. so a couple of years down the road when you read these stuff again, it's a good way to reminisce.. and also a good way to.. well.. remember stuff.. esp since i've so contracted senile dementia.. sigh!)

Well ever since my last day on Friday, 30th Nov, I've been leading a pretty slack life..

1/2 Dec was Kotekitai kenshu..
It was 2 years ago since we slept at SCC! This year's welfare was a lot better.. there were even sleeping bags provided! But my poor air-bag pillow couldn't inflate and I slept with my head on the hard ground.. was quite okay initially, but in the middle of the night I had such a terrible neck ache on one side.. and then the other..

3 Dec Dad flew back..
After that it was just go-out everyday.. And cos it was my bday week I think my family was extra nice to me.. haha.. But I tink I kinda abused it la.. I woke up late everyday and no one said anything.. Ha!

Told them I was going to get an LV wallet.. along the lines of a Koala wallet in Damier canvas (white) or a white eugenie wallet in epi leather. And my dad actually said.. ok let's go to the shop later! But alas we didn't have time to go to the shop (on the 6th), and my dad flew off the next day.. there goes my sponsorship!

Oh and there wasn't time because we went to Sentosa to view "the marina collection", some condo at sentosa cove. And it's ... pretty ex... the pictures looked nice.. but we didn't get to go to the showroom.. and the place will only be ready in 2011.. so whatever.. no impact for now whether we get it or not..

Anw I'm more concerned about my wallet la..

Oh ya.. talk about wallet... C*t*bank called me up and told me I had a free facial with DR*.. I went.. and ended up parting with $575 (before GST!) for something which isn't even a facial package.. basically I'm just making a prepayment for $575 worth of products.. but I get 3 free facials worth $345 altogether..

Seemed like a good deal when I was there.. and the facialist promised me results.. I think I was kinda desperate at that time.. Suffering a terrible breakout from Shanghai and the idea of clear skin was hard to resist (even though I still have another 6-session package with another salon)

Ahh..

And so I decided I shall put off all other purchases until January, or at least when my bank account inflates back to normal.. Been paying off credit card bills amounting > $1k per card and I'm still trying to figure out where my $$ went to..

And then it was today.. went for the chalet.. brought some clothes etc not knowing whether to stay over or not.. My 1st stayover in say.. 2 years? I think.

well, turned out that no one was going to stay over.. only hj and i brought clothes.. so watever.. we din stay either and ended up dumping alot of food... only to march off to rochor beancurd at geylang to eat beancurd plus portuguese egg tart.

And I'm quite glad that I've a couple of non-family EY frens! Ha.. actually when I was distributing the Hanuta on my last day, there weren't enough! At first I was just throwing them into everyone-I-know's in-trays.. then I kinda realised that I actually know more people than I thought I did.. so it was quite paiseh la.. luckily there werent many ppl in the office.. I actually went one more round taking back hanutas from ppl tht I thot won't miss me.. haha..

I was just browsing the lv website.. and the patent stuff look really nice! but really not easy to maintain la.. and considering that I'm gonna be holding this lv wallet for really long.. i think the epi leather would be a good investment.. ok im seriously considering the white one now.. but then again.. white might get dirty easily.. ahh.. and i dunno the price yet la.. kill me if it's > 1k..

There's gonna be induction on Monday.. dunno what will happen after that.. seems like my new team is kinda... well.. shorthanded.. I hope i go in with a smooth landing..

Wuxi

2007-11-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

Bought the 'famous' Wuxi pai gu today..

It was a long ride to work from the hotel at Ramada Encore.

This is my messy desk at the Wuxi plant office.

It's kinda colder today. Prob will need to wear the long johns soon..

the life of a senior...

2007-09-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

ahh... just did my laser surgery part 2 today.. the whole limpin' cycle repeats itself.. but I sure hope this time round there's no part 3 la.. i've been wearing flats for more than a month.. and i've been so neglecting all my long pants.. and heels..
i'm actually quite fine with that.. what prompted me to blog today was work..

i actually only went for a medical follow-up session today.. only to find out that i require another laser surgery.. well.. totally unexpected.. and that earned me 3 days of MC..

but.. i'm clearing 2 jobs this week.. 1 booked.. 1 not..
and suddenly everything just came pouring down today.. so much work to do.. i was beginning to think that i'm not coping v well as a senior..

very luckily, my booked job got taken over by Ms S.. Mr Mgr was v nice too, to let her take over rather than just let me find my own means to complete the work..

on the other hand, the not-booked job was highly demanding, with daily deliverables listed out.. in fact, in the afternoon I got a call from Ms Mgr during lunch to ask me if I saw the email she sent out.. (which I obviously didn't since I've already left the office for lunch)

and she actually told me to do certain things in the morning which i kinda forgot to do.. and she was asking why those things were not done.. *feeling-of-failure #2*
and then she went on to ask about A, B and C which I tried to shrug off by saying I thought I'd do it tonight..

But seriously, I had only just left the office, and went for lunch.. not like I'm going to take the 3 days of MC and shake leg la.. and damn it la.. it's like 10pm now and I'm still trying to plug in some dunno what figures into the stupid summary memo.. AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE ON MC!

my foot truly hurts and as my bro in NS says, they always think u're trying to 'ca04 gheng1'..

and now.. booked-job i've thrown it to Ms S, while not-booked job I've thrown consol and Group stuff to Senior2. It's like.. I can't even finish a job myself la.. then everything pass to everyone else.. And Ms Mgr is somewhat pissed with me.. Now I think I'll really end up leaving on a bad note.. And maybe I should try to leave sooner! before my reputation gets too bad..

I'm really quite sian diao by this not-booked job la.. and it doesn't help that there are f-ing 8 subsis in the stupid Group... everything must do 8 times.. blardy waste time... Just cut and pasting SRM wordings already took me almost 1 hour, and that was totally brainless lor!

and there's like SO MUCH to do.. update SAD, update AWPs, update SRM, update FS. and all these are supposed to be done without booking? luckily Ms S took over my other job, so that I can spend ALL MY MC on this unbooked job.. Dunno, maybe I'm just feeling super bitter because my foot hurts.. I can't walk properly and it puts so much strain on my leg that I feel like crying.. and I can't just go to bed because I have to do-the-update.

I was just thinking.. you can't just tell me today that you want the stuff by tomorrow! At least give me some warning.. let me plan my time a bit? And though everything may seem really simple, it's f-ing tedious having to do it for 8 companies.. and suddenly there are so many more requirements which I didn't know had to be done??

Maybe this IS the life of a senior.. Maybe this is the kinda life that everyone has been leading.. And I thought I was used to having to do OT and follow-up already.. But this one's really irking me like siao.

Can I just dump the figure-plugging onto my A1? The poor girl suay suay come in for the first time and has to clear all this crap.. And it doesn't help that I'm sitting at home and I can't explain things to her properly.. Hate this..

Remember I was saying I wanna try out senior-life for a bit first? I think I've tried it.. And I don't like it.. And the other day I stayed in office til 1am to cross-ref the damn FS-es? now useless cos everything revised. Dunno what I stayed back for..

Ah.. I think I don't like my job very much..

And I pray my foot will heal soon..

...

Signs

2007-08-16T10:07:00.000+08:00

heh just visited hj's blog and found her 'lovey-dovey' pics from the site that urn-y recommended..

so i decided to copy her n put mine up here as well! hehe..

ok i thought this one was really funny.. cos tattoos are supposed to be cool.. imagining tattooing sian on ur back.. how sian can that get? :)
but decided to add in the skull to make it not-so-sian.. now i think i shld have left it out..

scabs

2007-08-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

Before I begin my topic about scabs, I must do some complaining..

This morning I boarded the bus to work as usual, at approximately 8.45am from my place. As usually I left my house at 8.30am and proceeded to wait like an idiot at the bus stop.. forever..

Quite luckily, I managed to get a seat after the bus stopped at the MRT station..
But maybe it wasn't so lucky..
I got one of the back-facing seats in front.. and from then on it was a terrible journey.

Actually I couldn't see the road conditions (since the bus was crowded and I was facing the back), but it ended up that I reached office at around 9.30am. Kow! That was a whole 20 mins more than what it would usually take.

And by that time I was on the verge of puking on the bus already. Ok la.. not so bad.. but the puke was already around my chest.. ugh..

The frequent accelerate-brake motions just disturbed my insides.. And as I'm typing this I'm feeling a little woozy in my head.. SUX.

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OK back to scabs..
Newaez, this is just a little feeling that I got this morning when I saw a beginning-of-a-scab forming on one of the lasered craters on my foot.

Ha. Never have I been so happy for a scab to form on my skin.

Last week I had a minor laser surgery done, which left 2 teeny craters on the balls of my feet.
Surprisingly, the one which I thought was the more serious one (which was the one I identified), started to scab within 2 days of the surgery. The other one, which I thought was dead skin, turned out to be a tough one to heal. I suppose maybe the surface area was bigger, this one was sorta rectangular shaped and measured about 1 cm in length, while the other crater was a mini circle of about 6mm diameter.

While the circle was 'scabbing', the rectangle continued to bleed everyday as it was inevitable that I step on it, exert pressure and cause blood to flow out.. (a bit only la)
And everyday while I change my dressing the flesh still seems rather raw with no signs of healing.

My idea of healing was to let the thing dry up asap, but applying the doc's cream everyday and putting a bandage over the craters didn't seem like a good idea for the wound to dry up. So on Tuesday night I bandaged it without the cream (still must put bandage otherwise stain my bed), but to my horrors, the next morning I found the bandage stuck to the wound. I guess the wound tried to heal with my bandage. Had to pull it out.. like velcro..

Yesterday night I got slightly smarter. I decided to put aloe vera gel instead! Heck the antibiotic cream. Put for like 6 days liao and the stupid wound was not healing.

Voila! This morning, for the first time I saw the darkening of the wound. OK.. not darken-ing per se, but the wound was a darker red now and looked like it will probably scab over by the weekend! Yay!

No more limping!

So disgusting, having to wear flats, looking short and unpro..
But what was worse was having to walk on my heels, walk on the side of my foot, and exerting pressure in all the wrong places that caused bruises on my sole..

Ah.. can't wait for the weekend ;)

i've had enough of..

2007-08-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

.. dirty toilets!

This is the nth time that I've stepped into a cubicle and found droplets of liquid on the toilet seat. So what did I do?
Step out. And stepped into another cubicle.
What do I see?
Droplets.
Fine, i thought. Teared out some toilet paper and gave the seat a wipe.
I feel like the toilet cleaner..
Nowadays there isn't a time when I don't have to wipe the seat.
They're almost always wet.
And I dread to think what the droplets were made of.
Previously I had unsuspectingly sat on wet seats and could do nothing but pray that it was the clean water from the powerful flush.
But more often that not I do suppose it is liquid waste that has stained my skin..

WTH!

It's not like this is a public toilet where ppl of all sorts have entered it.
It's not like this place is full of those aunties who step on the seats, or little children that cannot aim properly.
This is the office toilet that I'm talking about. Practically everyone here is a graduate.
Tell people these grads can't even pee properly and I'll bet they'll laff their heads off.

Come on la!
If you actually do dirty the seat, clean it off!

I've wasted like so much toilet paper just from plain wiping of the seats.

Do it yourself la.

n95!

2007-07-31T11:28:00.000+08:00

ooh i've recently taken a serious liking to...

nokia n95!

see www.nseries.com

it's v gd! it's got a 5mp camera, radio, realplayer, and1gb memory!

but it costs like 1k w/o a line..

someone help me with this :)

070707

2007-07-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

Ah.. I'm on leave now.. but doing some work.. and suddenly I felt like I should do some blogging :) Kinda just realised that I forgot to blog about this soo important event! : 070707.

The performance held at the Singapore Indoor Stadium was in commemoration of our SSA's 40th Anniversary. The baton girls had 2 items to perform: The Sound of Music with the junior choir and SNCO; and a medley of songs with the combined band (Kotekitai + Brass Band).

Sound of music item was the purple costume, main band item: the red-yellow dress.

The day we've practised so hard for had finally arrived. I was kinda worried. Cos I haven't had much practice myself, and I'm such a slow learner plus the SOM steps were so difficult. But in the end, I did well for SOM! I only had to pick up the baton from the floor once, and that was a partner throw (which I attributed the miss to external factors). All the other throws and tosses that I did on my own (plus the other partner throws) were successful! I was soo happy after that.. Didn't even have to remind myself to SMILE. It just came naturally! After every successful throw it was like.. *yay* *smile*

Immediately after this item we dashed back to the holding room to change into our red-yellow dresses for the next item. (There was only one other item in between our 2 items) Rushed out to the gate and waited for our turn. I was just telling some of them, ok now can relax liao, cos the steps we did for the band item were relatively simpler. But I guess this bit of complacency brought me down. During the first vertical throw, I dropped my baton. Somehow I saw it coming down and I reached out for it. I thought it was landing into my hands. But it ended up on the floor. I was like.. "??!!"

I quickly picked it up and proceeded with the rest of the steps. Then came the second throw. There was the butterfly twirl before the throw. Told myself, "must not drop it this time". But somehow I think I was too darned kan cheong for this that I dropped it again! During the butterfly twirl some more! Didn't even get to throw it and the baton just slipped outta my hands. Goodness knows what was with me at that moment. After that I was just so disappointed liao la. Before the show I told myself I'd try to throw higher this time. But in the end i didn't even get to throw!

Managed to get thru the 3rd throw smoothly.. but the dark shadow cast by the first 2 misses was just irremovable.. *sigh*

Every time I think about this I'll feel soo bad.. It's like, everyone performed so well, the band was inspiring, and I had to drop. Ah well.

Now I'm just waiting for the video to come out. Can't wait to watch sound of music! Think it should be wonderful :)

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And now back to reality.. I'm sitting in my room now as I'm typing this.. Trying to 'rush' out some business risks thingy. Kinda irritated initally. I'm like on leave la. Still must do work. Sian. But knowing that I'm not the only one (our dear family girls are all in the same boat) gives me some sorta comfort. Haha. I think i'm evil la. Misery loves company.

Ms Mgr just called me to ask me about the unsigned SRM. It's like AQR la! And that was the first point raised. Die liao la. And she asked me if i could recall anything about filing the signed copy. I said I think so. I have a vague memory about collecting the signed SRM la. But not clear enough to give any definite answer. At that moment I just felt so useless. It's just a small little thing and I couldn't remember. I think I desperately need to do something about my short-term memory.. How to be snr like that?! I'm like always so blur and unsure. And I attribute all of these to my innate bad memory. What an excuse.

But honestly I'm not the sort to be able to memorise things! I do better at subjects like Math where I can refer to formulas and apply. Suck at things like Geography where I have to memorise plate tectonic movements and whatever crap conditions for the growth of rice plantations. Luckily didn't take Bio.

Felt kinda bad that I wasn't able to provide any constructive comments for Ms Mgr. But well, I'll be over it soon. (You see, my memory is so bad that within the next half an hour I would have forgotten about this.)

And I guess I should get back to writing my business risks now. Was looking at the impressive plan written by Ms S. I was telling her: "wah lau. High benchmark la." I was just planning to smoke through this thing (I hope no one relevant is reading this now) and just churn something out but after looking at hers I suppose I can't do that any more. Ha. Gonna try more smoking now and hopefully it can pass off.. Ahhh...

Practices

2007-06-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

ah.. we had prac yesterday evening.. i think i kinda shouted a bit in the middle.. partly cos the band was v loud, i had to raise my volume a little, but i was also kinda exasperated for awhile.. dunno why.. outburst of emotions.. muahaha..

at the end during the combined, SY said "baton girls v gd!"
which was gd! that was what we've been working for.. but i din feel wonderful inside.. cos i screwed up big time.. all the time i keep correcting the girls' mistakes and tell them we have to get in at the right timing etc. but when it comes to the actual doing it, i don't remember anything that i've taught and i stand there like an idiot trying to recall my steps.

i need to practise! it's terrible having to stand in front to watch and correct, all the time. i mean, it's nice to watch.. but when u haf to do it urself too, it's hard.. cos at the end of it, the only way to be in sync with the rest is for u to practise on your own at home.. i told myself i'd go home and practise my steps but i didn't. went home with my mom and bro and we ate roti prata.. (kow!)
it was like damn late already so i decided to jus go bathe.. by the time i went to bed it was like 12.30 already.. damn tired.. so din manage to practise at all..

there's prac again today, but i'll miss the first half of it.. gonna try to make it there by 7.30 but we'll be running thru sound of music instead of the band item.. this sat's sound of music as well.. sharks la. how am i gonna 'make it' by sunday? hopefully this sunday someone else will take the grp so i can finally go take my place and get some practice.

JIA YOU!

my messy workplace

2007-06-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

heh im beginning to enjoy taking photos/videos with my phone cos they look alot better on computer! and i luv the bluetooth function on the laptop.. can trf files anytime without the stupid messy cable (that requires a damn program to work)..

here's a pic of my messy table:

ok not v comprehensive la.. since it only shows a teeny little portion.. but notice the wires sticking out everywhere :)

slack + stress!

2007-06-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

This week's actually a slack week.. I'm on this office job and the work's already done by our overseas counterpart.. so there's only a review to be done and an outstanding (ugh) list to create. I will target to leave office before 6.30 everyday.. And I take like 1.5hr lunches.

But at the same time it's stressful cos though I'm booked on the slack job this week, I have to complete a tedious task for another job.. And thankfully this slack job's really slack la.. I'm like spending all my time doing my tedious job instead.. Quite paiseh actually.. for my other team mates to be working on the slack job while I do my other job.. Worst thing is, the deadline is this Friday (TODAY!) and I still haven't received the replies that I need. I hate it when things are not within my control..

Stress Part 2 comes from the 7/7/07 performance..
Supposed to be choreographing the combined item with the band, which will be playing 3 songs!
Need to choreo for 2 songs.. With some help from HZ, managed to complete the flag dance.. but the tough part is the other song! which is 25 8s long and split into a jazzy/swing version and a normal version.. Haven't quite managed to come up with anything yet.. I've been playing the song over and over again at home (and i quite like this song) but my brain's not working! And esp cos the performance is at SIS, I gotta think of big steps that can be seen from afar.. Was watching some performance videos and really.. those more 'delicate' steps cannot be seen at all.. do like never do..

And supposed to do the choreo with 2 other girls.. but one of them's busy with work and won't be able to attend some practices, while the other's busy with school (and cca etc).. so no choice.. this week i gotta be the worker ant.. carry the load that's ten times my weight.. and it's stressful bcos we just had practice yesterday, and we're having practice again on sunday! 9-3pm. Finished teaching the flag steps on thurs liao.. which means Sunday gotta do the baton steps! Which is blank at the moment! Die la.. I'm planning to bi guan xiu lian tmr.. hopefully can churn out something to at least keep them occupied on sunday!

STRESS!

(wah.. u know wat.. i'm like more stressed out for this than I've ever been at work la! SIS is no joke la..)

Picture!

2007-05-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

I was just reading someone else's blog and realised how lack-of-pix my blog is. pix really kinda add life to the blog ya?

and now that i've got bluetooth on my comp, i can upload my pix easily! yay.. so here's one.. ok.. i'm a newbie in this la.. dunno how to put my pics nicely..

anw.. this is bakerzin's cookies and cream cheesecake (or watever's left of it) that yl and i shared for tea break..

lunch i had thai express' green curry chicken.. a little too much coconut milk though.. yl's tom yam noodles was supposedly too sour... i guess they are v err.. generous with their ingredients.. oh.. but i ate up the entire bowl of rice anw.. dun waste the curry mah.. i'm quite a sauce/gravy kinda person.. like usually i'll prob only eat 1/4 bowl plain rice at home.. but if i've got stuff like.. duck gravy.. ooh.. i'll down one plate of rice without hesitation :)

HR

2007-05-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

I have recently been assigned with an administrative task for which I have to obtain the personal particulars of the firm's new joiners. The collation of the forms was done by HR, while my job was to peruse through the forms to make sure that they are filled in properly. WEll, without an exception, there are ppl who din fill in their forms properly and we need to send their forms back to them.

Moi mgr told me HR will route it back to them. So I sent HR and email telling them i'll give them the forms soon.. Only to receive a call telling me "the departments will usually do it". Meaning I gotta do it. Wah. There are like 20 - 30 badly completed forms and I gotta mail it back to them individually? I'm not Admin u know.. neither am I HR. I thought the staff liaising business was HR's problem. They are called HR for a reason leh.

I asked mgr for help but haven't received a response yet. Dunno whether cos this is too trivial a matter to receive a response for. I've been bugging mgr quite a bit with silly questions la. But sometimes I really dun dare to shan zuo zhu zhang.

And so... now I'm taking the nil response as no help will be rendered.. So I've no way out.. sian la.. it's so admin and I can't charge time for it lor.

On a side note, did a bit of shopping during lunch today.. Body shop having up to 50% sale for body scrubs, butters, shower gels etc. THink I might wanna buy! :)

Women In Arts

2007-05-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

It was a spectacular weekend on the 19th and 20th of May. We performed for both days of the Women in Arts concert and had so much fun!
Saturday was with the band. They played the japanese Graffiti while we did twirling and flag. The changing of costumes in between was v exciting! the other participants that were waiting backstage were so kan cheong for us too as we quickly stripped one costume and put on another. I think it was this kan cheong ness that made us want to perform better. I think the end results were amazing :)
Esp for the flag. We were SO together! Never seen before kinda togetherness. I think the prayers of everyone were clearly answered :)

Haven't seen the video for Sunday's "Wipe Out" yet. But I heard the response was good :)
Can't wait for the videos to be out! So looking forward to watching the Lotus Sutra dance by Pris and gang. There's this girl in that group who's such a dancer! She's got the perfect dancer built, poise and all. And she's pretty!

Had dinner with the 'family' on Sunday night at this restaurant called Rakuzen at the Millenia Walk. Nice place, i'd say. The ambience is good, the food is nice, and the service is top grade! The waitresses were oh-so polite it makes me feel paiseh.. haha...

activity update

2007-05-14T10:17:00.000+08:00

some upcoming important activities:

19th May Women in Arts concert (English)
20th May Women in Arts concert (Mandarin)

Venue: SSA HQ (Tampines St 81)

7th July Youth Concert
Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium

I'm performing in all the above shows! i suppose the May one would be too far for most ppl to come, so... I'm inviting peepz for the July one! keep the day free ya?

Aiming for Taiwan after the July performance.. :)

quotable quotes..

2007-03-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

just a little something to add before I do my publishing.. saw this Biore Perfect Face Milk at Cold Storage the other day. It's this sunblock from Biore.. nice bottle! When watson's today to see if they sell.. They do! I wanna buy! Quite surprising actually.. cos they actually imported quite a bit of Biore's japanese products.. For those of you who dunno, Biore is quite a big brand in Japan.. and there's much more to it than just those tubes of facial washes.. haha.. Can't decide if I should finish my current bottle of sunblock first or just go ahead and buy this now..

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ok .. here are the quotes.. my job has ended.. and it's time to get listed!

Quotable quotes!

A: Is the OM the one who approves the cheques?
B: No, it’s one of the authorized signatories.

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A: Can you pass me the walkthrough?
B: Do you want this year’s or last year’s?
A: Any one will do if they’re the same.
B hands over last year’s walkthrough, and A reads thru it.
B: Last year’s is not very complete.
A: ???!!!! (shouldn’t you have just passed me this yr’s then?!)

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A does Company A, which is an interco of Company B. We’re auditing only A and B. Everyone knows this.

A: Can I confirm interco balances with you?
B: Which one?

DUH!

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A2: Any idea how many samples we need for cut-off?
Snr: Usually 5, but not sure. No specific guidelines.
(Snr turns to A1)
Snr: What u think?
A1: What does GAM say?

DUH YET AGAIN! If we knew what GAM said would we ask you?

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A2: What’s the TE?
Snr: TE is 115. (Turns to A1) It’s 115 right?
A1 remains silent for a few moments, does some check on the computer.
A1: TE is 115.

Okay I’m sure no one thinks there’s anything odd here. But well, I would think that a normal reply would be: “Yes, it’s 115.” Or just a plain “Ya”. That reply was as though the senior had not mentioned anything at all.

And in any case, why did he have to hesitate? We’ve been on this job for 3 days. And by the 3rd day you still dunno what your TE is? How to do work? It’s not like we’re doing a few companies at once. Hmm. Maybe I’m just being overly critical…

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Snr: When did the director resign?
A2: January.
A1: (pause, then echoes) January.

Wah lau. Parrot la!

Yippee!

2007-03-30T13:41:00.000+08:00

Yippee! It's friday! Sitting in the office now.. and it doesn't seem quite right to be blogging now actually, cos well.. I'm supposedly at work. But hey! It's lunch time k.. That's the problem with flexible lunches.. Cos some people will be working while you're taking your break; and then it looks like you're slacking. Ah well.

I'm in holiday mood now! Next week will be a super short week for me.. 3 days of work only! Gonna fly off to China on Thursday for tomb sweeping. Should be back by Sat midnight, meaning Sunday la. Not the normal sorta holiday, but it'll be a nice break from work! Well, not that work's v bad recently, but I just do feel that this short getaway will do me good..

We'll prob be getting about one day in HK too.. Hopefully there'll be some time to shop.. and eat! Definitely gonna get myself at least one cup of the mango drink.. Anyone knows if the franchise in Singapore is still open? Kinda got the idea that it's closed.. cos it's overpriced! and at a weird location too.. who goes to int'l bldg??

Newaez, I'm just so super slack now that I'm contemplating taking time off for the rest of the day! Doesn't seem like I've any work to do at the moment.. Not much la.. But I feel like going shopping! Still haven't bought my black shoes and black cardigan..

Gonna meet JC friends today.. t'was Bookfish's bday yesterday.. so I guess today is sorta a celebration for her ba! And flea's too! hehe..
Ah.. can't wait for work to end! Today's gonna be v exciting after work! 5.30 quick come! I hope I'll have something nice to blog about at the end of today :)

ugh

2007-03-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

21/3/074.45pmBl**dy hell! I just came back from the toilet and guess what I saw there? There was this drop of yellow liquid on the seat. Ok. No further elaboration needed. I was like, WAH LAU! How to use? No choice I had to wipe it away myself. Darned. Don't understand why these people can't clean up after themselves. And it doesn't help that this toilet is shared amongst males and females. Somehow I feel more grossed out by the fact that I think the previous user was a guy. Ugh.
23/3/072.30pmI just realised I forgot to post the previous entry when I brought my laptop back that day. Ah well.. anyway we're back from lunch and I'm super stoned! Super no mood to work, not to mention that this is a rather slack job.. I'm about 80% done with my stuff but I refuse to complete the remaining 20%. And as I'm writing this I see the A1 dozing off.. haha.. Typing helps to keep me awake I guess.. At least there's some continuous movement, and it requires my eyes to stare at the words as they appear (to ensure that they turn out as.. well.. words.. and not rubbish..)
3.10pmOk.. I've managed to vouch 3 receipts so far.. after 40 mins.. haha.. I think I really CMI liaoz.. Feeling v lethargic. These few days I've been having trouble waking up cos of the drowsy flu medication (I think). Usually I'll wake up the moment the alarm sounds, but these few days I'll HAVE to press snooze cos I feel like I have absolutely no energy to wake up.. And the best thing is, I'll sleep all the way till the snooze alarm sounds, and wake up with the same helpless feeling again.. Ah. It's quite bad really. And it puts me in an irritable mood especially since I'll wake up with a dry painful throat. Think it's the medication la. But doesn't make sense.. Cos I've this throat mediciine for inflammation. So why should I still wake up with a sore throat? It's inexplicable..

DUH

2007-03-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

Wah! I don't get this. Today after we came back from lunch, the senior and I were like too full and so we stood up to read some documents. Dunno why, the A1 did the same too. Hmm. Maybe he's too full too. (But we all ate about the same stuff. One bowl of noodles. The senior had an extra bowl of soup and I had an extra drink. Which means we should be fuller! And I thought guys should have bigger stomachs! No?) And it was a weird scene with 3 ppl standing up reading. The senior picked up her newspaper to read and likewise the A1 was reading his copy of the newspaper. Somehow I just had the idea that he was a copycat.
And as I was supposed to be doing PnL, the senior was telling me about some matters that I should take note of. I nodded in acknowledgment, only to realise that the A1 was nodding away as well.. Huh? Not talking to you leh. (And yes, the senior was looking at me, facing me. No cause for misunderstanding!)
WEird leh!
And I'm now compiling this list of 'quotable quotes': basically DUH stuff that he says. I think this will sell well if published! Great entertainment for you, but total exasperation for me :(I've 4 quotes now, but I hope I won't be compiling too many for the 1.5 weeks to come.. (Or I may be exasperated to death!)

funny happenings at work..

2007-03-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

As i was telling hj yesterday, I encountered this quite funny manager at work. And I'm here to recount the funny incidents before I forget! Will serve as a light hearted read in future :)

It all started yesterday morning at the office. I was leaving for the client's place and the mgr and snr were standing nearby waiting for me. And so I joined them, carrying my handbag and work bag. But a rather heavy work bag at that.. with all my barang barang in there.

Then the mgr stuck out his hand, the signal of 'let me help you carry this'. Wah. I was quite surprised la. Usually managers don't help to carry stuff, and it wasn't like we were carrying many bags or wat.. And so I was like "Err.. this is my own stuff." Thinking that he probably thought I was carrying the working files or sth.

Mgr: Never mind.
So I handed him the bag lor. So heavy.. some help would be nice :)
Mgr: Don't need to bring so many things what.
Me: Err.. my laptop is inside.
Mgr: Oh ok.
(I was like.. huh?? inside only got my laptop and pencil case la.. plus other barangs such as my water bottle, hand cream, foolscap, hole puncher ETC. and I can't possibly be only bringing my handbag there rite?)

Damn funny la.. in both senses of the word.. But at the same time I was damn paiseh la. The mgr carrying my bag for me. So after we reached the client's place I insisted on carrying the bag myself. Better don't owe favours.. (After a while I started regretting it cos the bag was damn heavy la. And we had to walk a bit..)

At the lift lobby it was damn funny again..
There were 3 lifts, and one leads only to the basement carparks. We were going to one of the higher floors. The basement lift door opened and the manager walked right to it. We tried to stop him but in vain.. He went in and came out, saying "this one doesn't go up". Wah I was totally just trying to contain my laughter. I was wondering how come managers can be so blur.. (There was a sign on top of the lift that said it only goes to the basement..) Then I recalled the kopi incident where hj was buying breakfast for okok sup. He's another 搞不清楚状况person and insisted on getting kaya toast in the set which offers the egg sandwich. Muahaha.. my workplace is full of these v cute ppl.

Ok back to my first story. During the briefing for the job, the mgr stressed that we will only be doing Sections A and B this week. He said it like 2 -3 times. Later on he went back to the office for a meeting and came back in the afternoon. Did another briefing and mentioned the A and B, again. And again. And again. I was so gonna explode from laughing liao! Dunno is he 失意or he thinks we will 失意。

Today even funnier. I was supposed to be back in office today to clear another job (let's call it 'big job'). Yesterday he insisted that I should show face at the current client's place to create the image that there are 2 people on the job. And so I did. Daddled around until about 10am before I left for the office. Managed to SHOW FACE. I talked to the FM and talked to HR. Enough presence ba :)

And so I was doing my big job today and he sent out a mail telling us to clear review pts for paint company. I managed to clear some during my span of stay in the office. At about 7.45pm I was packing the room and brought the paint co files back to his desk. He was like.. Wah.. still here ah.. okok must claim OT. I was like more WAH la. Not yet 8 you know..
Me: Serious ah.
Mgr: Yah. Work OT must claim wat.
Me: Wah ok. Starting from what time?
Mgr: 6.30
Me: Wah! Serious?
Mgr: Too early ah? ok lor. 7.30
Me: Haha okok.. anyway I wasn't doing your job la.
etc.

Wah that was like unreal la.. Dunno he joking or wat. Cos this is my first time working for this mgr. Maybe he's the like to tok kok type and shouldn't be taken seriously. Or maybe he's really in a damn gd mood this week, as hj says..
Hehe.. I heard from another friend that he's attached now.. To a fellow M.. Maybe that's why!

Oh talking abt the paint co, I'm super pissed, ok not pissed.. somewhat irritated by the A1 who did the stat review. Told her to put the finished stuff into the snr's intray. Ended up in mine. Ok fine. So it was one stack of papers. I had to punch holes! I'm like sick of punching holes liao la. After punching like 20 stacks of CP.. And then she took out PY's AWPs for reference, AND SHE DIN PUT IT BACK! I'm like sitting damn far away from the files la. I was so sian diao that I din put it back either. Left it in the current yr file. muahaha. And at the end of the whole thing I had to ref the minutes back to the statement. And bestest! 3 resos missing. But I gas this is not her fault la. Cos she won't know what's missing and what makes the complete set. And her only redeeming factor was that she ref-ed her resos. Otherwise I'll scream!

Ah well. I guess I get irritated pretty easily. Anw.. today's dinner-snack was quite nice! I had the cream puff with strawberry roll.

Going home was another adventure. Ms P was coming back office to go home. So I called a cab for the both of us to share. Cos at first it was supposed to be for her A1, so I din leave any contact number nor destination (cos I din know mah). Later it turns out that Ms P and I will take this called cab. Fine. So we went to the cab stand.. No cab! Worst thing is we forgot the cab no. Called the cab co to ask.. waited and waited. Finally they said they couldn't trace. By that time we've already waited about 20 mins I think. Then we tried to call for another one. This one took damn long. Ms P told the operator we're going to 2 places. Hers and mine. The operator called for 2 cabs! In the end only one responded, the one to my place. Fine! Just what we wanted. One cab for 2 to share. But in the end it turned out that this driver accepted another call and could only go to my place and not hers. Poor Ms P. We dropped at my place and had to wait quite a while before we could flag another cab for her. I think it was about 9.10 at that time. I left office at around 8.10 k!

Ok la.. but it gave me a chance to talk to Ms P. It's like an unplanned meet-up. So I guess sometimes its nice to work in the same office! And whoa! It's 12.20 now! I should be sleeping! Nitez! Oh.. and Ms P, if you do read this.. Get me a copy of the street directory leh! Thanks ah! :)

What is Faith?

2007-03-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

The question of MY faith has been on my mind for quite some time. I'm a Buddhist, practising Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism. And there's no doubt that this is a good religion; the question is: how good a person am I?

We have this sorta 'slogan' thing "Practise for oneself, and practise for others." meaning to not only conduct your Buddhist practice for yourself, but also for the sake of others' happiness. I am a leader in the organisation, whereby I have a few members 'under my wing', and I have to take care of them in terms of their faith, to ultimately ensure that they too, will gain happiness.

Sounds great doesn't it? I mean, I do think that this is a great organisation. Buddhism is all about compassion and attaining happiness in our lives. The people that I meet in this org, are sometimes too frightfully nice.. OK maybe not frightful, but there ARE people who constantly put others ahead of themselves, and are constantly trying to make this world a better place.

The problem now is I think this org is too ideal for me.. I'm a lazy and selfish person. And there's no innate goodness in me that makes me wanna help somebody else. Being put in a leadership position, I am now obliged to fulfil my duties of ensuring that my members are well taken care of. Which is so not me! Many a times, I've felt that I should give up my position. I should let someone else who can do the job better take this place! Why? Cos I feel sorry for my members when I don't put in enough effort to ensure their growth. These people are bright young individuals and I'm hindering their path to happiness because I haven't made much effort in leading them the right way. What's worse is because I'm their leader, they're deprived of the chance of having a better leader. Everyone else would be thinking that these members are growing well under my care but in actual fact, I've neglected them and their faith may or may not be weakening... (I don't even know this!) But at the same time, I feel that this seems rather escapist, and it's more of pushing my responsibility onto someone else. I dunno.. I've been facing this dilemma for some time but I haven't found the strength to take any positive action.. All I've done is blame everything on my work.. SIgh..

Recently my mum was telling me that I haven't been praying enough and I should be praying hard for my future. Yeah.. I guess I should.. I'm like nearly a quarter century old but yet still unaccomplished and ever so childish/ignorant. I know I should be praying hard, but I'm too lazy for that! And what's the best way for me to overcome my laziness? Pray hard! (You see my dilemma?!) My mum was then saying that this just means that I don't have enough faith in the power of the Gohonzon. But I don't think so.. I feel an apt analogy would be say, someone who has an illness and KNOWS of the available medicine to cure that illness, but is simply refusing to take this medicine because it is troublesome. I'm positively sure that this medicine is good, and WILL cure my illness, but I also know that this is not a one-off thing. For antibiotics to work, you have to finish the entire course of it. Imagine how tough it will be for someone who can't swallow pills. Would you rather die of the illness?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm thinking too much..

Sometimes I just wanna do the things that I feel like doing. Sometimes I just wanna be lazy and not do anything. I'm wondering if happiness means not being bound by any restrictions. Having no need to work, no need to bother about other people's problems. And of course, ignoring all my problems (like I've usually been doing..)

Can I not be good? Can I continue to stay my lazy selfish self and not strive for improvement? Is this what I really want? Ha. I've suddenly thought of another analogy. This is like entrepreneurship! To stay in the comfort zone of routine (but boring), or to break through the challenges and become an entrepreneur. Sometimes it's a real mental struggle. To be a better person, or not?

I guess my mind is still in a whirlwind.. to be continued.. (hehe)

new look

2007-02-15T15:55:00.000+08:00

ok my poor tag board is gone.. had to change to this new template cos the old one wasn't working well.. i'll put in the tag board when i've the time.. sigh.

godiva

2007-02-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

think i've told the whole world about this already but i thought i'll just put it down anyway.. got a box of godiva's from my bro on monday.. supposed to be for vday.. quite nice of him actually.. he got a box for a girl and decided to get me one too.. umm.. and he got attached with that box of chocs la.. (along with the bear that i sponsored!)

i guess i'm now one step closer to my 'expected' future: being a well-loved (unmarried) aunt to my brothers' children.. ah well..

and today i just got a phone call from bestest fren telling me that she was proposed to yesterday!

wonderful piece of news. . i was pretty overwhelmed myself.. hehe.. she says i can be her bridesmaid.. but i guess this won't be happening in the near future la.. she says prob will get married next year.. next year's like more than 10 months away.. who knows how i'll age in ten months (if i continue to stay in audit)..

well let me explain the overwhelm-ness..

bookfish said she kinda expected it.. well.. i totally forgot that yesterday was vday.. (vday can only be friendship day for me.. ha.. ) and lala was away in sentosa.. i was just on msn with her in the day and everything just seemed pretty normal..

and ting! before you know it, your frens are getting married.

just 3 weeks ago i had another friend getting married (but i couldn't attend the ceremony! darned work..) this was less surprising cos she's older than me.. so marriage i guess is a natural thing to come by at that age.. (but she's only like 2-3 yrs older than me leh..)

as i was telling some ppl, i still feel like i did in JC.. or say uni... in the sense that my 'mentality'/state of grown-up-ness still feels the same.. or shld i say, level of maturity. haha.
I'm now no more than a JC/uni student that earns her own keep. I would say the only real difference is that I don't take pocket money from my parents any more. Going to work feels the same as going to school. It's the same routine feeling.. No special love for work or study, but it's always fun to meet frens in school/work.

And so I'm still feeling like a 'little' girl albeit wearing grown-up clothes and doing grown-up stuff; and now my friends are getting married! i think that's really like the next stage of life la.. and a real indication of umm.. growing up.. haha.. i think i'm being a bit incoherent here..

just had another thought.. I was at sup's dad's wake the other day.. and there were plenty of sup's frens at the table. and some were married and all.. but still as joker as ever.. hmm.. so ppl dun really have to 'grow up' after getting married la huh..

i guess going for my sunday practices and working in this place really keeps me in contact with all these young ppl.. unlike say if i go work in some company and there are plenty of aunties and err.. uncles.. maybe i'll start thinking like them.

but i guess for the bulk of my time i'm only bothered about myself, dun really bother to see how my bros are coping with their work, except for the occasional question of 'how're ya doing'; hardly try to keep in touch with my cousins/ friends, totally expecting that they're leading fine lives on their own.. being bound in my own little world, only concerned about my own well-being.. i guess that's how i managed to maintain the same mindset from 4 years ago til now..

but i don't suppose it's wrong to be living for yourself ba?

just this afternoon when i called flea to tell her about lala, I realised i haven't kept in touch with her since the last time we met.. which was.. at some place where my limited ram has failed to recall. i remember seeing her at borders though. And the next place I have in mind is the sun moon place.. but i know i din see flea there.. i was there with lala and bookfish.. hmm.. so where was it that i saw flea?

ok never mind.. my bad memory is not the point here. Well, as i was saying, when I called her, i just suddenly realised that keeping in touch is as easy as picking up the phone and press 'Call'. A simple gesture that hardly ever crosses my mind. I'm not really a phone person.. but calling is actually such a simple action that doesn't require much brain work.. esp when it's calling a good old friend.. it's not like having to call my members (whom i'm afraid will reject my calls, or if they do pick up, i dunno how i can sound nice and sincere and concerned instead of just rattling off the activity list)

ha.. i guess that's a lot of thought for today.. in fact I think i'm getting a bit of a headache from thinking too much.. (and eating too much too..)

had duck rice for lunch today.. and after that we went to this dessert place for .. dessert. duh.
i had this red bean, wild yam, sago thing which is so ultimately filling that i'm STILL bloated now. doesn't help that i'm wearing this blouse that has this ribbon tied around my waist.. it's a wonder the ribbon hasn't snapped..

and i think part of the headache stems from too much sleep.. slept at around 1130 yesterday night.. woke up at 730.. that's like 8 hours! but i woke up feeling sleepy.. and groggy.. i think the effects of working 3 late weeks are starting to set in.. ah well.. i'd better get all the rest I can now before cny.. all the heaty cny goodies aren't gonna do me any good.. (but there's no way i'm gonna abstain! cny's just once a year.. :P)

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i'm like quite free now actually.. not much work to do.. basically just waiting for the client to furnish me with the necessary documents so that i can do some x-refing.. but i guess they won't come today.. which means i'll prob have to do them next week.. sighz..

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on another note (vday note actually), I think i'm quite a 'yuan2' person.. meaning believing in fate la.. like i think i tend to notice guys (decent-looking ones, mind you) if i don't know them, but keep bumping into them coincidentally.

think:
- jc.. the guy at the bus stop..
- uni.. the guy at lecture/ tutorial/ canteen, etc. haha

and now there's this one that i've been bumping into these few weeks when i come back to the office to work.. at the stationery area, at the managers' area, in the utility room, at the door, at the ground floor lift lobby..

ok la.. bumping into someone here is like so not coincidental since the whole place is like darned small la. well.. it's just something that i noticed la..
ah.. and it feels nice to be able to write about it here.. since it's just too minor to be telling anyone about this..
haha..

and i shall get back to work..

performances

2006-12-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot to mention that the spring concert was so successful that we have had 2 invitations to perform already! one was the vintage twirlers, to perform at a southwest cdc thing.. and this friday, the 3Cs are gonna perform at the YWD mtg! way to go baton girls :)

water water everywhere

2006-12-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

well this happened last sunday.. I rushed from jurong to tampines for a meeting after my concert.. and well... i was thirsty from rushing here and there.. so at the meeting, i took out my waterbottle, drank from it, and put it back into my black pvc (or some waterproof material) bag. moments later i felt a bit odd at my legs.. only to discover it was water dripping out from my bag! to my horrors... my entire waterbottle was emptied out into my bag and all my stuff was swimming inside.. my wallet, my clothes, my PHONE.

and i do not exaggerate when i say SWIMMING.. it was literally a pool in my bag, and my entire phone was submerged.. and obviously due to my v slow senses, i only realised that my bag was dripping after the phone had drowned. when i took all my stuff out and emptied the water outta my bag, the 2 lcds on my phone were half flooded with water. after i managed to get home a couple of hours later, (before this i went to a neighborhood phone shop and the guy said.. it's time to get a new phone), i decided to try to hairdryer trick which worked the last time i flooded my nokia phone.. (ok.. this is not the first time i causedthis super stupid flood)

but alas, the main lcd was well.. flooded and enclosed.. somehow the water jus couldn't get out and no amount of blowdrying on the outside will get the water out.. stupid sams*ng. and so i thought i'll hafta bid farewell to my phone! (ppl who haf seen my phone all think the funeral is inevitable)

and so i went on this search for a nice new phone to replace this misfortune. happened to learn from my aunt that she got a particular model of s**y phone for only $99 at Telco S. not a bad deal indeed! but by the time i learnt about it, the offer was over and the darned phone was going for $199. that was last week. i couldn't make up my mind then. and since i had a spare phone (though a bit lousy), my bro said i shouldn't rush into just buying any phone. i agreed. so i waited.. maybe this week got better promos..

wah lau! this week the phone is going at $249! and Telco S has already got the best deal. I saw it at $300+ at telco M. siao liao. when am i gonna get a new phone? my budget is only $200 and i REFUSE to spend another $100 on a 1gb memory card. ok.. these are my requirements:
1. at least 2MP camera
2. MP3 capabilities (with at least 256mb memory)
3. 3G
and actually, that's all! not too difficult wat rite? but so far i haven't really found one that fits the bill.. or at least, not one of the newer models. there are some older models out there that cost below $100 so i can still go buy the memory card to make up for its lack of internal memory. but i dun wan la.. come on manz.. give me some gd promos!

and now the most surprising thing is... i can turn on my sam**** now! after a week of rest, most of the water has evaporated from the lcd, albeit with tens of tiny droplets still lingering on the screen. but the thing is, IT CAN TURN ON! that day it was as dead as a fish la. but i still dun quite dare to use it lest it 'sot dian' and burn out. and the stupidest thing is i still cant connect it to my comp to trf my pics and contacts over.. ah well.. i was already prepared for the worst.. it'll be nice if i could do the pics la.. i've got some pretty decent pics in there (which i din manage to trf the other time cos my LAPTOP was spoilt) now laptop ok liao, phone spoil. wah kow.

now i've decided to wait awhile more maybe more of it will evaporate. and i will trade this phone in! it's supposedly worth $100. muahahha. and apparently my contract has ended for 4 mths liao la! it's time to get a new phone! (but my phone has been in this droplets state for like 4 days liao.. I really wonder how much more water can evaporate) otherwise how to trade in??

anw.. this friday is half day! and supposedly i'll be going for ktv with the Kot girls at nite! yay! haven't gone to ktv in ages.. i hope i dun get a sore throat! (i've been waking up with a somewhat sore throat these few days.. must be too heaty..) hope it doesnt end too late either! otherwise the next day can't wake up to go for ernie's bday lunch! and after that, i'll be flying off to macau at nite! yayz.. holiday ALL THE WAY til 2/1/07! oh sharks and it's almost 12 now! need to sleep liao or else no amount of eye creme will save my panda eyes... adieu!

hihi!

2006-12-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

just decided to blog again after a long absence.. (yes i keep repeating myself.. it's always a long while since I 'last' blogged)

well I just came back from Sydney last week.. was there for a really short while only.. and didn't manage to do very much.. went to visit the Hunters' valley, the blue mountains, a wildlife park. Which weren't very much either.. cos I'm not a very scenery person, so unless the scenery's DAMN breathtaking (I though Grand Canyon was slightly above soso), I prob won't be too interested.

What got me more interested was the number of varieties of Tim Tams that I found there.. There were a couple more variations there that looked real good.. plus some other sorta biscuits produced by Arnott's.. Bought some TTs back.. but to my umm.. i dunno whether I should call it blessing or wat.. I found out that NTUC now carries all those varieties of Tim Tams.. so maybe they'll bring in the other types of biscuits too.. soon.. Ah well..

Oh and it happens that I turn 23 today. My dad flew back this week so that we could celebrate my bday.. but his old ailment was acting up again so we couldn't go out! but i'm ok with it la. I quite appreciate the fact that the entire family bothered to want to celebrate it for me.. My poor lil bro skipped his band prac (he's got a performance coming up too) for me.. Yupz.. so I guess I should say a big Thank You to my err... REAL family for this.. :)

The Kotekitai Spring III concert will happen this Sunday, 10th Dec. Spring II was 2 years ago.. I guess this will probably be my last Spring concert as a performer.. And it was partly this thought that made me give up going for DnD for the rehearsal (and partly cos I'm still lagging behind in some steps).. Ummz..to the family, if any of you are reading this, sorry for not making it a full table! Pets not allowed in restaurants anyway.. hehe..

I've got a packed schedule for the rest of this week now.. Tmr's rehearsal, Friday's got a meeting, Sat's Full dress, Sunday's concert, plus planning, plus hospital visit. Gosh I haven't met up with any friends yet during these 2 weeks of leave! I think Friday noon is my last chance for anything.. But I'm too lazy to plan anything rite now.. The leave's too short! Ah.. I'm glad I'll get another week off at the end of the year.. I've booked my air tickets even though the leave's not officially approved yet.. but.. I DON'T CARE! I'll quit if they don't approve it. Hnh!

Newaez, I hope the baton girls will do our best for this concert! This time we must show everyone that our baton buds are now blooming flowers! and blooming very brightly too! I hope we'll be so good that we'll be invited to perform at some meeting later on :)

Jia you jia you jia you!

=)

2006-11-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

while i'm waiting for my super long download of talkingcock in parliament, i thought i should pay my lonely blog a visit.. (haha.. now i feel like the emperor visiting one of his v lonely concubines)

newaez.. i had a v nice early-bday dinner with my family today! 6 girls! there was ber, hj, ernie, liting n belle. we went DTF for dinner, then went to a HK cafe for iced yuan yang (which i think they wrongfully spelt as ying yong.. cos i think it's 'yun yong' haha)

it's soo nice to have soo nice work frens :)

anw im super sleepy now.. shall continue this another day..

oh before i go off.. i must pen this down before i forget (this been running thru my head jus now)

From high Olympus flows to us the glory
On us the sacred fire descends
Rise sisters rise, the world is all before ye
fear not to grasp what fortune sends

Sisters in learning, and sisters at heart
life lies before us
Here's luck to the start..

quite silly how we hated to sing the school song when we were in school.. and the national anthem too... but nowadays these songs jus keep ringing in my head...

=)

2006-11-10T10:49:00.000+08:00

9.10 am: good morning! i'm now in the training room.. last day of training today =( (that means no more of seeing the sun when i get off work!)ah well.. anw.. yesterday night we had our pif in this same room. ok.. im getting incoherent now and i dunno where to start.ok basically just 2 days ago I was thinking it's almost impossible to stay in this department for any longer, and i was thinking of trying it out at other departments. and so i thought of the 'IT' dept, which I kinda wanted to go to while I was in Bangkok. (din know such a dept existed until Bangkok)well part of the reason why i wanted to shift there was the illusion that they had better working hours, and the idea that I didn't have to do TOC any more (hard copy TOC I mean), was very welcoming. At the same time, there was this push factor from here.. the scariness of having to follow up on a few jobs at once.. the thought of staying til senior proved scarier than I thought it would.And with somewhat of an impulse, I emailed my counsellor to ask about secondments. Secondments are a good thing! I was quite glad that there was such a thing going on in this co. At least I won't have to quit before I get to try it out in another dept. But obviously it's not like u can get seconded whenever you want la.Shortly after this, I was awakened to the fact that I'll be 'demoted' if I transfer. Cos the experience that I have in abs will prob not prove any usefulness there. Made me think further.And so we had our pif, and went for dinner after that. 6 of us :)And after that I came back with ber, hj and hwe to clear review pts. Nice feeling actually. As I was telling hj, I dun quite mind working late in the office as long as my friends are around. It just suddenly made me feel that hmm... maybe I'm not ready to leave yet..Anyway, I haven't arrived at a conclusion yet. Just thought I'll put down my thoughts before I lose them.. (i've got pretty short term memory)oh.. and to add on, 6ppl jus quit recently.. quite demoralising esp since one of them is this really nice sup that makes working in abs fun. ah well.. 天无不散之宴席
9.50am: Heh I just suddenly remembered what I forgot to say.. which is.. i think it's the ppl that really make me wanna stay. like i dunno if i can find a family outside of this place :)and the thought of some weird ppl in that it dept makes me hesitate.. haha.. anw even if i do get a chance for secondment, it won't be until off peak next yr.. so i guess it's still too early to say anything for now...

lotsa happenings

2006-10-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

hi! it's been a while since I blogged.. feel a bit strange now.. just visited a few friends' blogs and wow... their blogs are really populated! ha.. looks like daily updates!

Anyway I just thought maybe I should just note down some happenings in my life recently.. Maybe they'll be a good read for me a couple of years down the road :)

Just yesternight I was having a nice chat with pompom on the phone. Think we talked til like 2am. (ok la we started 12 plus nearly 1) Haven't talked on the phone in ages. Sometimes I'm just too lazy to pick up the phone, sometimes I wonder if my friends are free to pick up the call.. I think that's the problem. Sometimes I 'worry' too much. But friends aren't supposed to be like that. And so a few moments ago I just decided to sms pompom to see if she was free for dinner. Ha! and she was! So we're going out later. Eat what I'm not sure yet. She suggested crystal jade but I'm feeling a bit sick of that place... Ah well...

I'm on what juzeothergirl calls the 'missile' place now.. this year's kinda different cos our dear sup went to jie hun while the super a2 is now rowing boat.. so this year it's s1, 2 a1s, me and ernie! i'm glad for that though, that ernie is here with me.. she makes working there FUN! haha.. the a1s are a bit quiet.. so I'm just talking to ernie most of the time. but that's good enough la.. i'm only here for 2 wks anyway! seems like i'm the only one debooked for the 3rd week.. hmm i think i'll be pulled out of the missile engagement soon... like i think next yr i won't be in any more.. sighsigh! ah well.. they can't have too many snrs on a job anw!

which brings me to my next topic.. Well recently I heard news of 2 snrs leaving.. one confirmed and one not.. (apparently one retracted) Which at first made me feel like leaving too! ok let's call them Miss A and Miss B. So Miss A is confirmed leaving and Miss B is not la. Well, from Miss A I learnt that it makes plenty of sense to stay till at least S. Got more $$ mah! And she seems alot happier to be leaving now.. Not like last year she was still deliberating and wondering if it was the right thing to do. Well, Miss B's leaving was a big err.. 'blow' to me.. cos if she leaves, next yr I'll be doing that job with Ms Not-so-nice! I dun want! And that's why I thought I should be leaving too la.. But now that she's not, I can stay :)
Which is kinda silly la I know, to leave over one person. But sometimes just one week can be hell..

But now I'm determined (for now la) to learn as much as I can. There're still plenty of sections that I'm not exposed to yet.. From now til the end of the year, I can see a smooth path lying ahead. Lotsa blank slots! And my leave is approved! I'm going Sydney at the end of Nov. I hope it'll be fuN!

On a lighter note, I went for a Youth Camp last weekend. It started on Friday night, ended Sunday noon. My group wasn't v close initially, but after some time I could feel everyone was trying to make the effort to make it fun! There were like 6-7 guys in my group and more than half were uncles. Hahah.. either married or not so good looking.. Pretty sian diao initially though haha.. The girls were mostly FD i/cs. At first it was like quite clique-ish la. But later on it was a lot better. I guess 2 days is really quite short for bonding la.. But I made a couple new friends there! Hope to see them around soon.. before it starts to get weird to say hi.. :)

Oh and a question was brought up during one of the forums. I've heard the answer before, and I think I should reiterate it here lest I forget again! You know, sometimes wise words just float to the back of your head..

So the question was how to juggle time between activities. 2 pointers I noted: 1) Put in 100% in whatever you're doing. This way, you'll be able to fulfil what ever u need to do. 2) Prayer. I guess this is one path that most ppl neglect. At least I do. Well I guess if we pray hard enough to want to fulfil all our responsibilities, then we WILL be able to fulfil them. I guess I need to put in more effort baz.

That aside, I wanna say I saw a shuai ge during one of our prep meetings! Pleasant surprise.. But I wasn't holding much hopes of seeing him again at the camp.. Cos we've got like 20 groups! Nearly 400 ppl at the camp. How to meet? And indeed I din get to see him until it was the individual group presentation bit. That's not the point. Thing is, I was trying to tell myself to please forget it, stop behaving like a stupid teenage girl and stop letting my stupid thoughts run wild. And cos I haven't seen him since the prep meeting which was more than 1 wk before the camp, and concluding that I prob won't see him anymore, I did manage to put it aside, for a while. Cos on Sunday's lunch, his group was sitting at the bench in front of mine! Alamakz. So much for my efforts of trying to put this thing away. And it was hmm.. i dunno what to describe it.. But I was talking to some friends in my group and smiling/laughing away. And on his side it was the same thing la. And so I saw him, and I'm pretty sure he saw me, and like we were both wearing happy expressions on our faces. OK end of story.

Which honestly doesn't build up to anything much and I don't think we'll have a chance to meet again cos I'm from the East region and he's from West la. Sigh! (ok i think i like to amplify little things like this. my state of maturity is stagnant at JC!)

Anw Sandra was saying we should pray that our future partners be our partner in kosenrufu. Doesn't mean that he's gotta convert or what, as long as this person helps you advance in your faith and most importantly, makes you a better person. Yup and so I shall add this into my daily prayers. I think I need to be more hardworking and stop doing my slipshod 5 min prayers.

Jia you jia you jia you!

afternoon

2006-10-12T14:55:00.000+08:00

hi! it's my 2nd post of the day. in the 'lovely' afternoon. I'm doing WBL today. and I love it! it's like being back in school.. just read and do mcq. (sux when u have to redo though) but that's not the lovable part. the nicety about this WBL is that I get to leave office before 6pM! and i get to take 1.5hr lunches! woo hoo! but the saddest part is my WBL ends this week. I did like only 3 days of WBL this wk. so sad!

newaez I had lunch at far east sq today. There's this restaurant thingy that sells jap paper steamboat. Not bad la. The best thing about it being a steamboat is that err.. it's steamed/boiled. No oil! I think.
Bought Teh chino from mr teh tarik for the first time. i've always been drinking teh tarik, teh halia, teh limau. but i think i'll change from now! this teh chino is really not bad. not too sweet, and there's also milo powder! tastes like bubble tea. but i bet it's still damn fattening and the worst thing is it only lasted me 1 hr! teh tarik is so super sweet it'll last me til 5pm. but it's only 2 plus and my drink is gone. sigh.

oh and ms wong, thanks for lunching with me this entire wk! heh. it's nice to have a cuz working nearby when u're unassigned :)

ok. back to WBL.

hair

2006-10-12T09:30:00.000+08:00

Whoa.. just realised that I haven’t blogged in AGES. Well, I haven’t been bringing my laptop home v much… and my 3 week stay at Ayer Rajah left me with no internet at work… and well I guess mainly it’s because I’ve been hooked onto Channel 8 9pm dramas recently.. no time to blog! First it was the lawyer show with Ivy Lee and Thomas Ong (woohoo), and now it’s the new show with Lin Xiangping and Fiona Xie.. Not bad really.. I think ch8 shows are improving!

Hmm so nothing much has happened in my life so far.. The only big change being that I went to rebond my hair on Saturday. It took me 5hrs I think. Apparently the cuticles of my hair are quite thick so it takes some time for the rebonding chemical to penetrate through the layers. Whatever. Trouble was, cos I cut my hair to shoulder length plus added lotsa layers, it started sticking out at the shoulders. Definitely undesirable!

And so I went back on Sunday to let them take a look at my hair… and all the response I got was.. why don’t u wait til u wash ur hair.. cos for rebonding you ain’t suppose to wash your hair til 2 days later. (Yes! 2 long days!)

So I waited till Monday when I washed it, and it still curled out. So I went back again this time, with my mom. Ha. The director guy attended to me personally.. Then just grabbed a pair of scissors and started snipping at my hair. Oh I forgot to mention that the layers weren’t v well done on Sat, I guess cos they were booming with customers they just umm.. tried to do it fast.

This guy was quite good! After the snipping, my hair just looked better, though the curling out problem was still existent.. So he promised to fix the rebonding for me, but I had to drop by another day cos they were like full for the day liao la..

And so I went by yesterday.

Oh I forgot to mention that my hair was done at this salon at Far East Plaza. Used to do it in Tampines (for years…) but my hairdresser has recently jumped ship to this salon. So I went along. And my mom called him up la, to complain about my hair, and he promised that he’ll do the fixing personally for me on Wed. (Cos though I booked him on Sat, he only cut my hair and the rebonding was done by the shampoo girl la). But surprise surprise, the director just came and did my hair for me! (He says he’s supposed to handle complaints..)

Anw we only redid the sides of my hair (which were the problem areas) cos additional rebonding will only damage my hair further la. In fact, the blonde parts of my hair (which were highlighted some time ago) have frizzed up at the ends.. Quite bad la, esp since rebonding is supposed to make ur hair SMOOTH.

What I was quite happy about was that they had pretty good attitude la. Like they wanted to ensure that I walk away with ‘happy hair’. I did the normal rebonding on Sat, and apparently they have a better grade of rebonding which costs more, but apparently damages the hair less la. So apparently that was what the guy used on the sides of my hair. (And I din have to pay more)

In between I had a short chat with the dir (cum hairstylist), and it was pretty comfortable. Cos I dun usually like talking to strangers, and I din start talking to my original hairstylist until I was in JC I think. (He cut my hair since I was in Sec2) What I liked was the fact that it didn’t feel like “I’m handling your hair now cos u complained”, but rather “I sincerely hope you’ll walk away with happy hair”. (‘Happy hair’ is a term coined by him la..)

At the end of the fixing, though my hair didn’t look significantly straighter, I did walk away happier though. I guess it was more of seeing that they have done their best to fix my hair, whether or not it could be fixed. And yup, I think I’ll recommend this place to ppl :)

Ok the most paiseh thing now is that I think this dir cuts hair better than my orig stylist la. So I think I’ll prob get him to cut my hair next time? But it’s gonna be so paiseh cos I’ll be like ‘boycotting’ my orig stylist. Sigh. But I guess I shan’t care. My hair more important!

- ok this seems like a nice place to end, but I’ve got more things to say! –

So I mentioned that I had a nice chat with the dir.. Found out that he’s 29 and getting married soon (or not so soon..) That’s not the point la.. point being I used to think I’d wanna find an other half that’s not more than 3 years my senior.. But a few encounters with these ‘older’ ppl made me feel that these ‘senior citizens’ are actually nicer to get along with. Maybe cos of their age/experiences, they come across as more mature, thinking individuals unlike my childish peers.

Yeah. So I gained a new perspective from my little episode yesterday. Gonna look at ppl in a new light today :)

shoez

2006-09-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

I was just walking around the office yesterday when I discovered that most people were wearing covered shoes. WEll, they should la, cos that's the appropriate dress code. And then I was wondering how all these people managed to live in harmony with their shoes of various designs.

I haven't a single pair of covered shoes that does not leave my feet writhing in agony at the end of the day, if not, at the end of my mrt walk in the morning.

And it's not as if all my open toe sandals are kind gentle things either..
Wore this new pair of brown sandals today. Quite nice looking, with ankle straps.. but cos they're new, the material's a bit hard and it did some damage to my feet (which have barely recovered from their previous injuries).

Thankfully, they're starting to loosen up (or maybe cos I have plasters on both my feet), and I probably can walk home in these without dying..

In the mean time, I'll continue on my search for a nice pair of black covered shoes that don't hurt.

I'm open to suggestions!

Losses

2006-09-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

This is terrible.. I took part in the SGX stock challenge and I can't load the stupid page...
Now I'm losing money and I can't sell off my stocks cos I CANT LOAD THE PAGE!
I can't believe this..
At this rate I'd be better off if I didn't touch the $80,000 at all...

renewed determination

2006-09-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

i'd wanted to write this yesterday, but it was 1am by the time i was done with my shower.. so here i am today, with much less of the zest I had yesterday, but nonetheless I thought this was a good chance for me to record it down...

well yesterday night I went for the youth camp preparation meeting. I was late, reached there around 8.10pm cos of the traffic jam. Well I really should have left the house earlier since I was so free anyway.. When I reached the kaikan, the sound of the chanting was so powerful and resonant I thought the entire hall must be filled. sharks, no space to sit...

And since I was already late, I decided to make payment for the camp first, while I continued to hear dynamic chanting resonating from the room. When I was finally done with queueing for the payment, I made my way into the hall, and to my surprise, it was only 3/4 filled! Honestly the kind of daimoku I heard felt like the entire hall was bursting with people. I thought, wow, these ppl are good..

The meeting began with spirit boosting by some super onz leaders, with quite some onz responses too. At the beginning I felt a bit odd, haven't seen such on people since orientation camp... but after awhile, it was actually quite nice to see that our youths are still filled with vibrancy :)

At the end of the meeting, I felt quite recharged. Someone mentioned that this camp must be the turning point in our lives. And that we had to take action to make this happen. It suddenly dawned on me that it doesn't mean that taking up faith will automatically turn me into a better person, or that just by chanting I will mystically become 'good'.

Why do some people say big events help to change their lives? Those NDP participants always have some exciting stories about their lives to share. They go through all sorts of struggles to keep up with the practices and thus grow in their lives. And why is it that I can go through one big event after another but only feel that 'this performance was fun', or 'i have improved in some skills'; and never, that was the turning point in my life.

I realised that for a person's life to change, we really need to be determined to do something about it, to take action. Just as they were saying, what do we hope to achieve from this camp? Whatever that I hope to achieve, I'll have to put in some effort to make it happen. I can't just, oh I hope to achieve xxx, go for the camp, and expect miracles to form.

Yeah.

And so with that I hope I'll start becoming a more enthusiastic person create ever so much more value in my life.

We have also managed to invite Dean Lawrence Carter of the Martin Luther King Jr. International Chapel to speak to us. This guy's the 'founder' of the Gandhi, King, Ikeda exhibition. I hope to be able to learn something about peace from him.

Yeah!

wet wet

2006-09-05T10:27:00.000+08:00

it was a wet rainy day today.. on the way to the mrt i stepped into a puddle of water! not sure if i can actually call it water..
i think my shoes stink now..

dumbdumb2

2006-08-31T13:40:00.000+08:00

no.. this is not a mistake in the title..
it's ANOTher mistake.
another mini fiasco abt me n my car.
i just got informed by ms secretary that my car headlights were still on.
STILL ON!
that would mean it was on continuously for 6 hours!
my poor battery! my poor $$$!
ok and so i rushed down in my stinkin' wet shoes and turned off the lights.
and im reminded of the xxx security guard who not v nicely asked me to shake off the water from my umbrella jus now..
he was like 'shh', pointed to my umbrella, 'shake first'.
wah lau. i wanted to diao him.
say excuse me la!

anw.. i 've been reading blogs the entire morning. v interestingly, i stumbled upon 3 933 DJs' blogs. was reading peifen and zhiyong's. pretty impressed really. cos err.. their english not bad! (ok i know im kinda like discriminatory) and the zhiyong really got not bad english la. and his blog quite well maintained and it's got pix and all.. best of all he's got his own domain!

the stuff he writes abt is quite not bad too.. and somehow i keep thinking he looks like kevin from dreamz fm.. haha...

dumbdumb

2006-08-31T10:27:00.000+08:00

yesternight i went to a funeral at s'pore casket. drove there with my mom and aunt.
cos i was feeling kinda tired, and all the smoke was stinging my eyes, i decided to leave early. no choice, take bus home..
when i finally reached home and took out my keys to open the door, i got a big fat shock!

car keys were still in my bag.

sharks la. i called my mom and told her abt it.. i was like.. ok i come back now.. anw she told me to go take my shower first la.. which i did.. i usually take about 45 mins.. and so later on she called me back to say.. she;s taking bus back with my aunt now. they'll come collect key from me and go back to collect the car.

quite nice of them la. and it was quite funny cos my aunt say my mom dunno how to take bus.

anw that saved me a trip back to lavender. luckily it's not like v far away or wat..
or else sure beng4..

sianz

2006-08-30T17:21:00.000+08:00

hmm i don't actually feel like blogging today. too sian. but it's precisely because i'm too sian and have nothing to do that i'm blogging now...
now is that a paradox or what?

i'm at woodlands again. alone. i don't really mind la actually. i have a room to myself, i've got internet, and the best part is i get to control my own time! i'm ze boss!!

and today's super slack. got some docs in the morning.. scanned through them. and picked my samples. but when i got outta my room, the entire finance dept had disappeared. apparently there was some last minute meeting.. which lasted all the way til lunch. and so i did nothing.. til lunch.. (ok i made my spreadsheet nice nice.. but that doesn't take up the whole morning la)

as i was walking to the kopitiam for lunch, it started to drizzle. i was like.. oh sheet.. newaez, managed to make it to shelter dry, and had my lunch. well it really did rain heavily soon after, but interestingly it stopped before i finished my lunch. and actually i was pretty surprised by how i could eat alone for 45mins (considering that i can usually finish in say 15mins).. but i do suppose the long wait for my food to come contributed to that..

after lunch it was another long wait.

wait for my docs to come. ok fine i got some docs.. i got like.. 2 samples worth of docs. hmm... will i finish my work by tmr??

the time now is drawing near 5.30pm. countdown approximately 10mins. dun think i can get anymore work done today. i should just leave and hope for the best tmr. hehe.

going for ma xian sheng's funeral tonight. i hope i don't see people crying...

ges outing

2006-08-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

whoa i'm having a headache now.. not from a hangover i believe.. prob jus lack of sleep.. (wahsay... it's really headache every sat la)

we had ges outing yesterday.. and it was quite fun la.. before that, let me complain about how sheety bonus was.. it's less than one month la.. and it's... v little...

anw.. dinner yest was at the hanabi jap buffet restaurant.. very unexpectedly, the total turn out was 11 ppl, and once again we were overpowered by the sups! 你们已经被包围了。。。

really quite unexpected la.. cos at first it was supposed to be pure ges. then later it was ges cum team2.. then it turned out to be a ges cum sup outing.. haha.. quite funny...
the food there was pretty ok la.. but sad to say i think i din manage to try everything on the menu... but too full la.. i think one day must go there earlier to eat... then can slowly eat til shop close.. haha.. let me recap the attendees... there were... hj, ber, ct, hl, sy, da, ys, mx, rl, jp n me!
6 sups! super power... anw we also concluded that next time we should sit in between them in order to catch their gossips.. haha..

anw after the buffet (actually now i think i shouldn't eat buffets anymore.. dun think i'm eating my money's worth.. haha), we adjourned to mos.. mos was quite a nice place.. nice decor and all.. but i dun quite like the music.. it's like techno and beats.. not quite my type of jam.. and so we hung out there til abt 12 plus before we decided to move on to devil's bar.. cos according to jp, who's like a regular there, they play SONGS.

and so we went there.. for like free... thanks to jp.. and thats where it started to become happening.. haha..
there were like 2 sections in the bar.. one live band area and the other called the dance bar.. live band got more songs.. but the band doesnt sing v well la.. and so we went to the dance bar where we managed to get a table.. (and a chair!) and we had jp's martell with green tea.. the amazing thing abt green tea is how it manages to make an alcoholic drink taste non-alcoholic.. on the other hand, just coke with a few drops of liquor makes me feel my blood rushing..

oh forgot to mention, it was pure ges at the bars.. there were jp, hl and hj. nothing super fun at the front.. we were just watching some ppl making fools of themselves at the dance floors.. and laughing at them.. quite bad la.. but it was funny.. oh yah.. not to mention we met a certain director at mos.. quite happening manz..

anw we started playing 5-10 and that was when jp started drinking like damn alot.. and later on nta came to join us and they were trying to do each other in.. i think after than jp went abit 'kee siao' (ok not to that extend la.. maybe drunk would be a better word).. i shall not mention what she did.. anw we went to the dance floor with her after than.. hj and i were like watching her... as i was telling hj, i felt like we were undercover cops.. haha.. u know.. like pretending to be dancing there but actually we were looking out for jp..

but it was pretty amazing how she was 'drunk' (ok im sure shes gonna say she's not) but she could still be quite alert in playing 5-10.. my eyes were pretty xun1 by the smoke.. anw later hj called ber to come pick jp up and she did! i was quite surprised by how she was readily there.. anw it was a gd thing.. she came to send all of us home.. so nice! anw at the end jp was just insisting that nta lost to her but bu4 fu2.. and blah blah blah.. it was just damn funny la.. she's like.. u dunnno whether she's consciously alert or not..

anw i got off first la.. so i dunno what happened after that.. maybe hj's blog got say... :)

ps: i honestly told my mom we left at 4 am.. and she was like.. cheng he ti tong... next time dun do it..
hehe.. managed to get away with it unscathed!

Oxymoron

2006-08-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I don't know if i titled this correctly or not.. maybe a better word for it is irony..
Well, if you've read my previous posts, this is my nth time that I'm trying to be punctuationally-sound in my blog writing. I think I've been too out of touch with proper writing that it has almost become impossible for me to type properly. You'll understand what I'm saying if you saw me typing this. This short little paragraph was typed and retyped because I was using far too many abbreviations, far too many ellipses.. (here goes another..)

And so, I was thinking maybe I should do some commentary on current affairs. Serious enough a topic for me to do some proper writing, or at least, get my brain thinking. But you know what? I haven't been reading the papers at all! Nor watching the news, nor listening to the news on radio. The last major event that I'm aware of is probably the bird flu revival.

Ok so let's just forget about current affairs.

I'll talk about my life instead.

I've been updating my blog pretty frequently, so there's actually nothing much to talk about.. If you've managed to read this far, you probably realise that I haven't mentioned about anything much. (But you probably also learnt how wu liao I can be)

Been using the f-word alot more nowadays. I think it's the company I'm mixing with. Ha.. Ok.. I shan't blame anyone. Whatever influences you is your choice. I do believe it's an individual's choice to be influenced, or not. Anyway, my point is, F my freaking laptop. The display is sooo eccentric. I have to keep doing CPR do revive my screen. And it gets to a point where it's 'Freaking'. If my laptop could talk, I think I'll be sent for comp abuse. It's so bashed up by me that I''m sure there's some sort of internal injuries. But I can't help getting pissed when it pisses me off.

Can't get it fixed soon though. Was meaning to do it this saturday, but I think chiong-ing on Friday will prob make me wake up in the afternoon on Sat. So that's out. Cos I still gotta do the activity list for the evening's meeting. Sigh. It just means that I'll have to do it next Sat. This procrastination will delay the resuscitation of my comp. I sure hope it hangs on til then.

Before I end, let me complain about how corpulent I've become. I have to say that I'm at my peak. I'm now so wide that I'm bulging out at the sides. And I'm hungry now. Sheet.
I'm like hungry all the time now. I think I've been eating soo much that my stomach doesn't know how to stop itself. Sheet. I wanna jian fei.

Ok my comp's dying.. I can't finish what I wanna say... sigh!

ber's bday celebration

2006-08-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

we went to celebrate ber's 24th bday today.. at the nsshotel... quite interesting.. cos i've actually seen this building before, but never knew its name.. we had charcoal steamboat there. and apparently it's quite popular la.. quite a lot of ppl there.. but the food was jus okok...
but i think i quite like the idea of everyone sitting at the round table eating together.. quite nice.. though i was only talking to shannon n hj most of the time, it was still nice having dinner with the FAMILY. hehe.

oh and today i discovered big shocking news. ok la.. not exactly discovered.. and not exactly shocking either.. but definitely big la.. ok.. i must let off some off my zhen4 han4 here.. WAH!!

OK so thats all i can say abt that big news...

anw.. thanks shannon for the rides to n fro!

oh and dear hj.. the dvd damn power man! there are like 20 episodes in one tiny dvd! im sooo surprised.. but it doesn't have ep 15 and 17 that i missed.. but it's ok! i'll go download them or something.. and the other down side being that it's entirely in chinese.. but otherwise, still damn cooL! 20 eps! in one disc! (btw hj.. u feeling alrite ya?) haha actually i think u're the only person that reads my blog la.. so i dun need to worry abt writing rubbish here.. hehe..

anw my comp's like dying again.. the screen is siao flashing again.. i gotta end here! sob sob..

2006-08-20T15:34:00.000+08:00

17/8
yay. finally went ktv yesterday, after a long long time.. think the last time i went was with the team at chinatown.. think it was liting's 'farewell'.. got to suntec at around 7pm.. went around shopping, hoping to find nice new black shoes.. but to no avail.. saw some nice clothes at gg5.. but i couldn't reason with myself to spend that kinda money on their clothes.. ya know.. they're nice.. but i dun think i'll spend like $60 on a top la.. oh and i gotta add that i kena suaned by my maid.. she says there are not enough hangers at home to hang our clothes bcos '[I] keep buying new clothes'. sigh.. i only bought a few tops and a few bottoms k.. how's that gonna eat up the supply of hangers at home?
anw.. back to the topic.. ktv-ers were ber, hj, sc, da and me.. maybe too few ppl so it wasn't THAT fun.. or maybe it's cos i dun really know sc and da v well.. it was quite interesting to see them though.. at ktv, sc and da were like direct opposites.. da will sing.. like occasionally.. but so soft u can hardly hear her.. sc on the hand is the i'll-sing-watever-u-dian.. in the end finally heard da's voice a song u'll never expect.. it was lin jia yi's umm... dunno wat 微笑 song.. can't remember the title.. but i luv the chorus.. goes something like.. 你走吧，我不哭无论多痛苦.. something like that.. it wasn't the lyrics that caught me.. it was the melody.. sounds v xiao sa.. haha..
anw we left at like 12.. got home around 1230.. and though i was so tired i had no choice but to finish the soup that my mom boiled for me.. and it was a darned big bowl la.. i think it's probably like 3 rice bowls worth of soup.. and it was so hot la.. took me like half an hour to finish it.. (that just totally robbed my of half an hour of sleep la)
this morning i was so tired i jus din feel like waking up la.. actually if i came at 10am no one will say anything la.. there's only me n fl here today.. but i feel v paiseh to leave her here alone la.. yeah.. so just had to peel my eyelids open and get on with the day..
here i am now, writing my blog and drinking yam milk tea.. so super full now.. pearls are awfully filling.. so is milk tea.. ah..
well the time now is 2.37pm.. this post is gonna say it's posted at nite or something.. why? cos i dun haf internet here.. damn poor thing.. it's quite sian one.. i can't even dial up cos the stupid phone line here got no dial tone.. they even put a phone here.. dunno what it's for.. and i think irc really killed my writing la.. i can't write a proper sentence now with the proper punctuation.. no more caps.. no more fullstops.. just plenty of ellipses.. (ok that was supposed to be plural of ellipsis.. i duno whether i spelt it correctly.. cos now it jus looks like the plural of ellipse.. )
i guess i'll just end here for now.. i think i can really ramble.. this looks like one page worth of words.. used to be darned difficult for me to just churn out two pages of essay..

18/8

it's another sleepy morning! and i'm feeling ultra fat today.. the fats on my tummy are pressing against each other and it feels UGH!i think part of it was due to my meeting yesterday.. it ended at 10pm.. and our WD was v nice.. she prepared green bean soup and 'beh teh soh' for us.. i was still full from my heavy dinner.. but no choice.. cannot reject.. so i ate.. n drank.. yeah so maybe that's why im feeling bloatedly fat today.. (i mean i usually do too.. but today's just worse)
yeah and so i got home at like 10.30pm.. took my shower etc and watched healing hands at 11.45.. think it ended at 12.30am.. and I SHOULD HAVE BEEN SLEEPING AFTER THAT. but i didn't! i had to get out of bed and go online.. why? to submit my darned cpf statement.
now, i gotta tell the whole story from the top to show u wat's so darned about thing thing..
on the 6th of july i happily went to u*b to apply for my credit card. fine. i din have all my documents with me so i just filled up the application form. some time later (say a few days), i called up their call center to ask them for the fax no to fax my docs over. and i also asked them if a promotion letter would suffice. they said YES. and so i faxed it over.. happily thinking they'd do something about it..
the NEXT WEEK, i received a call from the darned CARD center asking me whether i'd like to send in my docs! i'm like WAT?? ok.. did the necessary explanation and moved on..
a few days later.. the darned CALL center called me to say "hi, we've received ur promotion letter. WHAT IS IT FOR?" wah lau! what's their problem? and may i remind u that i DIDNT just fax it in one fine day. i called them up to ask them, and i faxed it in "attn to someone" and she said she'll inform the relevant dept. SO SHE DID.
FINE. so i thought we clarified matters and i continued to wait..
waited and waited til they sent me a letter saying that THEY HAVEN'T RECEIVED THE RELEVANT DOCS. i'm like.. wah lau x 2. called them up and the person said i've my cpf statement pending.. WAH LAU. PLS LA! if u need my cpf stmt tell me from the start!!
fine. so i went to submit my cpf statement online..
and it was another round of waiting.
waited and waited. and i got another letter DATED 10 AUG saying that my cpf stmt IS STILL PENDING! wth.
i was so darned pissed i called them up again... and what happened? nobody picked up the freaking phone even after 15mins. heck. so i decided to call the next day. so this girl called ch******* took the call.
told her i already submitted my cpf so whats the prob. guess what she said? if they sent u a letter it means they haven't gotten it. pissed me off! so i said i've submitted it and i HAVE A RETURN RECEIPT. she: or can u fax or post it overme: i've already submittedmy stand is clear. i'm not gonna do any extra work for their own inefficiencies.
me: and i've waited for v long. so what's the probshe: the sys says u applied on 26/7. it's been only 3 weeks. cos normal processing takes 2 wks.
well at that pt of time i couldnt remember when it was that i applied. but 3 wks sounded long enough anw. (actual wait time was SIX WKS btw!)ok la! so u're trying to blame me now la! my fault for not being able to wait la! my fault that i sent out my stuff and u din receive it la!
anw i was so adamant that they go check it out themselves. why shld i do double work if their depts aren't communicating with each other? fine. so i gave her my no. and asked her to call me to update on the status..
that was tuesday. i waited til THURSDAY and no one called me. wat to do? i had to pick up the phone again. interestingly enough, i called and this ch******* picked up! so i was like.. i din get any reply from u. she said SHE TRIED TO CALL BUT THERE WAS NO ANSWER. crap la. i din get a single missed call from her la.fine. in the end gas wat she said? they haf to click on my cpf submission (or some similar crap) to receive it. apparently they din click on it in time and it expired.wth.
AND so i submitted it again yest. sigh.
WHAT'S THIS COMPANY'S PROBLEM??
now i give them 1 wk to approve my appln and send me the card. or im gonna call to scold them again! ugh.

aye sux

2006-08-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

i think we left work at 6plus today.. but i only reached home at 7.45!! it's the darned AYE's fault.. cos there were only the 2 of us, and sup had to go back office, so i had to go back office too.. (and take train from there..)
darned. the journey home from office takes me 30mins.. and it was double darn.. cos my feet hurt! stupid shoes! im so gonna dump them..

i was jus reading this other sup's blog.. (or should i say, this other girl's blog).. ms hj pointed out my name in her blog this morning.. honestly i was pretty surprised to see my name there! cos like i haven't talked to her in like ages and just din think that she'll 'remember' me.. ha..

ya anw.. it was like 9pm and i decided to read blog (and do some blogging myself) instead of watching ben cao yao wang.. (this either means that the show ain't that nice or the blogs are too interesting, take ur pick)

ok.. this is getting abit incoherent.. but heck.. i just type watever that comes to my mind.. i bought this white hairband from the accessories shop at the mrt station.. supposed to be for work one.. but i dunno whether it looks nice leh.. kinda regret giving all my hairbands away.. i think i used to have at least ten.. but i just stopped wearing them.. and the initial stage of re-wearing a hairband just totally gave me headaches.. but im back! (no.. it's not because it's the trend now) but i've actually come to realise the usefulness of one.. just ONE hairband keeps ALL my hair in place! gotta use at least 2 clips to achieve the same effect.. but i think this trend thing is making hairbands kinda ex.. or is it inflation over the years? the white hairband i bought cost me $2.50.. quite cheap la, compared to those evita etc brands but i thought hairbands like that should only cost like $1.. haha.. ok i think i'm living in the past..

on another note, I'M BREAKING OUT AT THE CHIN!! sharks man.. dunno why.. i dunno whether it's because i've been snacking too much and thus toxifying myself, or whether it's the stupid loose powder that's breaking me out! but it shouldn't be the loose powder! cos it's from ettusais and it's supposed to work on acne-prone skin! not give me more acne! wth.. i'll try again tmr and if i break out some more, i'm gonna freakin boycott this brand..darned.. the stupid powder cost me like $40 la! and the stupid sunblock cost me $40 too!! that's like freaking $80 down the freaking drain...

(wah i think i 'freaked' here so much that i'm gonna turn into frankenstein soon...)

anw next week's gonna be fun! i mean next fri.. there's our woodlands team outing.. and i think i mite get to see sup fong with smoky eyes!!

tmr gotta wake up at an unearthly 6.30am.. my siao-on team is gonna have breakfast! well usually i'd be too concerned abt my sleep to go but... i think must show some face la.. hj: give u face leh! :)
but they're gonna meet at some dunno what coffee place.. i thot we eating bk breakfast! i want my eggs!! ah well.. we'll see how tmr.. i hope i manage to fig out where that place is man..

and i hope i dun look weird tmr.. i'm gonna wear my blazer! (with unmatching pants!) not really my fault k.. cos i wore my pants today.. and i dun wanna wear skirt tmr cos freaking gotta do interim la... hj: wat slides man? i dun haf! (which is gd la.. cos it means i dun haf to read them.. haha)

ok im gonna catch the remnants of the show now... i hope i manage to wake up on time tmr...

how da hell?!

2006-08-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

im trying to vamp up my friendster page.. but i can't! tried to put in this so nice song on my page but i have a major problem trying to upload it in the first darned place.. tried putting the file in geocities and it keeps freaking say "uploaded" but i can't freaking open the file!

aargh.. and it doesnt help that i haf a freaking darned zit on my cheek.. one of those "i dont know why it's there" zits cos i'm not supposed to get zits on my cheeks! (why? cos i only get them on my forehead and chin! why this sudden outbreak on the cheek? why?)
helly if u're reading this, it reminds me of u! haha.. dun think u wanna be reminded of this but i think u had one on ur face some time ago too.. hehe..

out damned spot!

(and im supposed to be bathing now! i've got a show to catch in 30mins but im still unable to upload the darned song!)

ugh!

headache...

2006-08-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

dang.. it's saturday and i've got a headache.. i think i've been accumulating too much toxins at work.. pulled out yesterday and i decided to bring my laptop home to avoid the jam back to OB.. but now thinking back, i think it probably wasn't the wisest choice.. now i gotta drag it to work on monday! on the mrt too! ugh..

didn't do much yesterday.. i was just watching tv like from 7pm to 1am.. (hmm maybe that's why i had a headache) and there was the fireworks booming away and i could only see those that managed to shoot above the buildings.. at that point of time i was like.. wah! i shouldn't be at home! cos this stupid display lasted like damn long la.. usually when i miss it it's just a short few minutes display.. but this time round i felt like i missed out on alot! and it was like.. so near yet so far.. on one hand i just felt so much like i wanted to be there seeing the thing 'live', but on the other hand i just can't get my butt off the seat!

ah well..

and it's a saturday but i'm gonna spend my time rotting at home again.. somehow i wanna go out, but i just can't make myself call ppl up to see whether they wanna go too.. sometimes i just can't believe how lazy i can get..

omg and i just found this freaking new mole growing near my ankle! help! it's like a little black thing sticking out of my skin.. i heard moles can be cancerous.. how how! i think im really eating too much trash! sigh sigh...
and my mom's super nagging again.. *headache*

sillysilly

2006-08-10T09:50:00.000+08:00

this was a rather silly morning... i woke up and msged ms P, not knowing whether i should be picking her up or not... cos I've got a rather short-term memory and she's been going back office on and off.. so I wasn't too sure if she was going back again today.. (I had this recollection of her saying something abt going back.. but the prob is.. I didn't remember when she said it.. was it 2 days ago or was that last week?)

i didn't get a reply to my sms.. so i thought she prob hadn't woken up yet.. so i went on to do my stuff..

twas a tired morning.. i decided to take cab to work instead.. (was watching healing hands yesterday! i'm so totally hooked onto the show now... yesterday's episode ended with paul standing on top of a building, seemingly contemplating suicide.. that's quite stupid though.. cos paul's not supposed to do such silly things... i think the scriptwriters have run outta ideas.. anw it was also damn nice to see anson and chris getting married.. haha..)

ok and i was jus nua-ing the whole of yesterday la.. only time i went out was to go eat prata for lunch at casuarina curry.. i like the new aircon setting but it makes the prata and curry cool too quickly.. ah well.. the rest of the time i spent watching tv at home.. NDP on tv wasn't too good... the cameraman din take the human towers! so wasted.. that's like the toughest part la i think.. and they din show it on tv.. sighz..

and ya.. bcos i was nua the whole day, i couldn't sleep at night! and i made a horrid mistake by playing the healing hands soundtrack at bedtime.. i think it just made my mind spin further..

and so i woke up with this terrible sense of tiredness and here i am now..
oh back to the cab issue.. when i got outta the house i saw this girl crossing the road, to the road i'm walking to! i was like.. sheet.. must be here to qiang3 cab.. and she was.. i din know what to do.. flag dun flag?

quite fortunately however, a cab on the opposite side of the road saw me.. gave me a signal and said he was coming over.. (wah! i din even flag u know..) i was like.. ok! and then when he u-turned over, the girl jus came walking towards me (the cab, rather) and she looked pissed... i din know what to do! but the cab driver signalled towards me and i was like.. heck la.. and i got on the cab.. leaving the girl still looking pissed on the road..

got on the cab and the cab driver was like.. "that girl looks angry.."
i was like.. "ya.. haha.."

anw.. sent another msg to msP to tell her i got on the cab.. but there was no reply.. i jus assumed her phone was off or what la.. but alas.. when i finally got there, her gate was locked.. called her.. and found out she was in the office!

so much for my assumptions.. i'm always doing silly things like this.. like getting lost while driving to causeway point.. or like getting lost while driving back from causeway point.. (u get the idea..)

the tim tams on the table were so appetising.. and i just couldn't resist them.. am munching on my 2nd one as i type this... and this is funny too.. cos i had opened the package on tuesday.. and to prevent it from going bad.. i taped up the opening.. so much that i couldn't take it apart.. and so i had to open it from the other end now.. better finish it today so i wont end up with this taping problem..

oh and i forgot to mention.. the cab driver was talking on the phone the whole time (in malay).. and at the end of his conversation.. he told me about it! was some family problems... think i shouldn't be writing them here (though i don't think very many ppl read this blog..)

kinda surprised la.. haha..

and i'm suffering from a headache now.. sleep too little..

and i'm so on about doctors now...

sunday!

2006-07-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

it was jus shop-shop-shop today..
went out with dear ms tay and ms tse.. think this was prob the first time i've gone out with the 2 of them like alone..
bought like damn alot of stuff.. 2 berms from gio, pair of sandals from urs, and like... damn alot of masks! bought 2 tubes of peel off masks and 2 sheet masks... not forgetting that i still have 10 sheet masks at home, 1 tube of clay mask and 1 tube of tomato mask.. ah welll... can buy n keep la..
but the freakiest thing of the day had to be the stupid carpark fee.. parked at taka and it cost me a bomb of $14!! wah lau.. i thot sunday was per entry.. apparently it's not la.. darn.. i take cab to and from home also cheaper lor..

ah well...

and i skipped my home visit cos shopped too much go home too late.. *guilty*

i can only say.. try harder next time!

darned sleepy now.. but i gotta make sure i finish reading ms tay's cleo by today..

adieu..

ps: dear ms tay.. so paiseh.. ur cleo.. after having gone thru an ordeal in bag.. has aged..

lotsa km

2006-07-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

ahh i was supposed to be writing this post like this morning.. but cos we finally had work to do (and quite alot of it), i din have time to slack too much today.. and so this post is like.. written now la. (duh)

i was just so appalled yesterday that i told myself i HAD to write this down today.. so what was it? well.. i travelled a total of 80 km yesterday.. EIGHTY! i think that's a mighty lot of distance considering that singapore is jus a tiny place.. well.. in the morning i drove to work.. my place to bishan to woodlands.. that's 20 plus km.. then i drove to fro from lunch... that one's immaterial.. the big one came when i drove to tampines from woodlands.. i think that was a whopping 30km! it took me half an hour to get there.. and mind u i was driving an average 100km/h while i was on the expressway.. and i thought sle/tpe was a fast route.. sigh.. oh and i obviously clocked the remaining km on my way home from tampines la..
i bet that was my longest-travelled day (on my own drive la..)

ya so that was yesterday...

today was ok.. just that now a bit paiseh to make some ppl stay back with us cos we've got work to do and they've completed theirs.. but i dun think they mind la..

tmr gotta make sure i rush everything out.. cos i haven't got much time to do work over the weekend.. and i should be spending my time now doing some work.. (but i'm not! sharks..) and it's like 10.30pm and i still haven't bathed.. i think i'd better go now.. sharks.. it's gonna be 11.30pm the next time i come back to my comp.. which means i'll end up having to sleep late! sharks! sharks! sharks! (ok i think there is enough fish here to generate one big pot of sharks' fin soup liao...)

...

'um chio'

2006-07-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

haha.. i'm like back to slacking again...
i was just reading some of my old posts and revisiting my old old old website about tv serials..
and it was really funny! i mean.. it's just hard to imagine that i actually did those things (or wrote those posts)
and yah.. so i was 'um chio-ing' cos i'm totally a i-look-like-what-i'm-feeling person..

think i need to do something about being less "emotions-on-display"...

yeah.. that's all for now.. everyone's like busy and i'm err.. writing a post..

(i'll just post again in 5 mins.. haha)

this is my 3rd post in 2006!

2006-07-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

hmm it's like 6pm at marsiling.. and there hasnt been much work today.. kinda slack.. i jus hope i wont die next week! and i jus changed my blog skin! nice rite..

something wrong!

2006-07-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

hey! there's soemthing wrong with my blog! after say one year of non-maintenance... my tag board is gone!!! and so has everythnig else! like my wish list etc! sigh.. and i havent fulfilled my wishes yet leh!! wah lau...

sian

2006-07-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

haz.. here i am.. posting again cos i'm bored.. my poor blog.. i only turn to it when i've got nothing to do! (or shld i say.. poor me.. for having nothing to do is so sad...)

i jus went to visit my frens' various blogs.. and i gotta say.. those teenagers are so high tech! wah lau.. go look at their blogs man.. good design.. looks sooo pro.. and all i know is to use the templates provided here.. :(
oh but i also got to say that cos their blogs are so funkily designed.. (maybe cos i'm super suaku) i din know how to navigate! couldn't find their posts at first..

anw.. back to why im so free today.. it's a freaking saturday and i should be out!! i wanna go eat buffet with my bro.. but he's got NDP rehearsal.. sian.. and where did my mom go? FACIAL.. with my other aunts.. wah say.. dump me at home leh! and there's nothing to eat at home! my maid cooked this big pot of mee-tiao which is supposed to last me breakfast lunch and tea.. anw i got my way around it.. found this bag of sweets and beets.. first time seeing this.. anw it's a bag of chips made from sweet potato and beetroot.. not bad leh.. but despite it being made of healthy vegetables, chips are nonetheless still freakishly unhealthy! take a look at the nutritional facts.. wah lau.. fat and carbo-rich..

anw.. so super sian! it's a saturday but no one to go out with! it's so ironic! when i'm free i can't go out! and when i'm not free there are just PLENTY of activities that i have to miss.. why like that??

and so my mom says since u're so free u can go pray a bit more.. but i'm jus plain lazy! and i refuse to read! dun wanna read the papers.. dun wanna read the CL.. dun wanna read the SSA times.. i'm LAZY! i jus wanna be entertained but there's nothing on tV!

in the mean time maybe i'll go figure out how to make my blog as funky as the kiddos..

aargh!

2005-04-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

my face kena the red raised patches again... dunno is it cos of the use of bha..
applied it on my face on sunday.. and my skin looked better on monday.. so i thot.. let's use some more.. but who knows.. i applied less on monday but on tuesday my face was already itchy and irritated.. until now.. it's been almost a week! but i guess cannot ignore the fact that i mite have exacerbated the condition by applying aha on my face on... friday i think...
haiz.. i think im just killing myself..

and now i've got red face like 100% of the time so much so that i have almost started to believe that im developing rosacea.. wth.. ok im nuts.. i just hope i wont be so nuts as to dump more stuff on my face this time round..

today's regime

2005-04-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

hmm today my face is like extra oily.. mouth peeling a bit at the sides.. forehead, sides of nose and chin abit reddish..
can't quite remember what i did to my face yesterday.. but the day before i used the hydrating mask, and the day before that, i used bha.. i think..
therefore today's plan:

ultrafine cleanser
microfoliant
hydrating mask
refining mask on nose (still deciding..)
differin all over

i hope this will work..

tmr's shopping list:

neutrogena fine fairness masks (finally giving in to temptation)
fresh foaming cleanser
st ives' scrub (not sure yet, or maybe ionax scrub)

kinda enjoying this period...

2005-04-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

b4 i forget, i'll say this first.. i had this dream a few days ago.. dreamt that i got 2As and 1B for exams... (kinda like my target la..) B for sm, as expected.. and the weirdest part of the dream was that i got my grades the day after the sm paper.. which meant that i knew the future before it happened... interesting eh..

ok back to the topic.. i'm now kinda glad that we're studying sm this sem.. cos this whole revision period just feels like a holiday to me.. (i dont like the subj so i dont care liao)
and so the only real thing i need to study for is PE.. (risk can wait til both papers are over)

the few shows i'm watching now:
1. good luck!
2. dolphin lovers (or watever it's called)
3. golden faith
4. the 9pm show on scv (dunno wat it's called.. this show is only ok la.. i'm watching it just to kill time.. the stupid mystery is so not exciting and the plot moves so slowly..)
5. yu le 100% (this one's got small and big S, but doesn't beat kangxi.. somehow this variety prog also doesn't keep my eyes stuck to the tv)

i'm actually waiting for the new ch8 9pm show.. the one with fann wong.. called jing zhong ren (literal translation: person in the mirror)

newest update

2005-04-09T17:04:00.000+08:00

wahaha... i think i'm hooked!
jus found out...
xuanxuan is 171..
gallen lo is 183..
wah lau! perfect match! just like lawrence ng and ada choi!!! ahhhhh....

more tv!!

2005-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

ah! i thought i'd be able to stop watching tv after the "fan lihua" and the "angels of mission" ended.. but no... i'm h0oked onto a new serial... a FEW new serials i should say.. first on the chart is "good luck", a japanese serial with *gasp* TAKUYA KIMURA! it's about pilots too (just like "triumph") then at the same slot is the the dolphin lovers show.. thought it might be quite crappy at first.. but then.. hehe.. i think i'm a sucker for crappy shows.. esp those love stories..

and what i've just watched is "golden faith" (got xuanxuan!!!) but v hard to finish watching this cos it's damn long.. 40 episodes i think.. and since i prob can't download all the episodes now, i've resorted to reading the episode synopses online.. ahhh... but it's a really old show.. but i'm still hooked! gallen lo and xuanxuan look quite gd together..

ok this needs further elaboration..

these 2 ppl met in australia thru a mutual friend.. (i missed some of this part) but anyway after they got back to HK, gallen lo started to woo xuanxuan and well.. they got together.. (ok this is really a long story cut short)

anyway, my point is, they're damn happy together.. and then u think it's such a wonderful love story until u look at the details...

the girl is a lawyer
the guy is the shao4 ye3 of a jewellery shop
he drives a convertible (bmw)
'nuff said!

and so... (ok my materialistic mind sets in).. how can any girl not be happy when she diao4 dao4 such a gd catch! so it kinda struck me that it's realllly important to find a rich bf.. ahha.. (i mean.. he's gotta be nice and all la.. but... y'know.. ceteris paribus... dot dot dot)

and then i was just reading this part where she got pissed with him and flew off to australia for a break (wah lau.. extravagance!) and GUESS WHAT... while she was hoping for err... a hope, he arrives in a HELICOPTER.. i'm like... WAH LAU... ok.. so he's rich! how to not please a girl when u've got money like that to hui1 huo4..

ok i've made my point. .and i shall continue reading the rest of the synopses before i come back with more "wah lau" findings..

*and in the meantime i can also daydream about how i'll meet a jewellery shop guy too...*

reflections..

2005-04-07T11:53:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be studying right now.. I've got such a tight schedule that it's scary just to look at it.. and it's all my fault cos I've been slacking too much in the earlier part of the week.. Now I've got double the work to do.. but nonetheless I decided to come online to make this post cos this issue was super bugging me.. REally..

As I was doing my prayers just now I was suddenly reminded of something that msN said to me.. (or if I remember correctly, I think it was what msP said msN said.. sth like that la)
Well, basically the contents was something about my being slack because I've already found a job.. Dunno why but I keep getting reminded of this every now and then..

And thru all that stuff that's happened in the past weeks, I realised that maybe msN and I don't really know each other after all.. It was through all my insensitivities that caused her to bear negative feelings, and it was precisely because of this that I found out about all her misconceptions about me.. (which, though seem minor, mean a great deal to me)

I dunno where to start.. But basically every time I think about that job thing, it leaves me feeling really terrible.. It's a feeling of being.. maligned.. with a tinge of anger, a touch of bewilderment, and what have you.. Even though what she said has no consequential bearing, it just makes me feel.. bad..

And why?

Well firstly, I think I'm most appalled by the fact that I thought we were like damn good friends and understood each other.. but turns out.. no..
And to explain why I'm so *** about this (even though it's just a small little insignificant thing), I'm slacking definitely NOT because I've already got a job.. Esp not when this isn't a job that I really want or anything.. Saying whatever she said just makes me feel like I am this never-do-well, can't be bothered person that's content with an audit job.. (not that I hate audit to the core or what, but saying that I'm slacking for this really just makes me feel indignant!)
and the worst thing is, this a horrible reason that totally understates my REAL reason for not striving..

She's been doing super well, and I see why she's working hard and everything.. but I HAVEN'T! AND seriously, I truly believe that no matter how well I do this sem, things are not gonna change.. and if that's the case, then there is no point in trying to do better.. all I need to do is maintain an average standard..

If u still don't get my point, the above paragraph was written with absolute helplessness.. and I should believe that a friend would be able to understand that it's not MY WISH to do badly.. Conversely, I've been doing badly enough with all my grades on a steep decline, and the last thing I wanna hear is that it's coz I'm already contented with what I have.

Well I'll definitely try to be contented.. there's no use in wishing for something out of reach.. Contentment is joy.. as they always say.. but well.. u get what I'm trying to say.. rite?

In any case, my super tight schedule is now making me damn worried because now I'm afraid that I won't even be able to pull off the average standard.. I must NOT get anything below a B!
argh.. and I've wasted enough time here.. nearly half an hour.. I hope this thing isn't gonna recur in my brain..

wah say

2005-04-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

i am shocked... just found out today that jia3 jing4 wen2 is pregnant!! and 7mths at that!! din even know she was married!!

hehe

2005-04-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

after watching "wu ming tian shi 3d" i discovered there's this actor called 欧锦棠 that's kinda shuai! haha... he's like the usual supporting actor and seriously in all the other shows that he's acted in.. he never stood out... (he looks a bit like Wang Xi, with small eyes and all)

but this bodyguard role in the show.. and the link to charmaine sheh, made this character stand out a bit more.. plus all that black suits (so cool) that he keeps wearing, and the fact that he's kinda tall (i just did a check.. 1.8!!)..

did a search on his name and realised that he's not on the tvb actor list! dunno why.. thot he acted in quite alot of serials.. but anw.. found out that he's involved in theatre work and also a bian1 ju4.. (wah say.. talented!!)

interestingly i also found this article online about someone who feels the same.. this person also watched "3d" and kena dian4 by this otherwise bu4 qi3 yan3 actor.. haha...
ok.. so dat's all for today..

looking forward to the episode tonight..

ps: oh yah.. forgot to mention that his kungfu in the show is damn gd.. ;)

Another silly attempt to improve my English...

2005-03-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

Well, as the heading suggests, I'm here because I was just reading a few other ppl's (oops... abbreviation again!!) blogs and realised that HEY! i should really start typing in proper English before I lose it..

But it's really tough... for one, I've already spotted one more mistake above.. I forgot to capitalise one of my 'I's.. Ugh.. and I'm now torn between the US and UK English.. should I -z- or -s- my verbs??

As I was typing some messages in my Nokia phone, I realise that alot of verbs are not in their dictionary if I use the UK form.. Weird isn't it? I thought Nokia was from Finland.. Oh and within these few seconds of typing, I kinda already decided to use 's' instead.. as I always do.. well, it's really easier to type 's' rather than 'z'.

And just to remind myself, I've got 2 presentations tomorrow! And somehow I just don't feel like sleeping.. but there's nothing left to do.. I've watched all that I wanted to on TV.. and I've read almost everything that I wanted to read on Flowerpod.. But the worst thing being that there's something wrong with the site and it doesn't allow me to post.. (And I'm like.. what's the point if I can't make myself heard? Terribly irritating especially when I really DO have something to say..)

In any case, I'm gonna be bringing damn alot of stuff to school tomorrow.. (and I also realise that typing 'tomorrow' is one helluva chore..)
First, I gotta bring my laptop for presentation.. which just means that I've gotta bring my adaptor, mouse and the super-bulky laptop bag too! I used to carry my laptop around like a book.. (umm.. or should I say.. like a notebook) hehe.. But apparently that was bad la.. exposes it to unnecessary shock... I guess this explains why I often hear weird sounds going on in my hard disk.. Ah well..
To move on, I've also gotta bring this whole STACK of econs notes to school.. to return them to miss veg.. And I'd better remember to zap them or I'd just have totally wasted all my effort lugging them to and fro..

Seriously speaking, I don't see any point in going for lessons anymore..
First tutorial tomorrow: Insurance
The tutor hasn't been doing much and there are no more presentations.. I have absolutely no inkling of what's gonna happen tomorrow.. (this will give me an excuse to arrive late, i hope)
2nd tutorial: Econs
No choice.. Gotta do presentation for this tomorrow.. think we're the last group.. but it seems to me that there is one more lesson for next week.. Which is like.. FOR WHAT?? ( I have to reiterate that I've been going for lessons for the past weeks only because I've got lessons BEFORE and AFTER it..)
3rd tut: SM
I absolutely abhor this subject.. as I might have also mentioned in my previous post today.. (Hmm.. I think I must be so bored that I keep posting here..)
And up till now I still DO NOT KNOW what I need to know for this subject.. Someone please help me! Oh.. and the reason why I go for tuts is coz I believe I might be able to find an answer to that question there.. But as you can see, after faithful attendance for the past semester, it hasn't done me any good..

I guess the only thing I can say is that my timetable really killed me.. TOo slack! Ah well.. So it's all my fault la!!

(I'm slowly slipping back into Singlish again.. no no! I must stop this!)

Okay I'm suddenly becoming popular.. I've got a couple of MSN messages coming in.. so... adieu for now!

exam depression

2005-03-31T17:21:00.000+08:00

kowz i think i'm gonna suffer from depression soon! can't remember whether i mentioned this before, but the other day i when i thought of studying, my stomach just felt unwell.. then just now i was going to start studying SM and i just couldn't concentrate.. reading the words just made me felt like i wanna tear up the book..

well i guess this is partly cos i really DUN LIke this subject.. REALLY.. and reading it just makes me feel UGH.. and i was just so frustrated that i slammed the book on the table and threw my highlighter over it.. my mom thot i was throwing tantrums and gave me a lecture!! this is called huo bu dan xing!! i was feeling terrible enough having to try to read something i don't like, and there i've got my ears blasted with sounds i don't like too.. eek..

and i've absolutely no idea whats going on in SM.. it's like crap.. failed my case analysis the other time.. how to do well in the exams? and it doesnt seem like the textbook has enough stuff to teach me how to write a case.. and it doesn't help that i have a whopping 13 chapters to read.. so much for enjoying my last sem.. i'm just so afraid that i'll miss something out and end up not knowing something that would have been a pc of cake if i read my book.. which is why i cannot just abandon the textbook like that.. (i was really contemplating that)

and i do realise i don't know alot of simple concepts.. wat corporate-level strategy, diversification and what have u.. and dunno what.. differentiation at different levels.. wth!

tmr got the final 2 presentations.. hope i dun screw up to end up being hated by my grpmates.. sighz..

i'm hoping working life will be better...

sigh!

2005-03-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

i know this is really crap.. but i cant help it!
i knew i had piano tmr.. but i still wasted damn alot of time today.. wanted to practise.. but i never could remember to do it..
and now i STIL haven't practised the new song that i goT LAST WEEK!
tmr i'm just so gonna be wasting my time there.. 20 mins.. jus sit there and try to fig out the score.. so pissed with myself..
and i suddenly realise i've got 2 presentations on friday which i havent totally prepared for.. wth..
ok.. i better write down a list toremind my self..

practise piano
read light of dawn
prepare for econs presentation
prepare for sm presentation (damn scared for this one cos my answers are just totally cut out from textbook)

itchy

2005-03-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

i finally managed to figure out how to make my adobe print correctly.. but due to an overlook, i made the acrobat print 9 pages per page, while my printer setting was at 4 pages per page.. ended up i got 36 slides on ONE PAGE... words damn small.. but i'm not gonna waste my time/paper reprinting...

and as i wrote in pompom's blog.. im getting the itchy-but-cant-scratch feeling again! damn sick.. my forehead is feeling sorta uncomfortable.. but when i touch it i can feel it with my hands, but my forehead can hardly feel my hands.. and the itch feels like it's internal.. i read something about it before.. it's some kinda temporary condition.. but i can't remember what it is... someone pls enlighten me.. damn it.. it's a horrible feeling not to be able to feel urself.. worst thing is to have an itch that cannot be scratched.. argh... and i guess i have to attribute part of this to the fact that i now have a layer of dead skin over my face..

now for some medical tips.. this layer of dead skin is a natural reaction by the human body to protect it from future irritation.. ok duh.. u prob have figured that out.. now i'm waiting for tihs skin to peel off.. drop off.. wash off.. or whatever.. it's starting to turn into a dark color.. peel off liao will mei2 mei3... haha..

face log

2005-03-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

sunday went kot

applied sunsense on face..
moderate sun exposure
by the time i got home, face was already red and itchy
dunno is it sun burnt

monday

face swelled.. bro says look like pig.. and like i was holding 2 fishballs in my mouth
no choice.. gotta see doc
suspected photosensitivity, allergic to sunscreen
went to see dr ong..
2nd in queue, but waited 1hr
she said could be a combination of factors (what i gathered: bha already made my face v sensitive, then along with the sun exposure my face just couldn't take it, and even with a low percentage of chemical block, there was an adverse reaction)
stuff she gave me:

ultrafine soothing cleansing lotion 118ml, $20
golden lipid drops 7.5ml, price unknown
skin repair cream 10g, $12
fucicort 5g, $7
tinted moisturiser spf15 10g, $12
medicated concealer 2.5g, $4.50
allergy medication, price unknown, name unknown (deltasilar or sth..)

total = $89

my face's a lot better today.. the swelling's gone down..
anw.. according to my research, i think i kena contact dermatitis.. yup..

reminder

2005-03-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

this sunday can go try Dr Ong...
remember to call up to ask whether she's on duty
when tbs concealer finish liao can try niks medicated concealer

pain!!

2005-03-25T01:49:00.000+08:00

wah lau my right cheek has a painful bump that is going to sprout tmr! wats with the bumps???!!!

sad case

2005-03-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

after one week of nightly bha usage, my skin kena burnt...
after yesterday nite's of laying off bha, plus applying oxygen cream on my face.. much better liao
today also applied more oxygen cream on the cheeks.. yay.. healing..
but wah lau.. i need to do something!! cannot keep on going thru the stupid cycle of

acne --> clear --> dry --> skin repair --> and BACK to acne..

wat the h***

and finally convinced myself to see a derm.. but everyone's so busy..then gotta wait 2 weeks.. so in the meantime i wonder if i shld continue to self-treat, or go get differin from GP, or may be get retin-A.. then dunno need to get PC cleanser or not.. wah say.. damn confusing..

ok aside from this...

i think i'm developing work withdrawal symptoms..
today was gonna do my sm ppt.. had a terrible time.. wrote a few slides worth of crap then had to go tour agency liao.. luckily.. cos anw i was dying..

and now i'm actually supposed to continue with the slides.. but after like half an hour of wasting time, and going to the differin site to renew my confidence, i'm still not prepared to do it yet.. partly cos i dunno how to do! i can't come up with answers to teh question..
and jus now when i was watching tv, when i suddenly recall that i haf work to do later i just felt sick.. like really sick.. like stomach felt unwell.. (ok la.. i admit i ate a bit too much.. but really the work jus made me feel worse)

and i really just DONT FEEL LIKE doing the slides la! im staring at powerpoint and then dunno what to write.. and dunno how... and this stupid thing is less than 5% lor.. wah lau!

and i shld reiterate this.. i should go study cosmetology! i'll prob do a lot better and even do research willingly.. haha..

aargh i just duno how im gonna continue doing my sm la.. it's 11.20pm now.. i came into my room at around 10.20.. how how how.. i dun wanna sleep late! i already got v bad hei yan quan.. but i gotta fin this by today! tmr got more work to do... i hate powerpoint!

can't take sad scenes..

2005-03-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

today at the crematorium everyone was just crying and crying like nobody's business.. esp dua-mm's sister.. she cried damn loudly while everyone was jus like quietly sobbing.. i really hate these crying scenes.. they just make me feel like crying even though i don't want to.. and regina, though for the past few days and she's been looking fine and only sobbing a bit from time to time, burst into tears (and pretty loudly) when dua-mm's coffin was gg to be burnt.. damn sad.. and then i saw dua-pek cry too.. cannot take it.. i totally din wanna cry but the tears just found their way outta my eyes.. ah well.. better not talk about this or i'm gonna wet my keyboard too..

anw.. gotta keep a constant log for my face..
so yesterday nite i used bha on whole face, bp on spots, moisturiser all over..
today was just plain za..
no significant changes.. well, at least now the face ain't that red n peeling.. but nonetheless v zitty.. dunno if the differin is working.. ah well.. wth..

tonite's prob gonna try the same thing as last nite.. if bha works fine, then i can give differin a miss liao... so mafan to hafta get a prescription for this thing.. and my parts of my forehead is damn itchy.. keep scratching.. dunno y..

and there were a few raised bumps on my left arm near the wrist yesterday.. today still got.. dunno where it came from either.. maybe the funeral place a bit dirty.. now it's still there but i think it's considerably flatter.. hope it'l go away soon..

hair stick

2005-03-13T13:10:00.000+08:00

just bought a hair stick recently.. but damn disappointed! out of ten times that i try, i get like only one time right.. the hair just doesn't stay.. and when it does, it's terribly tight! and i feel like the stick is poking into my head.. arrgh..
but i guess the main reason is cos my stupid hair is not of uniform length.. sigh... now gotta wait damn long for the hair to grow out..

on 2nd thots..

2005-03-12T16:13:00.000+08:00

i don't think bha + za is such a gd combi after all.. face is not so oily, but i think the dry patches are irritating me.. just kinda realised i've been having red and occasionally dry, itchy but basically unstable skin for the past month! that's like a damn long stabilizing period la!

i guess better stick with the oiliness of bha + neutro.. or use za plain.. hmm but then im beginning to think that za may be harmful with the alcohol in it.. sharks..

clearing up..

2005-03-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning, tried bha with neutrogena..
let the bha dry before putting on moisturizer..
still somewhat sticky, and the face definitely is oilier than usual,
but now the irritation has roughly subsided, and the skin looks somewhat clearer liaoz..

hmm.. now i'm attributing the irritation to either
1) too much BP
2) exposure to sun (on sunday.. with BP)

ok.. yesterday night i did bha with differin, this morning the skin looks somewhat clearer.. but this might pose a bit of irritation.. after washing face, looks a bit red.. cheeks abit itchy (but maybe cos i put bp on cheeks yest evening)

this morning i did bha with za...
let the bha dry first too.. not bad.. skin not v oily.. think this may be a gd combi..
but there are still dry patches at the side of the cheeks..
gotta see how..

tonight dunno whether i shld put bha + differin or plain differin.. (scared over-irritation)

ah well..

jus a lil note for myself

2005-03-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

started using differin around jan 28 '05..
wah say.. i think abt 6 weeks liao

breakout!

2005-03-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

kow dunno why.. forehead is super cluttered..
dunno is it super purging or super irritated...
the rest of the face is kinda clearing up..
so the forehead..
is it too much bp??
or is it the bha?

..

2005-03-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

okie..
this morning: bp all over + neutrogena
efx: not too bad! surprisingly.. face doesn't turn oily until after quite awhile..
can continue trying..
tonite's expt: bha + differin + neutrogena (see how)
then try bp + neutro again tmr..
:)

purging??

2005-03-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

this morning:
bha + za
status: one zit on right cheek, plenty on chin area

evening:
moisture defense only

tonite:
status: as per morning, plus revival of zit on left cheek, plus one red bump near right nose
extractions + applied differin only

so wats the problem?
bha?
or moisturiser?

note: moisturiser only, absorbs quite well, moisturiser + bha: quite sticky

face log

2005-03-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
nite: differin
morning: moisture defense only

--> not v gd.. think this mite clog face.. v oily.. try moisture defense with bha base

Today
nite: bha all over + differin
morn: za only..

--> za only mite be clogging too.. also.. mite be too dry.. flaking on cheeks

Tonight's plan: differin. tmr --> bha plus za

face log

2005-02-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

heh.. i've decided to keep a 'face log' to keep track of my skin's progress...
today used:

AM
PC cleanser
PC toner
1% BHA (satchet)
BP on chin
ZA sunscreen

PM
cleanser
toner
bha
differin

shld go buy moisturiser soon... today flaking at the lower half of the face.
also.. new zit on left cheek.. there for 2 days liao.. prob due to the coming fullstop... sighz

bloody suay

2005-02-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

can't believe wat happened today..
i was out for dinner with my mom and bro and then while we were walking i suddenly felt a lot of water dripping... i looked up at the ceiling thinking there was a leak.. but there wasn't..
then i suddenly realised that my bag was wet..

kow!

my whole water bottle was emptied into my bag.. no idea how it happened.. the whole cap just came loose.. dunno if it's cos i forgot to screw it..
everything in my bag was flooded..
EVERYTHING..
including my phone...
it took a nice swim inside and konked out..

well... it's spoilt now.. when i turn it on it just lights up and there's no display..
this is called bad karma..
everytime i drop my phone i'm like.. spoil then spoil la.. then can buy new phone..
now really spoil..
and it doesn't make me any happier that the 7270 is still so ex..
but that's not the point..
point is.. the most important thing that i lose is all the info in my phone..
all my phone numbers, some email addresses, some residential addresses, lotsa birthdays, and very importantly, my calendar schedule!!

bloody suay..

chinese garden

2005-02-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

dong dong dong qiang
dong dong dong qiang
dong dong dong qiang dong qiang dong dong dong qiang

that's how u can describe my house now..

spent a huge part of my day yesterday helping my mom with the cny decorations..
and as my title suggests, my home looks like chinese garden now (though I don't really remember what chinese garden looks like)
or should I say it looks like a jungle..
lotsa things hanging from the ceiling..

and my mom crazily went to buy this noise making thing..
some kinda boy n girl figurine with some huge chinese gold ingot.. got light one.. and got damn alot of sound... "gong xi fa cai" plus lotsa firecrackers..

god knows why she bought that thing.. so damn noisy.. waste battery some more..

but thankfully, i managed to send out enough distress signals for my mom to keep that thing away..
and also to put some of the decorations OUTSIDE the house.. (less cluttered mah)

ah well... i guess i shld be thankful that cny is coming!

I wanna watch Constantine!

forum

2005-01-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

anw.. this is my current fave hotspot:
www.flowerpod.org

shocking!

2005-01-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

after i got my bday money i thot i was rich.. and i could now spend without blinking.. (or thinking) but well... I WAS WRONG! it's now the end of january.. and after abt 7 weeks of 'thoughtless' expenditure, i decided to check my account balance.. (well, i never do draw cash from the ATM, and so i only get to check my a/c bal online..)

i jus did.. and lo and behold!
i'm like close to $1000 poorer!!

i'm SHOCKED..

to give myself some credit, i gotta say i paid for all my petrol bills myself.. and that $147 hair coloring was self-sponsored too.. (usually my mom pays for my haircuts)

well i wouldn't be so shocked if i didn't have to pay for the 7270 myself.. kow... that is so gonna deplete my savings man.. maybe i shld forget about the phone for the time being..

(and hey! phone prices still haven't dropped? why why why?)

oh i just realised chinese new yr is coming.. ha.. gdgd...
this will help me top my a/c...

*anticipation*

bad hair..

2005-01-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

i colored my hair on saturday.. asked for the red highlight that i've been wanting ever since dunno when.. but instead of the usual normal base plus colored highlight, my hairdresser was suggesting a 3-tone coloring.. 2 highlights plus one lowlight(ie the base).. picks for highlight were: red and light brown (somewhat blondish), and lowlight was this dark colored thing with a purple tint.. ooh... sounded exotic i thought.. and i was just eager to see what my red highlights would look like..
but ugh... after a 4 hr butt-numbing wait, all i saw was brown! the lowlight looked like dark brown, the red looked like dark brown too.. and the only thing i could see was the blondish highlight which only came in a few strips.. and being v disappointed, and with the hairdresser explaining that RED red can only be seen if I bleach my hair, I also had to part with $147 which was after a 20% discount.. kow.. i think i could've achieved the same effect jus by highlighting my hair with that blond color... and save myself maybe half the cost..

but on the bright side, for the past 2 days of hair washing, the water's been turning red.. which means the dye is still coming off... so maybe the red will show up soon... (but then again, most ppl with red dye usually end up with brown hair... i hope that will only come to me later on..)

so i'll continue washing my hair and wait for my red to show up..

and while i wait, i'll just look at the red font of this post and hope..

Dare to Dream

2005-01-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

I have a dream
A dream of peace and harmony

We share your dream
We dare to dream
The dream of peace and harmony

Open up your heart
Let the warmth shine in
Come rain or shine
Take it in your stride
Be it troubles or sorrows
Wipe away your tears
Let the rain wash away your fears

You are not alone
Who's in the rain?
Hold my hand
And we'll brave the storm
Form the waves of passion
Pulsating with Life
Tis the ocean of humanity

We have a dream of peace and harmony
Reach beyond yourself
Advance towards your dream

We have a dream of peace and harmony
To touch each human heart and bring
Hope to all the world

怀着理想
投入生命的海洋
勇敢去启航
开创新世纪

怀着理想
投入生命的海洋
触动每个心灵
燃起未来的希望

We have a dream of peace and harmony
Reach beyond yourself
Let's join our hands together as one

Fulfil our dream
We dare to dream!

e face problem is back!

2005-01-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

after like a month or so of rather ok complexion... i've to sadly say that the zit attack has returned! sigh.. i do think my face condition is directly correlated to the state of my health.. haven't been feeling v gd lately.. late nights, cough, sore throat, wat haf u.. and my face totally reflects that.. it's a state of *undescribable*
looking at it jus makes me feel sad... hey msP... wat were u saying about Booboo's sister's facials? I wanna try too! got improvement not?
ah.. and i thought my face was curing... looks like it isn't... so sad...
and maybe i shld jus go off to sleep hoping that my face will heal..

thot i'll write sth..

2005-01-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.. after writing the title, realised that ppl DO get influenced by things they see repeatedly.. wat do i mean? the word "sth" is actually an abbreviation for "something" (if u dun already know..) and i've always thot that "sth" was a WEIRD way to abbreviate it.. never thot it looked presentable enough.. (come on! wat's with 3 consonants and no vowel??) but here I am.. using it.. for convenience's sake i suppose.. and i actually picked this up from the he2 zi3..

anw, (ah.. yet another abbrev that i picked up fr him..) i've recently watched the aviator.. last thurs, to be exact.. and i hear it's recently won some golden globe awards.. ah.. that's what i call value-for-money.. haha..

interestingly, i've recently found leo dicap and julian cheung v similar.. basically it's the v boyish look.. and the fact that they're both making appearances now.. (Leo in Aviator, and Julian in Xi Guan Da Shao)

ok back to the aviator, if u've read tay yek keak's review in Life!, he describes Cate Blanchett and Kate Beckinsale as looking like Leo's older sisters in the show..
and i totally agree!!
Kate not so much la.. but Cate's really got this lao3 liao3.. she definitely doesn't look young, much less to be paired with babyfaced Leo.. but well.. i guess jie3-di4-lian4 is all the rage now..

and i realise i've run out of things to say.. apart from the fact that (gasp!) i've got piano tmr.. and (not surprisingly) i haven't practised enough.. ahh.. this slack skool thing is really affecting me! my whole brain is now only filled with tv, shopping, movies and food.. or should i say, tv, food, shopping, food, movies, food..

been eating too much heaty stuff.. got a sore throat now.. sux..

so i guess i shld go get some sleep since staying up is supposed to worsen it..

nitey nitez..

sighz

2005-01-17T14:21:00.000+08:00

was going to watch tian ya xia yi just now.. but ended up the cd couldn't be read.. dunno why! there goes a perfectly gd series... sigh!

confession

2005-01-16T01:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. after much deliberation I finally decided to write this entry.. (but still in a not-too-sure kinda mood which explains my choice of font color..)

Well.. I kinda had this little crush on this junior some time ago.. (which kinda explains why I came up with the shuai theory..) but well I'm glad to say that I'M OVER IT!! yay..
Well this so-called junior ain't exactly related as a junior in terms of skool or eca or whatever, but very junior in terms of age.. kowz.. flea didn't call me a PDF for nothing..

Realised I'm quite a Zi Xun Fan Nao person.. always worrying about things that haven't happened.. and things that have happened but are too small to be significant..

Ah well.. anyway I just kinda wanted to make this announcement to strengthen my resolve.. haha.. so there..

update..

2005-01-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to watch an episode of 'tian ya xia yi' before i go to bed.. but decided against it.. dun wanna get hooked and consequently get panda-eyed..
before i continue... remember i said something abt lucidol sux? (the jap hairspray thing..)
well... i finally found a use for it..
it's kinda gd as a pre-blowdry spray.. so i jus spray LOTS of it onto my hair before i blow dry it.. and voila.. my hair doesn't turn frizzy.. yeah.. so that's doing some justice to it..

ok... my day today..

today was supposed to be this gathering thingy.. we all agreed to go ktv.. but ended up.. some ppl couldn't make it.. some fell sick... lunch ended up only got 5 ppl.. (out of the original 10).. and after that the ktv session only got 3!! (oh yah.. i jus remembered i'm supposed to write in proper english.. so here goes..)

Well, it's just kinda sian diao to organise a gathering which flopped almost entirely.. There was one guy who could only make it in the evening so he called us up to find out where we were.. I was like.. err... there's only me and wq here now.. so you sure you wanna come? So of course he didn't.. and I spent the rest of my day with wq.. As I've mentioned before, I've been hanging out with wq so much that we can almost be considered les.. Haha..

Dinner was at Pastamania.. Took my chances and decided to go there again today (after a first bad experience at the branch at Funan, I didn't quite dare to try it again..), this time at the Tampines Mall branch.. Well, my final conclusion: SUX TOO...
This time round I ordered a Linguine Vongole (basically pasta n clams in white wine sauce) and this chicken pizza thingy.. The pizza was roughly ok, but the pasta was.. let's just say we thought they forgot to add salt.. And my lesson from this: don't try exotic stuff at cheap places.. okay fine.. I wouldn't call this exotic, but I do think the normal tomato and cream sauces looked fine.. (Just a bit of background, at Funan I ordered this 'Prawn n Shrooms' thingy.. was supposed to be in some kinda dunno what sauce.. but turned out totally soupy and disappointing..) This time round the white wine was like totally soupy too.. Think they added too much water.. In a bid to make their white wine look like alot.. Hmm.. But I would say I'll wanna go there for at least one last time to try out the basic stuff.. Y'know, this is after all a cheap pasta place.. Pretty good for days with close-to-empty pockets..

And so after a full but not-so-satisfactory meal, I went shopping.. bought a pair of white sandals from Charles n Keith.. One of my only pairs of non-absorbent-sole-footwear.. I thought it was flat enough to prevent slipping.. And yay! finally got myself a pair of white footwear..

Before going home.. there was quite a bit of inner struggle.. haha.. Well, as I said I was at Tampines Mall, and guess what? I didn't drive today.. took MRT.. so the one hour ride home was a big enough deterrent for me to even think about going home.. I should say I'm totally spoilt.. Dawdled around for quite a while before I finally decided to face my fate (no.. taxi is not a choice..) and take the train.. Turned out it wasn't too bad.. Luckily I had my bro's mp3 player with me.. The time in the train wasn't too badly spent.. So hey.. I can still take long-dist public tpt after all =)

----

My long-awaited Nokia 7270 is finally out.. after like 3 months or more of waiting, it's finally in stores and awaiting my acquisition.. But ugh.. it's like $668 with a 2-yr plan.. Thought that was kinda pressurizing on my pockets.. MsP says I should wait.. Prices will drop.. My bro said that too.. but well.. he wasn't as convincing as MsP.. haha.. MsP u did a gd job! =)
Well, she said nokia prices would drop faster than other brands.. and I sure hope it does.. I'm now biding my time and hopefully it'll go below $550 before I she3 de2 part with my $$$..

Yeah so anyone who's read this, pls let me know when the prices drop! =)

so sian

2005-01-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

just finished watching 'triumph in the skies' today.. was damn on abt it at first.. but towards the end it was realllli draggy..
and i'm now just writing something to kill time while I download another episode of another series.. which i think won't end up well.. cos they've onli got like 7 episodes up for download.. which means i'll be left hanging there again..
and i think everyone's said this liao.. that skool's so slack it's unbelievable.. in fact.. i think this one day week thing mite jus kill me.. too slack that i'll jus totally not do my work.. no momentum..
hope not..
the file download is getting slower and slower! it's like perpetually stuck at "5mins left"... first it was 105k/s.. now it's down to 74k...
ah 4get it..
anw i shall just look forward to the ktv session on sat.. haven't gone to karaoke in ages... hopefully i won't be too embarrassed to sing my guts out... haha...